Experiencing Heavenly Realm
โYanyan.โ
My eyes snap open. The voice echoes like a bell somewhere beyond the ceiling of my skullโsoft, patient, impossible to ignore. I blink and the world comes into focus: walls lined with books, shelves crowded with photos and scrolls. Magic diagrams. Martial-arts poses frozen mid-strike. Rows and rows of knowledge, all of it humming with a strange, old-life familiarity.
โYanyanโwhere is this? Where am I?โ I whisper to myself, though my throat still feels too small for the question.
Is this another world? Of all the clichรฉ possibilitiesโsummoned to a castle, dropped into a villageโI never expected a library for gods. I remember shouting that thought out loud. โWhat the hell is thisโWHERE AM I?!โ
A voice answers me from nowhere and everywhere: Recall everything from the start.
Remember everything? Who said that? Heyโ! My mouth opens to shout and a white sphere slides into my vision. It threads into my head like a needle. Memory floods back in a sharp, drowning rush: my forty-seventh birthday, the chest pain, the ambulance lights. One moment I was a man with a mortgage and a horrible singing voice; the next, Iโm staring at a ceiling that doesnโt belong to any hospital Iโve ever seen.
I died of a cardiac arrest on my forty-seventh birthday. Iโwhat a clichรฉ. Reincarnated, of course. Of course. Why wouldnโt it be clichรฉ?
I reach for a book because old habits die harder than people. My hand finds nothing. No fingers. No hands at all. I look down and panic spikesโthere are no arms, no legs. A warm, ridiculous sense of disbelief wells up: am I a fetus? An embryo? A toad?
โCalm,โ the unseen voice says. โDo not be afraid. You are still formless. You are not yet born into that world. I will give you a chance. When you are born, think this phrase first and everything you wish to know will be stored in your mind. Live fully, my little one.โ
Live fully, huh. Cute. Also vague as heck.
โWaitโdonโt go! What are these books? Why me? Whyโโ I crawl, if thatโs the right word for a collection of thoughts trying to move, toward the nearest shelf. My fingersโmy non-existent fingersโbrush the spine of a volume titled Ancient Runes and Martial Legacies. The page opens under my will, and names spill out of it: Roar of the Void Dragon. Palm of a Thousand Dynasties. Dark Thunder Dragonโancient arts the sort of people in comic books fantasize about. My heartโif I had a heart in the usual senseโstutters.
I switch volumes obsessively, one after the other. Technology manuals from a life I remember: schematics, circuitry, crude sketches of machines I once built in garages and basements. I read them like someone drowning reads the surface of the water firstโcareful, hungry. Sleep? Who needs sleep when you might be a frog-boy about to be sent into a world of magic?
Three months pass like pages turning in an old book. The voice returns. A column of light swallows me. I feel myself slide, tear free from the book-filled chamber, and thenโcold and startlingโsudden newborn air fills my lungs.
I open my eyes again, and the world is loud with crying and blessing. Warm hands, rough with honest work, cradle me. Faces blurred with tears of joy gather close.
โQuiโer, heโs a boy!โ a woman cries, voice raw and shaking. Her hair smells like home and river water.
โNei Yan, thank the godsโโ my father says. Hands callused, eyes wet. They name me there and then: Yan Yan. Our familyโLong Yanโhas a son. A real child to hold and to raise.
They donโt know the truth. They donโt know that somewhere above the clouds, a god tucked knowledge into my skull and set a phrase on repeat: Memoir dโ Joho Xixi Jeongbo. It sounds like gibberishโJapanese? Chinese? Korean? A garbage bag of languages. Whatever it is, I repeat it under my breath and something else answers me.
A translucent frame blooms in front of my vision. Only I can see it: a clean interface floating in the corner of the world, a search box blinking patiently. I can feel it in my mind, like the pulse of an old operating system booting up. It displays everythingโstats, names, places. When I look at my parents now, little tags float over their heads: Quiโer โ Human (No Affinity), Long Yan โ Human (No Affinity). Levels. Status. Is thisโsome kind of game?
I press my non-existent thumb to the search bar and the world answers. Luzviminda Continent, it says. Eight major houses: Bai Yun, Cheong Ah, Xuan Xu, Gwan Shi, Woo Ji, Nie Tong, Sosuke Danโand Hong Yan, where the Long Yan family lives. Weโre a subsidiary branchโsmall, respectable enough but not powerful. The Yan family is minor in a world of major families.
Great. Subsidiary. Perfect future for all kinds of plot-driven suffering. Iโm a newborn. I canโt even pronounce the phrase properly, yet my mind holds knowledge like a hard drive with far too much data. Cultivation systems, elemental affinities, martial techniques, andโworseโthe realization that Iโm ridiculously overqualified for infancy.
Four years later, and nobodyโs less suspicious than they should be.
โYan!โ my father calls. โWhere did you run off this time?โ
โAt the river,โ my mother answers. โThose rocks keep him busy.โ Their voices are the soundtrack of normal life, but beneath the surface everything is not normal. I levitate a pebble and play with it between my invisible fingers. Itโs such a tiny, stupid joy to make small things dance.
โCome on, Yan. Go to the countryside with me. Make friends.โ My father smiles, proud and streetwise. If only he knew.
โI donโt want to,โ I answer, and I mean it in the way only a toddler whoโs seen way too many manuals can mean it.
He laughs. โKids these days.โ
I can read his thoughts, by the way. Donโt tell him I said that. The power is both fun and alarmingly convenient.
We sit down to eat and the normal morning collapses like a rotten floorboard.
BOOM.
The door explodes inward. Rough hands, shouting, torchesโbandits, the kind of lowlife types who think a village is a safe bet for plunder. Panic is sudden and wet in the air. My parents moveโmy father ordering, my mother cryingโand then I see what I donโt expect: a spear of light, a flash of motion that isnโt mine, and my father falls.
Time does something strange then. Pain pours through like a second heartbeat. Anger swellsโhot and animal. I have a memory of a city hospital, of screens flipping through warnings. None of that prepares a child for the sound of his fatherโs head hitting the floor.
My mother screams. She grabs me. โRun! Yan, go!โ
I scramble. I am four and everything inside me fractures into a single, terrible decision. I shouldnโt be able to do what happens next. I shouldnโt be able to make their throats stop and their bodies go silent with a sound that didnโt exist in my old life. But I do it. I screamโnot with the voice the world recognizes but with something olderโand the banditsโ heads fly. Blood arcs like a terrible constellation.
Silence drops over the room like a curtain. I collapse, chest heaving. Tears come raw and hot. I donโt understand everything that just happened, but something in me knows the animal laws of cause and result: my rage can carve reality.
A voice that is not the godโs this timeโdifferent, amused, ancientโsits cross-legged nearby. A man in a blue kimono, striped, with hair pulled back into a crownlike knot, holds a staff and watches me with more curiosity than concern.
โOya? You awake, boy?โ he asks as if heโd found a clever insect.
I stare, blurred vision and all. Just who is this guy, sitting in my living-room-turned-shambles, with the calm of someone whoโs seen too many miracles? My chest still burns with fury and fear, and I know, with a certain terrible clarity, that this is only the beginning.








