Hanna

Hanna:

It's raining and it's already dark outside. I feel nothing, absolutley nothing as I sit here on the bench shivering from the cold weather. I belive that I am not capable to feel anything except anger and the urge to kill anymore. They have made a monster out of me. I'm not embarrassed about it, I don't think much of it. They all underestimate me. Men. It's so easy to seduce them, to lure them in. They think I'm weak but it's them who end up dead. Today my assigment wasn't easy. Who taught that my victim would be gay. I had to use my best acting skills. I had to pretend to be pathetic little girl who had her heart broken so he could pity me. He could never see it coming. I stabbed him in the back with my favorite weapon, kunai. It's a small leaf-shaped wrought blade in lenghts of 20 to 30 cm and a handel with a ring on the pommel for attaching a rope or to be strapped to a stick as a spear. Most people would wonder how I didn't feel anything when I eliminated my victims, how I wouldn't feel guilty or sad or disgusted. I wasn't allowed to feel any of that. It was about survival. It's either kill or be killed. If I made evan a small mistake such as leaving any witnesses, I would be beaten, tortured and after that, I would be sent to eliminate them to. It is their fault that I am this cold. The Russians, always known for their brutality. I didn't choose to join them. Anything that I did after they took me wasn't my choice. I was snached away from my innocent life. They say I should be thankful, they say that they saved my life. He would always use that against me. I remeber the night they found me so well. I was only four years old.

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It's so cold outside and I'm very scared. I don't know where my mommy is taking me. I found my daddy in the tub with red water that he was laing in. His wrists were even more red than the water and I didn't know why. Mommy said that he was just sleeping and relaxing. I didn't believe her i knew that something was wrong but she said that we must hurry. She picked me up and led me to the car. She was driving so fast, i was a little bit scared. We finaly arrived at some park. She placed me on the swing.

"Listen, honey, mommy will be right back. Please don't be scared, I know that you are a strong little girl. Will you be a good girl and stay here?", she asked.

"Yes mommy."

"Good, I love you Hanna, you have no idea how sorry I am."

With those words she left me in the cold dark night. The hours have passed and my mommy still hasn't returned. My eyes started to water but I fought those tears back. I wanted to be a strong girl for my mommy. Suddenly I heard yelling and a loud bang. I did a big mistake and I screamed. I started running and I hid behind some bush. A few minutes passed and the park was dead silent. I kept my gaze on the flor until shiny black shoes appeared in front of me. I slowly looked up and looked into the blackest eyes I had ever seen.

"Hello, what's your name?", the man asked. He had a thick accent that i didn't recognize at that moment. I just kept quiet.

"You don't have to be scared of me, I won't hurt you."

"My mommy said that i shouldn't talk to strangers."

"Well, your mommy is right, you shouldn't. But if you tell me your name and I tell you mine, we wont be strangers anymore right?"

"Right."

"Okay sweetheart, will you tell me your name?"

"Hanna."

"Hanna.", he repeated. "And where is your mommy Hanna?"

"I don't know. She said that she would be back soon but she never came back."

"Alright sweetheart, don't be scared, we are going to take you and I'm sure we will find your mommy."

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With that night my whole life changed.

They never found my mother. I don't believe they even tried. I later found out that she was a drug addict. She probably left me because she didn't have enough money for the drugs and to take care of me. I didn't bother to look for her. She was dead to me. I didn't care about her just like she didn't care about me. With that thought i headed to my small apartment.

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A/N:

Hi I hope you liked the first chapter of my book. Please keep in mind that English is not my mother tongue so I apologize in advance for any grammatical and vocabulary mistakes. This story will contain themes which some viewers wish to avoid, such as strong language, violence, nudity and sexual content. I hope you'll enjoy this book. Also none of the images I put in this story are mine.

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