never

i bet your friends

talk shit about me

yeah, i bet they do

i bet they’ve called me

every name there is in the book

of the worst girlfriends

who ever set foot on this earth

i bet they hate me

i bet you do too

you probably talk about how

insecure i was

how fucking jealous and crazy

i acted every time you fucked someone

who wasn’t me

i bet they say

you could do better

yeah, i bet they’re glad

i’m finally away

but all i can say

is fuck you

and all you ever were

was a mistake

i hate the things you told me

about myself that weren’t true

always projecting

to save your own ass

making me feel like i deserved

all the abuse you put me through

i bet you’re laughing

in your fancy cars

driving ’round the city

popping champagne

like it’s the fourth of july

i bet they make you happy

like i never could when you were mine

but i bet you never told them

that you loved me

so much you kept me locked

in your basement for six hours

almost everyday

starving and crying

and calling out your name

i bet you never told them

how you’d threaten to kill yourself

and whenever you bashed your head

against the wall in my small bedroom

because i wanted to break up with you

and i was done being a fool

but if you told them

i wonder what they’d say

they’d probably still suck you off

and call me a mistake

oh well, i’m used to it

they say birds of the same feather

flock together and fuck together

maybe that’s why you let your friends

fuck your ex when you were dating

or even after

but darling, you know

i wouldn’t have done that to you

i was in love like it was magic

i was obsessed and very much blinded

by all the kind words that you’d say

we always start our mornings

with a screaming fit

accusing one another of things

only you did

but i was okay with fucking bleeding

fucking crying, fucking hating myself

’cause even if you held another

you would be in my bed by the end of the day

i loved you like a stupid girl

yearns for her absent father

i wanted your validation like a child

asking for approval from her mother

but i bet they don’t know

about how you hate all of them

all your family and friends

how you talked shit about them

all the time to me

and wished half of them were dead

i know about it

i remember

every word you ever said

i think about you day and night

but it’s only of pure regret

i wish i never fucking met you

oh, you bet i do

i wish i could go back in time

and slap the shit out of myself

’cause you took everything from me

and never gave anything back

well, i hope you and your friends

stay rich and happy and foolish and sad

living life in privilege

you don’t know what it’s like to be mad

but one day, you’ll come back to me

and beg for forgiveness

’cause you’d wish you never gave up

what you and i had

and i’d feel sorry

i don’t feel sorry for you

but your friends will

oh, i bet they would