Rylee
A/n: Here's a link to hear the real life voicemail that the cheater left mw threatening to tell the police on me. I put it on youtube. https://youtu.be/Y6dlnvx7Efk
I always knew I was tough. I was raised to be strong. I wanted to survive financially and everything but what I wanted the most was a special unconditional love that many never see in their lifetimes. I found myself obsessed with a guy I had no business thinking about a few years ago and the only way I could free myself was to be honest about the fact that this guy never cared about me. We were friends years ago and I thought he would not only remember but also feel it. When I was honest with myself it hurt but I made it out alive. I changed forever. I became less high spirited and more cynical. I stopped believing in signs and my optimism went completely down the drain.
I turned to online gaming with my friend Ainsley and that’s where I met Nick. I was only 20 and he was quite older but he made me feel so happy that I thought maybe this is what I was searching for. The kind of love that everyone wishes they had. It wasn’t instant, we were friends for a few months. I fell hard. He kept telling me about how much he wished I was next to him because he wanted to hold me. He told me he wanted to snuggle with me and that he wanted to talk to me until the end of time. He inspired me and I smiled brighter than I had in a long time. I was really falling for him. We talked about what would happen when we died and even when we had kids.
I always had this innate trust in Nick. He would never hurt me right? I didn’t think so. Of Course he cared about me as much as I cared for him. For some reason I could never tell him that I loved him. I could say it until he was there. Something was stopping me. I chickened out.
I should’ve taken that as a sign. He told me that he was into younger girls and at the time I took that as weird but not alarming. In hindsight that should’ve raised the alarms. I was young and in love so I didn’t see it.
I visited him sometimes and we would hook up. It felt like more than just sex. It was a lot more intense in person than on the phone. I felt we had some kind of supernatural connection. Like a bonding of our spirits.
I felt like he really loved me as much as I loved him. I was wrong. One day, I was visiting and I forgot something so I went back to his apartment 15 minutes after I left and after knocking on the door I heard a woman’s voice. A woman answered the door. She asked me who I was and I just said I was there to see Nick. She introduced herself as Nick’s wife Olivia.
I left immediately not caring that Nick was right behind me. I took an Uber home. I locked the door not caring that Nick was on the other side. My heart was shattered into a million pieces like a giant glass pane hitting the ground. Each piece is a different memory he turned from happy into soul crushing. It felt like all of our dreams and fantasies were strangling me with the force of all of my hope and trust in him. If he cared about me at all he wouldn’t have put me through that.
“So why not just forget about him and move on Ry?”
“I can’t do that Ainsley because I’m pregnant.”
“Oh, Are you going to tell him?”
“No. I will not be his mistress who bore his illegitimate children.”
“What if he finds out? He comes by every other day.”
“ I don’t care. I made my choice and he made his.”
“ Rylee, do you want to go out with me tonight?”
“Yes.”
I love Ainsley like a sister. She is a big support system for me and I would lie on the stand for her. I am excited to go out and get my mind off of Nick for once in a few months. Ainsley didn’t tell me where we were going but I really didn’t care.
I decided to dress up because I thought it’d make me feel better. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. I actually lost a tooth and a clump of my hair today. I heard that it’s normal when you’re pregnant.
I couldn’t even hate him. I still loved him even though he hurt me like this and made everything so complicated. Ainsley picked me up in her car. Nick was outside but he was too far to get to me. He tried yelling in my direction to get my name. I paid him no attention and just left. If I really meant something to him, he wouldn’t have made me his secret side chick. I refuse to be just his mistress.
We pulled into the parking lot of a movie theater. Ainsley wanted us to see the Avatar sequel movie. I was down. It definitely took my mind off of my recent problems. I felt it wasn’t as good as the original but I still liked the movie. I felt better until we went back outside and I saw Nick. He found me because Ainsley made an instagram story about where we were going. I couldn’t avoid him forever so I asked,” What do you want?”
“Rylee, I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you.”
“Of course you are. Next you’ll say that you love me and you were going to tell me but couldn’t figure out how. I know the clichés, I write them. I may be young but I’m not stupid. Go home to your wife.”
“Rylee…”
“I don’t care.”
“Rylee let’s go, we have more things to do tonight.”
“Right behind you Ainsley.” Next we went to an Ice cream shop and I felt a little better. I guess that’s why they call it comfort food. I had vanilla with Caramel and sprinkles.
“ Don’t worry Ry I didn’t post about us coming here.” Ainsley was trying to look out for me. I would no doubt do the same if it were her. I was good until I got back home. He was there. So I walked around the block. Unfortunately he saw me. He went after me and I had to stop.
“ I won’t listen to you”. It wasn’t him this time. It was some thug creeping closer. I stilled. Everyone always forgets about the freeze part of freeze, fight, or flight.
“Hand over your money or I’ll shoot” It was then that I saw the silver pistol pointed directly at me. I hesitantly extended my arm to give him my purse but then Nick started yelling for me.
“Rylee, where are you?” The robber jolted and pulled the trigger. The shot rang out for all to hear. All I remember next is Ainsley trying to pick me up and panicking as Nick saw. My life didn’t flash before my eyes like they say, I instead saw my baby getting farther and farther away.
My eyes locked with his and I said,” I love you. That means nothing now.” It didn’t mean anything because either way, we would never be together. His eyes were welling up but the tears weren’t raining down yet.
Ainsley urged Nick to help put me in her car to take me to the hospital. “Hurry up, she’s pregnant. We can’t waste time.”
His eyes went wide and he was full on crying by this time. He knew that I wasn’t going to make it. Deep down he knew that I was dying. He knew he was losing both me and our baby. And for all he knew I did die. On his conscience was not only my death but the death of his first child.
Legend has it, he told Olivia about what happened, and they got divorced. I want to say I don’t care but let’s be honest, he deserves to suffer. I still care and I always will but my will is stronger than that.
I lost my baby but started a new life as Onyx Miller. Rylee Brooks is gone for good. Onyx Miller is just starting out. Nick would’ve kept looking for Rylee so I couldn’t be her. Rylee lost her baby and almost her life. Nobody is looking for Onyx. I should be safe. I did want to be with him but I couldn’t do it. I am stronger than that. He couldn’t love me or respect me the way I deserved.
A/n: This is a two shot instead of a full on story and there is no happily ever after.
