Destiny is so unfair

“Can i call you by your name?”

That was a normal but dangerous question to ask me.

Love is just a word, people say the love of my life will appear someday, maybe it will, but my destiny told me: -You will not meet the love of your life, but you still have someone to call a soulmate.- I believe in my destiny. My life has a path, i`m not the one who drew that path tho, it was drawn since the day of my birth. Well, at least, in my opinion, that`s how the world works...

I remember that one specific day, i was walking to school looking at the grass in my feet, when i tripped over this, tiny, little rock, it didn`t hurt, but maybe, that day if i didn`t ended up crying, i`m sure i wouldn`t have met him, because that was my destiny.

My mom used to say this thing that i never forgot about, “People are born to meet their soulmates, everyone meets them even if it`s just for a second. And i`m sure i was born to meet you, you are my one and only soulmate.” Well, she said that while being arrested, but i think that what she said was right, we`re here to find our soulmates, our chosen ones, the one who will save us even if we don`t want to be saved.

-Are you okay?- He asked while giving me his hand. Me, who was still crying for nothing, unconsciously, held his warm hand. You know, love at first sight? I think that happened to me when i met him, maybe not love, but something was telling me not to let him go, i think i felt that, he was the one.

-So... Are you okay?- He asked confused. -What?! Ah, yes... thank you.- I was so nervous, my voice didn`t even want to go out. When i tried to get up, i felt something strange down there, it was my mestruation... so i stoped. My face was sweating, i felt the blood in my thighs. I was so nervous, so i suddenly started laughing. -Hahaha...- When i looked at him, he was confused. I`m sure he thought i was crazy. I didn`t know what to do, for some reoson i didn`t want to look like a weirdo for him, so... i got up, and started running. When i think about it now, that phrase people say came to my mind, “run for your life”, i think that`s what i did.

After that day i didn`t see him again, it was my normal daily routine with nothing interesting to talk about. There were times when i thought about him, i still remember how his hands were warm in the center but cold in the tips. -If i'm destinied to him, i will meet him again.- I kept telling that to myself, waiting for something to happend.

The next day, the exact same thing happend, i fell, he caught me, but that time i didn`t run away. Destiny gave me another oportunity, an oportunity to change my life. That time i held his hand and got up. -It`s you again... I always find you in the ground don`t i? This has to be some kind of destiny.- He said while smiling. I wasn`t nervous that time, my heart was beating fast, but i new exacly what to say. -I`m sure we were destinied to meet... If it wasn`t, we wouldn`t have met again.- I smiled back at him, one of the few smiles i gave my whole life. I felt he was really, really, really someone destiny sent to me. He looked at my uniform and asked. -Are you from Incheon G. High?- For no reoson, i was happy he noticed had noticed that. -You`re right.- I looked at his uniform and he was from the school right besides mine. -Um? You`re from Incheon B. High?- I was so suprised, i didn`t expect his school to be so close to mine. He pointed at his name tag. -As you can see. But really... This is too much to be just a coincidence, we met at the same place, the same situation, study at the same school practically, we`re really ment to be...- He was laughing while saying that. Well, i know maybe he doesen`t think much about what he said "we`re really ment to be", that phrase, while i`m waiting to tell that to someone, he says it without any wories. We went together to school, at the gates i looked at him, not his eyes, and said. -Well, see you later.- I started walking away, but a hand grabed my arm. -What`s your name? Will you tell me?- He asked me with a confident smile. I went closer to him. -On Soo-Yun... Yours?- He dropped my arm and answerd. - I´m Gam Jung-Hee, Can i call you by your name?

That was a normal but dangerous question to ask me, it has been a long time since someone called my name, i don`t even remember how it feels anymore. I noded. -Bye, i´m going now.- I started walking. -Bye, On Soo-Yun!- I wasn´t watching, but i´m sure he was smiling while saying my name.

Maybe because it has been a while, hearing him say my name made really happy... I remember when i was walking to class, i started tearing up. I was relly happy, someone finaly said it, my name, and so naturaly.Can i call you by your name?”

That was a normal but dangerous question to ask me.

Love is just a word, people say the love of my life will appear someday, maybe it will, but my destiny told me: -You will not meet the love of your life, but you still have someone to call a soulmate.- I believe in my destiny. My life has a path, i`m not the one who drew that path tho, it was drawn since the day of my birth. Well, at least, in my opinion, that`s how the world works...

I remember that one specific day, i was walking to school looking at the grass in my feet, when i tripped over this, tiny, little rock, it didn`t hurt, but maybe, that day if i didn`t ended up crying, i`m sure i wouldn`t have met him, because that was my destiny.

My mom used to say this thing that i never forgot about, “People are born to meet their soulmates, everyone meets them even if it`s just for a second. And i`m sure i was born to meet you, you are my one and only soulmate.” Well, she said that while being arrested, but i think that what she said was right, we`re here to find our soulmates, our chosen ones, the one who will save us even if we don`t want to be saved.

-Are you okay?- He asked while giving me his hand. Me, who was still crying for nothing, unconsciously, held his warm hand. You know, love at first sight? I think that happened to me when i met him, maybe not love, but something was telling me not to let him go, i think i felt that, he was the one.

-So... Are you okay?- He asked confused. -What?! Ah, yes... thank you.- I was so nervous, my voice didn`t even want to go out. When i tried to get up, i felt something strange down there, it was my mestruation... so i stoped. My face was sweating, i felt the blood in my thighs. I was so nervous, so i suddenly started laughing. -Hahaha...- When i looked at him, he was confused. I`m sure he thought i was crazy. I didn`t know what to do, for some reoson i didn`t want to look like a weirdo for him, so... i got up, and started running. When i think about it now, that phrase people say came to my mind, “run for your life”, i think that`s what i did.

After that day i didn`t see him again, it was my normal daily routine with nothing interesting to talk about. There were times when i thought about him, i still remember how his hands were warm in the center but cold in the tips. -If i'm destinied to him, i will meet him again.- I kept telling that to myself, waiting for something to happend.

The next day, the exact same thing happend, i fell, he caught me, but that time i didn`t run away. Destiny gave me another oportunity, an oportunity to change my life. That time i held his hand and got up. -It`s you again... I always find you in the ground don`t i? This has to be some kind of destiny.- He said while smiling. I wasn`t nervous that time, my heart was beating fast, but i new exacly what to say. -I`m sure we were destinied to meet... If it wasn`t, we wouldn`t have met again.- I smiled back at him, one of the few smiles i gave my whole life. I felt he was really, really, really someone destiny sent to me. He looked at my uniform and asked. -Are you from Incheon G. High?- For no reoson, i was happy he noticed had noticed that. -You`re right.- I looked at his uniform and he was from the school right besides mine. -Um? You`re from Incheon B. High?- I was so suprised, i didn`t expect his school to be so close to mine. He pointed at his name tag. -As you can see. But really... This is too much to be just a coincidence, we met at the same place, the same situation, study at the same school practically, we`re really ment to be...- He was laughing while saying that. Well, i know maybe he doesen`t think much about what he said "we`re really ment to be", that phrase, while i`m waiting to tell that to someone, he says it without any wories. We went together to school, at the gates i looked at him, not his eyes, and said. -Well, see you later.- I started walking away, but a hand grabed my arm. -What`s your name? Will you tell me?- He asked me with a confident smile. I went closer to him. -On Soo-Yun... Yours?- He dropped my arm and answerd. - I´m Gam Jung-Hee, Can i call you by your name?

That was a normal but dangerous question to ask me, it has been a long time since someone called my name, i don`t even remember how it feels anymore. I noded. -Bye, i´m going now.- I started walking. -Bye, On Soo-Yun!- I wasn´t watching, but i´m sure he was smiling while saying my name.

Maybe because it has been a while, hearing him say my name made really happy... I remember when i was walking to class, i started tearing up. I was relly happy, someone finaly said it, my name, and so naturaly.