Chapter 1
I think this has got to be one of the most important letter or story that I will ever compose. I say that it’s important because everything that will be written in here is coming straight from my feelings for a special girl that I always adored. I’m not really that good when it comes to writing since it can easily make me bored like I don’t even read books that often. Remembering as a kid until now that I have always preferred watching the films instead of reading it. I think the only books that I will be fine reading is Harry Potter and The Diary of Wimpy Kid but other than that, I don’t think I can find enjoyment from reading compared to watching the actual stuff. I decided to write this letter because I really wanted to show her how much I truly love her. It also seems like things are clearer when they were written down.
To the love of my life, heyyy. It’s me
I’m just a boring person to start with. I don’t even see anything special on me or at least I wish there is. I can be a little shy at first but trust me I’ll make sure to talk to you as much as I can and I’ll be the talkative type of person that you will have. I appreciate you trying to have interest on the stuff that I like, well I mean there’s only a few stuff that I like doing anyways. Again, I’m very simple. I play games mainly and watch pretty much anything that I find interesting enough to watch on the internet. I also tend to overthink a lot. It’s funny to hear that coming from someone that doesn’t even read that much books but still, I think through my overthinking I can imagine a lot of stuff. So basically there will always be thoughts in my mind and those thoughts are incredibly odd.
But hey maybe you find me differently compared to how I view myself. Maybe you’ll find me different in a good way or maybe you would even find me colorful in a dark place on where it’s just all black and white. Considering that you’re my girlfriend maybe you’ll even find me lovely, like the sunrise every early mornings on where you watch it while drinking a hot coffee - one of my favourite things to do.
Either way, I am beyond thankful for you on choosing to be your lover. Someone that can stay beside you and take care of you - cherish you and love you like it’s the last day on Earth.
You know to yourself that I always say this to you and it’s that I love you so much. I will never get tired of saying that. If I was getting paid for each time I tell you that I love you, I would probably be a millionaire now and we can have our trip to Korea and have as much food as we want hahaha. I love you with a depth and passion that I have felt for no one else in this life. I always say this to myself that even in times on where I find myself very unlucky, I would always put in mind that I at least hit the jackpot on having a woman like you to have in my life and that to me is more luckier than winning the lottery or even luckier than getting multiple 5 stars on Genshin summons lol. Other thing is that I would have never thought that it would be possible for a person to have the ability of occupying my waking and sleeping thoughts to the exclusion of almost everything else. You tend to be always in my mind. I think about you a lot throughout the course of my day. It doesn’t matter on what I’m doing because you still find a way to enter my mind.
I never hoped, aspired, dreamed that one could find everything one wanted in a person. I was not such an idiot as to believe this was possible. Yet, in you, I have found everything I want: you are insanely beautiful, gentle, charismatic, sexy, wonderfully intelligent and wonderfully silly as well. I want nothing else in this life than to be with you, to listen and watch you —your beautiful voice, your beauty — to laugh with you, to show you things and share things with you, to explore your magnificent mind, to explore your wonderful body, to help you, protect you, serve you, and lastly to tell you on how beautiful you can possibly be.
In case I haven’t say it today. I love you.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
One thing that I always look forward into is the time that we would finally be together all the time on where I could kiss you anytime I want. I really am looking forward on one of those days. First thing in the morning when we wake up next to each other hugging tightly looking like a mess with our bed hairs. I will tell you that I love you as soon as you open your eyes in the morning. With emphasis and enthusiasm, I will say, “I love you soooooo much!” Then the last thing that I will do before we sleep is to tell you how much I love you and how much I appreciate you, “I’m so grateful that you’re my girlfriend. I’m so happy that I get to spend my life with you.”
Besides loving you, I also love a handful of things, maybe more than handful, though.
I love walking while talking to you. I would have the deepest conversation while walking with you through the park, the busy streets, or even in the rain — I love it all, only if it’s with you.
I love it when you talk to me about your day. I’ll ask, how was your day? And you’ll ask, did you eat well today? — or we can talk about anything really. As long as it’s with you, I can talk about, say, the boring lecture that my prof discussed on our meeting or about the issues and chikas you always make sure to let me know as well XD. We can literally talk about the most boring stuff and I would still find that special and something that I would always love to do with you.
I find it really amazing on how quick you can change the way my day goes. I can have one of the worst days in my life and you can easily change that bad day into a good and wonderful day. I still don’t know on how you do it like really! You can change that sad face of mine into a face that has the widest and brightest smile. I think the cheat code to that is just by simply looking at the photos you sent to me. That’s actually one of the reasons on why I have an album specifically with your pictures just in it in my phone. I would honestly just look at your pictures and that can put a smile on my face faster than the speed of light. (over exaggeration included lmao).
I also want to apologize on how fast I can get jealous. Jealousy for me is terribly corrosive, it is a physical pain as though you had swallowed acid or red hot coals. It is the most terrible of feelings. But I can’t help it. I try my best to not feel jealousy but I just I can’t - at least I can’t. God knows I’ve tried. But remember, I am jealous of you because I love you. You are never jealous of something you don’t care about.
It’s hard for me to express my true feelings for you but at the same I can also say countless words on how much I love you. I really did write this letter with the purpose of showing appreciation to you. You can read this anytime you want and if you’re done reading it, you can always read it again especially on times that you miss me a lot.
