Self therapy ?
"Okay let's just take deep breaths" I tried convincing myself that 5 hours was enough to finish studying neurology.
"Yeah right Anna it is enough to finish the first fucking page" am talking to myself now too. GREAT.
"Look it's okay that we? You? I?" How do you refer to your self hatred self "took a break we were tired"
"Tired?!! Tired?? Broooo you studied one lesson for chem" yeah and failed it thanks for reminding me
"Be honest with me for a sec, if this were anyone else would you be this mean" I asked myself?
"Well you're not normal and that is proven by the fact that ur talking to yourself so that separates you from the 'anyone' category"
"Am practicing self therapy" I said in defence
"Is it working"
"Clearly" note the sarcasm
I really need to stop talking to myself.
Okay Anna, breathe, go make some coffee and study. Yes there is a big chance you'll fail but it is your first year so give yourself a break.
Yeah cause I deserve it so much after failing most of my classes
I can't breathe, talk nor stand so I do the only thing that makes sense: lay on the floor and cry my eye balls out. Is that even medically possible, guess I'll find out in the next SEVEN YEARS...
I can't do this..
Dear younger self,
Forget med school...
