Chapter 1
Women can’t be trusted but I trust you ,
Love is madness , and I love you .
In the beginning I was unsure about you ,
wasted a lot of time over-thinking whether this , whether that
Whether this woman would fit my standard .
I was looking for comfort , but someone open-minded .
But over a period of many times I saw you .
Until fellowship , in light of Christ,
Your skin was so vivid and so bright ! , and like you - so young and vibrant! , and with your smile , you blew my eyes with your glory .
Almost thought that you were the sun .
With my head in the clouds in the clouds ,
I was taken by your beauty .
I pulled you aside like you were a wandering dove, and caged you within my worldview ,
then I walked you home , but I was actually leading you towards my heart .
We talked but you were always so distant , but still I pursued, and I ran for you .
I was patient and I pursued , even when you made things awkward , and even being embarrassed -publicly , but still ! , I stayed, to learn more about you , people could see I was failing , but still ! , I stayed , and tolerated your mood swings and your mixed emotions .
You told me your story - that you were abused , misused and mistreated ,
But you survived , and I could see it in those eyes , so big , so bright , so Beautiful , and Blue ...
I knew from then on , to be very very careful with you ,
And no man , nor person would ever swindle with you .
While I live , I will ! , forever love you .
But still you were distant and difficult , yet I still pursued .
What did I want ?? - still I was unsure about you .
But then I looked at you , again , again and again , like looking at a painting over and over , again , again , and again .
AND OH GOD ! , I was TAKEN - AGAIN !! .
We talked one time , and you understood culture , music , Hollywood and movies .
I was taken and I wanted comfort .
With no friends in Kitwe , Zambia - but well acquainted , you became my only friend ,
My girlfriend .
Over the phone you were still distant ,
Even face to face , I still couldn’t see you ,
I was upset , and I would always ask , WHATS WRONG !??
….
So I threw my phone , to be alone .
But still i stayed .
I broke you , and made you cry , but you don’t even know how many times before I slept and prayed , how much I would cry .
You said I hurt you , why didn’t you tell me , instead on the day we break off you make it known and even hate me .
Then there was one time we touched , and like the fresco painting of The Creation of Adam - of the 1500s , by Artist Michelangelo ;
Philosophy in my view and Christianity in your view - my babe ,
You make my world .
Know thyself , and who are you ?? , I believe I’m the the reason you now ask , who am I ??
See I know you better than you do ;
You’re an Artist and Sensitive , and an
Actor with character ,
Socially awkward , but I think it’s kinda cute ,
Crazy and Destructive , but you still Love
Blue .
I visited CABU because of you ,
I wolfed ! the library to understand you ,
Went to Kitwe Church for you , took a turn to Faith Baptist Church to get to know you .
Went to UCZ , Mormon and even Catholic too ,
Prayed and knelt down , OH GOD ! , I didn’t know what to do .
But in all that I read the Bible for myself ,
Took myself to church ,
Prayed and prayed , fellowship and the like,
but still , I asked questions.
So who do you say I am to you ? ,
Your friend or the wolf! ? .
And Who do I say he was ? ,
A man , a Guide and an Artist .
So for him please excuse yourself ,
For her - my babe , please come home into my arms and fulfill my heart - that’s not there .
My family thinks I’m thinks I’m selfish ,
You think I’m greedy ,
and even at times , I think I’m a little self centered ;
Egocentric .
…
But I’m the wolf ! from the Kabin (Cabin) ,
and even as the wolf! among Lambs , you humbled me ,
and even as the wolf! among Sheep , you can still trust me .
But ! , as the wolf!, I must be Wary ,
and as the wolf! , I must protect my Women .
For my babe ! … I would kill ! ,
an Oxen ,
a Buffalo ,
a Red Hartebeest Antelope,
a Ram ,
a Mountain Goat,
and a chicken !!! .
And drag all this relish to the wolf’s Kabin , made of fine , different and eclectic types of woods , get the wolf’s women to prepare an exotic meal for you - my babe .
Find you seated in the Newly - Renaissance - Styled design living room with the chimney chain-smoking during noon ,
Lose myself in your eyes ,
and your skin , like the eyes of a Cheetah , and feed you like you were Queen Margherita .
Und das alles - Le Coeur .
WEIL ICH DICH LIEBE .
