Runaway
Running far away,
far enough that I can't witness the crowded cities anymore,
the high skyscrapers,
the city crowded with people,
mankind which looked as if lost all their emotions and became cold,
cold enough that seeing them had a tremendous impact on me,
even could have turned me a cold fish,
the cities that lost humane characters and became cruel,
to live in between this toxic and negative people,
I'd never want to return back,
unless I start missing my loved ones,
I wish they were with me,
right now,
right beside me
The nature embraces me,
as if the mother earth loves me,
as if the land loves my existence,
as if I'm useful to the nature,
in a strange way
Now that I understood,
freedom isn't only about doing whatever we please,
it's about pursuing your passion and dreams,
yet having those pure souls beside you,
having them ask you think twice before you take any decision,
having them care about you,
even when you're a loner,
it feels like heaven
Nevertheless freedom leads one's heart and soul feel lonely,
lonely enough that you understand the actual meaning of life,
maturity is when you understand the actual philosophy of freedom
Now that I'm alone,
far away from the cities,
in an unknown place,
it feels like no one really cares,
in the summer evening,
even in this raging hot temperature,
I couldn't help but feel cold,
the coldness that makes my body numb,
feeling no emotions,
all the feelings that I had concealed has gone,
it feels as if the world freezed,
I wanted to cry my heart out,
but I couldn't
The feels,
the emotions,
the love,
the affection,
the care,
the warmth that I get in the embrace of my loved ones,
and turned out to be Fake,
In this fake world,
I've lost my heart,
my soul that was once pure,
had turned emotionless
This is Life,
the journey from happiness to sadness,
from trusting others to start even doubting myself,
ourself,
starting to hate myself,
that's what life has done to me
-Aarna Meadows
