Chapter 1
This book is showing that God delights in everything about us,
Take heart family.
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Foreword
No man can understand the ways of God.
God has a plan, especially in pain, in this dark hour when we don’t know how to bear the pain in our hearts, in our weakness, when all we need is what we lost back.
It’s a dark Gloomy rainy day, everyone wearing black with long faces seeing Adrienne's sister can't stand on her own, as her husband holding her in a posture to prevent her from trembling to the ground, never have I seen Stone so sporadic, it's heart-breaking seeing one of the strongest men I know so deformed
Two days ago, we received the news on Adrienne's condition that it got worse, here we are. Paying our last respect to a dear friend, wife, and sister hurts so much I can’t breathe I still remember that joyful smile of hers. I feel for Stone his first love was taken from him. Looking at him makes my pain feel not as bad.
Two days earlier
Stone
On my way back home all I can think about is Ari and how she might be, Is she in much worst pain than yesterday or can she bear it, last week the doctors said that the was nothing they could do for her, but now she has been home for the past few days it's nice finally sleeping next to my wife taking in her scent that in its self is a blessing,
My whole world crush into thousand little pieces when we found out she has less than a month to live, After that, all I do all day is stare at her trying to capture every moment I have with her. All that's reciting in my mind is Ari all the time. I don't think I could without her, I pull up in the driveway of our house and rush out of the car, right now I know in my heart that this is it but I am not giving much thought to it God knows I can't explain, I run into the house find Anna Ari’s sister breaking down silently in our living room crying hopelessly, I walk to her and lay my hand on her shoulder she turns so quickly, she looks crazy with tears running down her face "shhhhhh” she months me as she cleans her face "She just fell asleep”.
Lately, she has been trying to wait up for me every night but she’s too weak to. I walk into our room to find her sleeping, I know she can’t hear me walk in or stroke her soft skin "love you my angel " her eyes open tears fill up in my eyes as her body responded to my touch "baby go back to sleep” I say not knowing she's up Ari response "I love you my angel” right then I knew that this was it, that it would be her last words to me. I pull her up into a hug.
I hold her close to my chest hoping if I don’t let go she will be with me or better she can live in me or I can take her place take me instead, lord please don’t take my love from me. I can feel her arms loosen their grip on me, I pull her up as I scream my lungs out "Ari!” and that second my whole existence change
“Stone, breathe” I hear a soft voice in my left ear, not enough to bring my angel back not enough to stop the pain from getting stronger and stronger not enough to tell me it’s a stupid prank. I put her down on the bed and the smile on her face makes me miss her, even more baby, baby, baby please, please say something, hear my silent plead Lord. I try to stop my tears from falling so that I can see her beautiful face but they won't just stop.
