Vehemently

As everyone was thinking or planning what they wanted to do or will be doing with someone or a group of people I was left like always all alone. which I am fully used to it. I never had anyone in my life. I felt like a ghost who never existed, if that makes sense.

Even with my family.. well, kin since I dont like the word family.. I felt like I was all alone in this world. No one wanted to talk to me unless they wanted something. No one wanted to do anythign with me, only use me for a benefit or whatnot.

So I’m used to being alone, cause I have been all my life.

After I finished with converting the paper charts to digital sicne the system was back and the hack crap was handled. I shredded every file and logged out before I went to grab my things. change after getting cleaned up and then I headed for the garage. surpassing Jack and Robby bickering about Robby going on his never-returning trip. the same one he wants to kill himself on.

After putting my things in the back of my car. I nearly crap my pants due to not hearing or seeing Dr. Park.

“Didn’t mean to frighten you” he says noticing my expression

“You all good.. what can I do for you Dr. park?” I asked

“You can call me Brendon or Bren” he says

“Alright, Bren. what can I do for you?′ I asked

“are you doing anything for this loud holiday?” he asked

“I never do anything major or celebrate some holidays. I mean I’m always alone, so what is the use” I say

he looks at me like he can't believe what I say.

“you arent hanging with the other Pitt crew or whatever they like to call themselves?” he asked.

“never get asked, never, get spoken to unless they need a scapegoat like when Whitacker needed you to stop string at him for is ignroat reply and I said what I had. I am the liing ghost of the ER here. hell in life” I say

“I see you perfectly. you are not made up or a dream.. you are part of one just not an imagination,” he says

“well Bren in all my life without needing something or wanting it. you’d be the very...very first one to see me and actually be intrested in what I will or may be doing” I say

He shook his head

“how bout this... if you will accept... no pressure and no pity at all.. How bout I take you to dinner.. or we can head to my place and eat takeout as we learn each other besides what we know at work. Then hopefully at the end of the night you’ll learn and know you are not aghost, you are human, you matter, you are incredible. your voice, opion, thoughts, and other things mean something.” he suggest

“alright” I say after thinking it over

He smiled and we both got into our cars which I really didnt notice his was next to mine. I thought he had a specific spot for him. like most doctors do.

Anways I followed him to his place. He asked me what I’d like to eat, ordered it refused my money when I wanted to pay him for it. and as we sat down on the living room floor with the coffee table holding the food and our drinks we got to know each other.

“I will confess that I used to not know anything about you even when you’d call up for a consult. untill one day I had walked past the break room, hearing you talk to yourself or singing lightly,” he confesses

she sighed

and gave him a look that basically said, " See, I told you, ghost.”

" But after I heard and laid eyes on you, and not a glance, I couldn't stop thinking about you or wanting to see you again," he says

I was shocked and in disbelief.

"Really?" I asked

He nods his head

I smiled while looking at him.

He aided me in putting a transfer request in from ER to Ortho.

I didnt think it was a place I’d honestly transfer to, since I got so used to being ghosted. But after he talked so much about it and really asked me to do the transfer. I did, and I am not gonna regret it.

That same night I learned a lot about Bren. He’s a hell of a great kisser; he can pleasure your body wonderfully, make your brain feel so empty, he loves to worship your body, and his whole shark persona is half. Yeah, he bites, but when it comes to aftercare, he is such a teddy bear.