Chapter 1
Another morning another day,to begin in expectations and ends in experience.
As my thoughts run's through my head as I get up to get dressed,am I really such a bad person as everyone says I am?.
But yet stil devastated from my last lover who had broke my heart by using me as his toy,but yet he can't leave me alone still message me everyday.
All that I have to stop myself from from killing myself in my thoughts is music and socail meadia, just to keep my mind busy.
Just to think maybe he had reason to use me I mean just look at me I'm not like other girl's with perfect body and cherry lip's with an ass to swing, I'm just an skinny little girl who has nothing to offer accept real love,and he was bored and had nothing to do accept to play wih my feelings.
Is that why my father left me because I'm such a disappointment for the family,is that why he had beaten me every night for no reason,and not to care when I was sick or in times when I needed an dad's love, Atleast mother was there for me and tried her best to care for me,but time had passed and my mom got divorced and after that he never made contact for two years,and then all a sudden pop's out of nowhere just to make communication with his so called beloved daughter,if I was his so called beloved daughter why did he treat me the way he did when I was just an devenceless child who couldn't stand up for herself.
Time passed and he gaved up because I could never forgive him for what he had did to me and my mother,like they say you can forgive but wil never forget, throughout school I was teased and bullied for the way I looked,short brown hair with hazel eyes,short and skinny who was just different and more matured than they were, because some People don't mature with years but with damage.
Is this also how it's gonna be when I'm done with high school,as I sighted I looked at my phone's notifications, another person has added me,he looks interesting as if his eyes can tell his story, pain and yet he still managed to smile and not be an outsider I dm him and supprisingly he replied in minutes back and this gave me a warm feeling what could this mean?and why so fast,is this gonna be one of my heartbreakes or maybe my soulmate who's gonna love me for me.
I get flashbacks of my ex who I had thought was yhe world to me,who had pinned me on the chair and almost forced sexual contact,but I refused and luckily didn't get raped but the scenes play over and over in my head.
I can feel as my breath is weakening and my vision blurring, I can hear my name in echoes,but yet my body feels so
