skins
i keep waking up in pieces
dreams about your fingers
on my skin are haunting
i awake not to breathe
but only to die slowly
for without your touch
what is there left of me?
a disgusting piece of human flesh
unwanted and unloved
no acceptance as sweet as yours
could ever exist in a world
as cruel as this
you were mine
and everything of mine
was yours
i would take it all back
if i only knew where we went wrong
i’d go back in time
back when you still tried
so that we wouldn’t be strangers
left with fragments of each other
the feeling of being connected
with the one i love
was the kind of fix i never knew
i truly needed
until you touched me
i lost all sense of reality
no pain, no trauma
you take it all away
with just a kiss
with just a touch
please do it all over again
love me again
i don’t want to be numb once again
and i know that
all i ever do now is beg
but what can you expect?
you’ve taken the one thing from me
i never gave to anyone else
now i’m lost and confused
in the midst of healing
after everything i did for you
and changed for you
and sacrificed for you
in the end
it was all for naught
i want to rip this skin apart
take it off my bones
not wanting to feel you on me anymore
because whenever i do
i want nothing but to run back to you
