Chapter 1
She told me: "Now I feel whole".
I was holding her and just came in her, these moments stick in your mind, as if I was a fisherman frome the Pacific Ocean, lucky enough to find a pearl inside an hoyster.
That love got real pearl in it, never been capable of loving in that way again.
Now she's a manager in London, living the fast life, she found an answer to the troubles of living in her self-efficacy, always, always knows what she wants and how to get it.
I've known a different girl.
We were hugging, waiting for our plane, she told me: "I wish things were this way forever". I wished that too.
Together we created some pretty rituals that I always loved, days stolen to quotidianity which were some of my best adolescent times. Our first cake, exploring ourselves, that warm family feeling she gave to me, London, Berlin, Formentera...All the things we did that got us in arguments and all the things we did to get back together. Toasts to us.
We split, growing different in time, being young it's confusing, we grow knowing nothing about life and we change as we learn on the way.
I felt like sitting on that dock for a long time, when we met and her life seemed perfect and mine just the same as always, she learned from the money and my mentor was the Dharma.
