Summary

I wanted to start writing this because I feel like none of you actually understood me.. You just judged me. You were right to but... We're family right? Did you even love me in the first place? You were so quick to toss me aside... I don't understand Why? Whatever The chances of you seeing this are little to none So.. I'll write to my heart's content Express my real feelings Because Fuck you For not valuing me Even though I may have something wrong with me You threw me away So for that Fuck all of you Except Liz Liz I understand what you did So I don't hate you... Anyway To the story I guess I hope that you won't judge me Like they did I hope you understand You of all people Should be able to understand me

Genre: Romance,Other

Author: 💜🔮Cosmic Angel

Status: Complete

Chapters: 11

Rating: n/a

Age Rating: 18+

Pro.

You ever have something you crave?

Something...

You can't live without?

Something that consumes

Every one of your thoughts

...

I do.

I can't think without it

It consumes my thoughts

Until...

I can't function

I can't think

Eat

Sleep

Work

Nothing

It hurts sometimes

Not a physical pain

Not something that...

I can get rid of

I need it

I crave it

It drowns me until

I do anything to get it

...I'm an addict

I searched

and Searched

and searched

but...

I didn't have to anymore

After I met him

He fed my addiction

I could feel again

All I needed was him

Until...

He changed

Left me

For my sister

Said 'This isn't healthy'

...

I knew I should have

Stopped his therapy

When I had the chance

He said he won't 'enable' me anymore

And then I was drowning again

This time...

I couldn't stop it

I begged

He didn't

Want me anymore

I turned to the ropes..

They helped..

For a while...

Then I was

Drowning...

Again

....

help

please

can't

breathe

... Ironic

That's what I had wanted

Wasn't it?

Drowning

drowning

d r o w n i n g

Can't find my way up

Oh....

Its almost time

To go

Bye.