The teddy bear

{Sky pov}

Prologue { 6 months later }

I walk up to his door holding the teddy bear preparing myself for the inevitable. I knock on his door, when I was meet with once again with his very beautiful face, light brown eyes that you could just melt into, his nice kissable lips, with his messy dirty blonde hair that I used to love running my fingers through. I thought I was ready for this, I thought I could push myself to get it over with turns out I was wrong as my eyes start to water just by looking at him.

He seems to notice of course because he can't pretend to ignore me like he's been doing, no instead he wraps me into his warm arms and sends a sense of familiarity and comfort through my body, as I rest my head on his chest and let it out, as he holds me, after about 20 minutes my eyes have cried themselves dry for now, and he brings his hand to my chin and makes me look at him, " what's wrong my teddy bear?" Oh here we go again back to where we started you stupid stupid brain, why can't you just let him go, no instead I shake my head and press my lips to his in hopes he would kiss me back.

It seems as if God was looking down on me for he began to deepen the kiss making me forget why I was here in the first place.

{ Six months ago} <3

I remember waking up to the smell of coffee filling up my room, you know those cartoons where those people float away trying to figure out what the heavenly scent is, yeah that's what I felt like, I was doing rn as I made my way downstairs to the dinning room. I stop in my tracks as I turn to look at my parents in tears and a police officer standing in front of them.

My mum looks up and sees me standing there she motions for me to go to her, I hesitantly take a step forward until I'm face to face with my mother. " Mom what's wrong?" I could see her face trying to hide the emotions that were threatening to break through. "Baby, your brother- he- he got into a car accident on his way home to see us, and he-" I could see my mother trying so hard to keep her tears at bay, as she tells my brother had just got killed in a car accident, I didn't hear anything else after those words left my mom's lips, I fell onto my knees sobbing, with nothing but muffeled silence all around me. It felt like my world had just been torn apart, my brother was my best friend he was always there for me, to help put the pieces back together, who was going to help me this time, when he's the reason I'm breaking at the seems.

My parents tried to talk to me ask if I was okay, I ignored them and ran upstairs to my bedroom and slammed and locked my door. I went to my closet and got my teddy bear, that my brother got for me when I was 4 years old. The first time I ever cried from pain, because my best friend had moved away and my brother vowed he would always be there for me to pick up the pieces. This was all I had left for my brother to comfort me right now. I ended up crying myself to sleep that night.

I woke up the next morning feeling numb and dead inside, I didn't know if I could even drag myself out of my bed. I hear a knock at my door, and make me way, to the door and open it, to find my mom, looking at me, "sweetie you really need to go to school" she did not just tell me I need to go to school when not even 24 hrs ago I found out my brother died. I stare at her just waiting for her to take the words back that she just said. But she doesn't she just says the same words again with stern look on her face. I just nod my head and drag myself out of bed and start to get ready for this day.....

Hey guys I hope your enjoying the first chapter of my first book on this app I'm also doing one on Wattpad completely different than this one let me know if y'all would like to read it that's all for now. Stay safe and be happy