chapter one. acception
Sometimes it’s just hard to accept some things.
Even when you saw it with your own eyes.
It might’ve been years or just a couple of months.
Or days.
It’s hard sometimes.
It’s hard to think that the one you made so many memories with.
Is actually gone.
And sometimes it’s hard.
It’s completely okay to deny that they’re gone.
“That they’re gone.?”
Yes, that they are gone.
Sometimes, you can hear their whispers,
Saying how proud they are of you.
Or you can feel their presence.
It gives happiness or joy.
To know, they can be still there with you.
The one you spent your life with.
The one you have all of your memories with.
The one you can truly say
“I’m really truly happy”
Around.
The one you could tell anything to.
The one who made you think,
there was still a purpose in the world.
It may seem, for a bit.
That they might be drifting apart.
The thing that you were afraid of.
Losing them.
They get meaner when you rarely get the chance to talk to them.
They don’t often care about what you say or do.
They often lose interest in you.
They block themselves apart from you.
Then. it’s back to the beginning.
Learning how to trust,
Not just how to trust them.
How to trust yourself.
How to trust yourself to not get attached.
Learning how to trust yourself to give yourself to another
It can be hard.
Really hard.
Then the next one,
They start off super nice.
It seems like they would give you anything.
And then, you say no.
It progressively gets worse.
Each time you try,
It always gets worse.
And you think there is nobody who could help the wounded heart.
Then your one.
They help you.
They did the impossible,
Fixing the burnt hole in your heart.
Then you start to realize,
it’s them
It has been them, for a long time.
how could we be the ones to have been loss to eachother.
