And There You Were.

And there you were. Laying there. A shell of yourself. Fighting, but losing. Struggling. Scared. The moment I found out, I knew it was over. I remember it all in flashes. Screaming, crying. Rushing to the truck. Forgetting how to breathe. The air is stuck. Old memories rushing in my mind. Hopping the fence. Going down that hill. My legs are weak, my heart aches. But I need to see you. I need to be there. I need you to know you are loved. I need to move you, roll you over. You should be able to see. But we are both too weak. You can barely lift your head, your mouth won't close. I clean your face, maybe it will keep the flies away. I brush you slowly, you've always loved being brushed. I hold you. I can't seem to let go. You grunt and groan and whinny and neigh. You're in pain. I wish they told me sooner. I hear him coming. He's finally coming. He can help you.  But it's too late. You're too far gone.  The sunset is beautiful. Just like you. Just for you. You've left now but you're still moving. I can still hear you. He says its reflexes. The sky is dark now. There is a storm coming. I hear the scissors snip snip snip. He cut your tail for me. I sob. She doesn't want me here when they take you away. It will hurt too much, she says.  But I can't let go. I don't want to. I can't breathe again. It hurts. My heart has shattered. My hoodie still smells like you. The sounds you made echo in my brain. You are all I can think about. Our memories. They will stay with me forever. I miss you. I love you.