Chapter 1
The pain was back, like every damn day since I’ve been living in this damn pack.
When I found my mate two years ago, I thought I would live happily. But that dream was shattered very quickly when my mate looked at me with a mixture of disappointment and disgust.
I could understand his disappointment, how could the Moon Goddess, mate an Alpha and Omega girl.
Drake Stronghold, was a proud Alpha, who could look back on a pure bloodline. He had taken his Alpha post very early, not because his parents were dead, no, because he was so good already in his role.
I was a nobody, unlike him. Born of Omega parents, I started working very early. In our pack called Wolf Creek, Omegas were not looked down upon and there was no mistreatment.
At that moment I was preparing to be rejected by him, but he took me to his pack the Dark Moon and I was to live here.
I can remember exactly the happy faces of my parents when the Alpha took me. They don’t know what I had to go through since that day in this pack.
My mate never touched me, at least never sexually, instead he has all the other women around him. I call them whores in my mind.
In the beginning I still cried every night when I could feel through that damn bond how he was mating one of his women again, but that settled down after a few months.
The only thing that bothers me now are the pains that don’t let me sleep. I can’t remember how many times I asked the moon goddess to release me from this bond so that I could at least sleep again.
For two years I’ve been lying awake half the night hoping to get at least a few hours of sleep before I have to get up again.
I haven’t been outside in two years. I was locked up in here and couldn’t set foot outside the door of the pack house.
To humiliate me even more, I get to clean his room and his wives’ rooms. These beasts treat me even worse than a normal Omega woman. How many times I have been punished because I supposedly made a mistake or offended one of his wives, I can’t count it anymore.
I have endured everything so far because I know that when his wolf comes out, he will sneak into my room and hold me in the night.
But I reached my limit when I realized that I no longer have contact with my wolf.
She stopped talking to me three months ago and has completely withdrawn. I tried to take on my wolf form, but it didn’t work. Then in the last weeks I could not feel her at all.
Now I was all alone. The emptiness I feel without her voice is slowly killing me from the inside. She was my last spark of hope.
After some time I noticed that the pain was gone. That was then my sign that I could now sleep again.
Just as I was dreaming of running across a green field in my wolf form, my alarm rang.
Great again only 4 hours of sleep, damn alpha.
I haven’t called him by his name in two years, I won’t, not in this lifetime.
After I got ready, I went down to the kitchen and had a snack for myself. I had been forbidden to eat or interact with the other pack members. So I had to eat when no one was around.
At first I had wondered why he had not rejected me and taken me. But I had understood after some time that he was only keeping me alive so that he could continue to be so strong.
When a bond is broken both are weakened and if one of the mates dies, there is a high chance that the surviving mate will soon die of heartbreak. I don’t know what the moon goddess was thinking, that you can’t get out of this bond.
After my little breakfast, I went down to the basement and got the fresh linens I will need for the Alpha’s bed.
When he had one of his wives with him, he always wanted the sheets changed so his room wouldn’t smell like that woman anymore.
Disgusting guy. I hope I become a tree in my next life and am I spared this sort of thing. A shiver of revulsion ran through my body and I had to shake myself.
Suddenly, I heard a growl from across the hall. I didn’t realize I was in the hallway of the Alpha already.
When I turned to the end of the hallway, there was a fuming Alpha standing there, staring at me.
God, what have I done now that he is already like this early in the morning?
With long strides he came toward me and I ducked and pressed myself against the nearest wall near me.
As he stood in front of me, he grabbed my jaw with his right hand and forced my head up, making me look at him. He was really pissed off.
“Did you just think about me and feel gross?” he hissed at me between clenched teeth.
I looked at him with wide eyes and cursed myself inside. I fool had forgotten to block my feelings and thoughts so this monster couldn’t feel it.
“For-forgive me, Alpha.” I stammered out through my clenched jaw.
He looked at me angrily for a few more seconds before pushing me against the wall with force and walking away.
I took a deep breath in and out, hoping the pain in my head would subside a bit.
When he closed the door to his room behind him, I immediately blocked my thoughts and feelings so that he could no longer feel it.
By marking me two years ago, he could feel my feelings and thoughts. So I learned how to block him. He had punished me many times for having unacceptable thoughts and feelings as he put it.
For the rest of the day I went about my business, avoiding everyone as best I could. This whole house was one big hurdle race.
There really should be rewards for humans who can move unseen through a house full of werewolves.
As I was heading to my room after my last task, someone suddenly grabbed me by my hair and dragged me along with them.
“Hey, stop that!” I yelled.
“Did you think you could get away with that you little bitch!” Yelled one of the women from the Alpha at me, judging by the red long hair it will be whore number 5.
I tried to free my hair from her grip, but it only strengthened her grip. “I don’t know what you mean.” I said as tears came to my eyes in pain.
“You will come with me to Drake and answer for stealing my necklace.” Whore number 5 yelled at me and slapped me hard across the face.
I tried to follow her as fast as I could so her grip on my hair would loosen at least a little. “What necklace? I didn’t take anything from your room except your dirty laundry.”
“Shut up! We have evidence of your theft.” She hissed and continued to drag me behind her.
After a quick knock on the alpha’s office door, “Come in.” came out from the other side.
As whore number five hurled me in front of the Alpha’s desk, I banged my temple against the edge and briefly saw only stars.
I slowly shook my head to see more clearly and then stood back up somewhat straight. In the office, besides the alpha and whore number 5, were two of his other wives and his beta and everyone present looked at me with an expression of disgust.
I wish I was strong enough to rip their fucking necks out.
“Sarah, told me you stole one of her necklaces again?” the Alpha asked me. I could tell he was angry because he clenched his jaws so you could see his tense muscles in his jaw.
“I didn’t take a chain, today or all the times before. It’s a lie!” it burst out of me. It’s not the first time I’ve been accused of stealing something when it wasn’t me.
Those damn beasts only liked it when the Alpha punished me and made me suffer.
“We’ve never lied to you, Alpha.” it came out of the mouths of the three beasts as if shot out of a gun.
“This time she was seen doing it.” Said suddenly whore number 5, who had stepped next to me.
“Becky and Mary saw her coming out of my room, admiring the necklace before putting it in her bag.” Said whore number 5. I never cared for the names of these beasts, so they got numbers. I mean with 10 women going in and out of your mate’s house, who can remember them.
“Then search me. I don’t have a necklace in my pocket.” I said, trying to put up at least a little bit of a fight.
“Of course you won’t have it in your pocket.” Said whore number 5, looking over at Beta, who now stepped forward and pulled something out of his pocket.
“Sarah has asked me for help. I went with her and the other two to Ellis’s room, in the room we then found the necklace under the pillow.” Said the Beta and put the necklace on the table to the Alpha.
I widened my eyes and looked at everyone present in disbelief. The short smirk on the face of whore number 5, however, told me everything.
However, when the Alpha looked at her, she suddenly had a shocked expression on her face and acted like she was on the verge of tears. Stupid Bitch.
When I realized that everyone was joining in on this disgusting play, I knew I couldn’t escape punishment.
The Alpha looked from the necklace to me and his eyes took on a cold expression.
“You seem to have learned nothing in all the years you’ve lived here. No matter what punishment you get, you always break the rules.” As he spoke, a growl escaped his mouth.
“You will be locked in the dungeon in the outer basement for a week, no food and nothing to drink. On top of that, you’ll get 20 strokes. Maybe this time you’ll learn something.” And that, apparently, was the end of the matter for him.
But for me, it would mean I would not survive. It was the middle of winter and the outer dungeon, had more icicles in the cell, than the entire building outside. And since I couldn’t reach my wolf, I wasn’t healing properly for months.
It was definitely my death sentence. I don’t know if he understood or not, maybe he didn’t care, but I’m not going to be in that game anymore.
When the beta grabbed me by the arm and tried to drag me out, I freed myself from him with the last of my strength. And while he was still caught off guard, I grabbed the short sword that was always hanging at his side and turned towards the Alpha with the short sword in my hand.
While the three women present screamed, I held the short sword to my neck and with one last look at my mate that contained all my pain from the last two years, I pulled the short sword from one side of my neck to the other and slashed my neck with it.
While all my strength drained out of me within seconds and I went down, chaos broke out around me. But I didn’t notice, because I kept my eyes on my mate. His face now showed an expression of horror for the first time and I liked that very much.
“Go to hell.” I said with my last breath before everything around me went dark.
The darkness embraced me with its tender arms and gave me what my mate never gave me, peace and calm.
For the first time in the last two years I fell asleep in peace, with a smile filled with joy.
