I am Seven

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Summary

Evie is twenty four and narrating her own story. With a tendency to blur the lines of reality and fiction, we shadow her as she navigates the year following her fathers’ death to early onset Alzheimer's. Her narration moves through real time, while looking back to tell specific stories of her unconventional childhood with her single father, a Vietnam veteran and addict, his later decent into Alzheimer's with her as his caretaker, and his eventual death. At a young age Evie learned to live part time in a made-up world in order that she may manage the parts of life she didn’t understand. She has carried this coping mechanism into young adulthood, and through these alternate worlds she is able to feel and think through her real world. Her made up worlds are violent, but not gratuitously so. She is an angry young person who has seen the ravages of drugs and war on her family, so her pretend worlds reflect that. Ultimately, her worlds are about anger, loneliness, and searching for something she knows is missing in her life. We learn with her, the forces that shaped her identity as she revisits the strained relationship with her father in her youth, his decline into Alzheimer’s, and step out alone with her as she learns how to know who she is now.

Status
Complete
Chapters
50
Rating
n/a
Age Rating
16+

Prologue

If only I could remember the last real conversation I had with my father before the Alzheimer’s took his mind, but I cannot.

He told me it was like a fog and everything he knew was right at the edge of this haze. Sometimes he could see what he was trying to think of and just when he was going to grab hold of what he wanted to say, he would lose it to the drifting fog. But he would know it was right there, just out of reach.

Like how fog can filter in, in tiny increments and you know it’s getting dim but you can still see until, in one breath, you cannot; my dad slipped from me just like that.