What love can do

I yell tears streaming down my face. A look of pain crosses his face. And I gasp realizing what I said.

'' B-babe I-I d-didn't mean it l-like tha-"

He cuts me off with a glare.

" Fine if you still can't trust me, after all, I did for you then leave.''

I run to him grabbing his arm." Please Jaeden I'm sorry I hadn't meant i-" I get cut off again when he yanks his arm from me.

"Go" his voice emotionless I sob as I walk to the door of his apartment.

Walking to my cheap apartment I ignore the looks being given to my poor appearance. Walking inside and closing the door I slide down the door. I'm worthless just worthless letting my trust issues eat me alive. I look ahead directly at my drawer. No Olivia don't you said you would try harder. My bottom lip trembles as I stand up opening the drawer. An hour later I'm crying my own self-hate. I ignore the stings on my wrist. You did this to yourself you keep hurting him and he's going to leave you like the rest of them. Don't be worthless. You don't deserve to live you should just be gone. These thoughts swimming around my head. Rolling over onto my stomach. I reach under the bed for my sleeping pills. But before I put them in my mouth there's an aggressive knocking on the door. Too lazy to even get up I curl up even more into Jaeden's sweater.

"Olivia open up"

" No" I mumble crying into my sleeves

" I swear if you don't open this damn door I'm going to break it down"

I quickly get up knowing he has the strength to."What" I say putting up a cold mask.

" Olivia" he quickly hugs me and I try not to moan from his pressure on my arms.

" Go away," I say attempting to pull away from his comforting embrace.

" Olivia stop," He said pulling me tighter into the hug

I moan from the friction of the sweater against my arms. I felt him tense and my eyes water. He knows the type of moan it was. My eyes water but I try to keep my tears back.

" Olivia show me your arms," he says

I quickly shake my head frantically trying to pull away from him. He releases me from the hug but quickly and gently grabs my wrist. It feels as if my tears are falling into my lungs. I can't breathe. He slowly pulls my sleeves up and I feel his breath hitch. I release a loud sob.

" I'm sorry I-I d-don't deserve you, Y-you should j-just go now p-please,"

I say making a weak attempt to push him away. I fall to the floor my legs giving out on me. He quickly smoothens the fall picking me up and placing me on his lap. I snuggle into his embrace releasing all of my feelings through my tears. And he understands. An hour later I'm exhausted and mentally and physically drained while he rubs comforting circles on my back.

" Are you ready to talk?"

"I don't want to," I say hugging him tighter

He sighs."Olivia you can't keep things inside cause if you do then this happens," he says taping my hand.

" I-I was just overwhelmed and thought you would leave me alone like everyone else and it would be m-my fault," I say quickly

" Oh, baby I would never do that not to you cause I love you and when you love someone you'll never leave them."

I sniffle trying to clear my throat. " I-I'm sorry for hurting myself and breaking my promise."

" Baby I'm sorry I couldn't be here fast enough I was upset"I pull my head from his neck.

" No, it was me the entire time you don't have anything to apologize for I-I love you, and I'm sorry"

He looks into my eyes lovingly and leans in, kissing me. After we pull away we just sit in silence.

'' So what do you want to eat?" he asks me

" I'm not really in the mood for food right now "

I hear him scoff before picking me up. " Delicious cooking by me it is. I smile slightly drowning in my love for him.

( This is gonna be an Agere book just so you know so not all of it is sad or anything.)