No happy endings

Chapter 1- life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows

Hi ,I bet you are wondering why the story is called there is no happy ending and that’s because there is no true happy endings there {will} always be something trying to drag you down there will always be something or forgot my story someone trying to effect you

Fairy tales always end in something along the lines of the princess found her way home or the prince saved her or they lived happily ever after . Growing up Reading fairytales made me think that amy's life will be wonderful everything will end up being alright that a prince or princess will save me but as Amy grew older Amy realised that her life is nothing like a fairytale you solve one issue another issue always appears . Sometimes it feels as if she was stuck a hamster stuck in a hamster wheel.

Chapter 2

Amy started to cry because the bullies made fun of the way she looked, she was so tired of the relentless teasing .she had no way to escape it but then it hit her she could escape it through writing . When she got home she pulled out her notebook and started to write how she felt but made it another characters life instead of her own She changed the names, the places and it made her feel better to tell her story without the guilt . Lila and Diego told Amy she was fat and ugly and would never be good enough, but she kept on hoping that one day they would see the beauty in her and it would last. But months past and they were still making fun of her , and each day she would write in her book but one day she notices that the book is missing from her locker . She looked everywhere untill she found it Lila and Diego took it photocopied it and hung it up all over the school . For weeks people were calling her by rude names some even stooping so low by throwing the pages at her and saying you going to write about me again . She knew she was done with this school so she asked her mom if she could move luckily the mom wanted to go to the Uk so the mom agreed and told her to pack

Part 3 - the move

Amy was excited to have a new life . She said goodbye to the school which she felts as if she was never excited by with tears of joy in her eyes She got ready for the flight and the new future that awaited her. When she arrived in the UK she was bullied due to her accent, so she kept to herself and didn't make many friends. The only friend she made was Andrew who was also quite unpopular. During drama one day she was asked to perform the piece of drama in front of the class however she didn’t want to do this due to her accent Amy loved drama and didn’t want it to be ruined because of this so she went up and performed with loads of confidence and when she was finished the whole class kept calling her American Amy and started to make fun of her due to moving country’s . However she only told Andrew about moving and it was at her house so no one was around enraged by the fact that she trusted Andrew even though she knew she’d never get her happy ending she stood up to everyone else and shouted “from now on I don’t care who knows I'm American we are all unique we are all special and that shouldn’t matter at the end of the day there’s always going to be one person that sticks out from the group and that’s ok ” whilst she said this speech she didn’t know she was being recorded by Viktor who then posted on all her social media platforms . She was bullied even more with people across the school asking her in class it got so bad that Amy had to get kicked out of the school because she was a distraction to the students Amy was devastated she cried everyday after being kicked out and couldn’t understand why it felt so much more painful when she had a reason for being kicked out. The worst thing that had happened to her since the school bullying and she still hadn’t gotten over it and it was eating away at her. She wasn’t able to focus on any subject she was constantly thinking about what would happen next.She tried studying hard to try and forget her problems with learning. the teachers complained that she wasn’t paying attention and had a go at her , but she couldn’t focus and she did no want to upset anyone further and decided to stop listening. So she started watching documentaries on history, she studied all night trying to understand every aspect she could about this period of human history. It helped her deal with the bullying and depression. Amy thought it was time that people realized that she didn’t belong in this era and that she was more than just the girl who moved here from America she was an American too. She was determined to prove this by getting top grades in any subject, she’d show everyone that she did belong

The kickofff

When her mother found out about this she was enraged about the fact that her daughter was being punished , had her education stoped and was bullied for speaking out about bullying . Her mother decided to go onto the news to speak about bullying across the world “I shall not tolerate my daughter to be bullied anymore we moved out of America my home country where are family and lives are due to this just for this to happen here it in the Uk my daughter and the lives of others have been ruined due to bullying numerous of people have took their own lives due to bullying and to her it seems like the school don’t care ” Amy’s mum Sam went viral with people sharing the clip of her Sam became famous but no one knew it was Amy’s mom that said this so Amy continued to get nasty Remarks at her looks people would often invalidate her feelings

on whether she was beautiful because she was Mexican, Indian, or African American she felt like she wasn’t important to society at all, she would always try to be the one to help the most but she couldn’t. Amy started to lose weight as she became depressed once again she had become used to having everything she desired and now she was losing it all. She was so depressed that she stopped eating and started to drink coffee instead. She was so depressed that she started to sleepwalk and wake up screaming in the middle of the night. She was so depressed that she started to skip meals “ I as a parent find this extremely

unfair

neglected Amy

As her mother rose to fame 13 year old Amy was left neglected and abused by her mother for what seemed like ages. It hurt like hell when Amy heard rumours about her mother’s career as she became an internet sensation she was forced into silence. Amy hated it, her enemey Lila used to talk to her about her parents’ love and how her parents would never neglect her . Now Amy couldn’t talk about anything that wasn’t negative she shut her phone off she didn’t want anyone knowing about her issues she couldn’t even talk to her mum about this as her mother doesn’t care . Amy was bullied and abandoned by every person she met, and the only person she felt understood her was Andrew. Amy felt like she finally had her happy ending but she hadn’t yet realized that she wouldn’t . she realised she never gets happy endings and was afraid that one day she’ll break. Amy thought about getting help but she felt ashamed to ask “why should anyone care about my problems I can take care of myself I mean all my life i was told what I needed to be and it was never enough, I was never good enough for someone who cared about me” She knew her father had been abusive and had died from cancer so she didn’t see why he had to die. She had seen plenty of horror movies where people die after being mistreated they never recover. She was sure her dad was dead but it didn’t change the fact that she would never be okay, no one was ever there to fix her. All she had was herself. One day she saw her reflection in the mirror,she wasn‘t happy with what she saw.

life or death

Amy woke up from a very dreamless sleep with a headache. She was in pain everywhere except for her heart where it throbbed violently causing her great discomfort. She groaned out loud in agony, as her breathing increased dramatically until eventually she gave in and let her tears flow. She cried until her eyes burned. Amy felt empty, broken as she looked up at the ceiling crying silently. Amy knew that nobody cared about her anymore. Amy knew that no one believed in her . Her own mother now doesn’t give her the love and support she needed and now her own family were abandoning her leaving her to be alone. in the darkness Amy sobbed harder and tried to block out reality trying to force the thoughts away to no avail. After what felt like hours of crying .she let out a scream it sounded animalistic, inhuman, like a wolf or any type of predator would make if they were in pain or fear. She screamed and screamed until she was exhausted, her throat sore and raw from screaming. Amy sat up in her bed, her legs were shaking and she was soaked with sweat. She breathed heavily trying to catch her breath she begged for it all to be over . she begged to be happy but she knew it was impossible. As she laid in bed in her dark cold empty room .After what felt like centuries of loneliness she finally accepted that she was alone forever and began to contemplate suicide. Amy sat in her dorm room surrounded by the clutter from the previous night. She picked up her diary and opened it to the latest entry ‘’Dear Diary I feel depressed and useless my own mother has left me I have been starving for days I am tired of people calling me names and treating me as if im nothing but trash. I feel worthless in my own body and I hate it I hate myself for feeling like this! Everyone treats me like dirt and I want someone to treat me like a human not a garbage bag, I can I feel worthless and I feel as if I don’t belong anywhere ‘ I wish I was dead’ thought Amy before falling back asleep. She was in bed awake for most of the night. She was too upset to sleep. Amy thought about suicide and felt the need to take action she decided to write down what she needed to do. She scribbled on a piece of paper:

“I think about suicide everyday and have nightmares about being killed, I wake up in terror and panic. I can barely eat and I am so afraid. I will never get better unless I act now and make sure my life is worth living. Please forgive me for what I'm about to do please let me die so I won't suffer anymore ” she signed her name at the bottom of the page ‘I don't know if I can kill myself but maybe I can try? I’ve already lost everything today so why not just give in?’ thought Amy.

She wrote her address on another piece of paper and placed both pieces of paper underneath her pillow. Then she lay back down and closed her eyes. She fell asleep thinking about how she was going to commit. suicide is easy to do, there's no real struggle, all you have to do is lie down and close your eyes. That's how they did it in movies.

On the next day Amy walked to the main office of the hospital she asked for help she explained to the nurse what had happened that morning and asked if she was allowed to have some pills to calm her nerves and ease the pain. The nurse nodded and handed over some pills. Amy thanked her and ran towards the bathroom praying that the pill would be strong enough to knock her out, or at least knock her out enough so that she can't remember what happened. she went to a therapist who examined her and said she was simply just depressed and gave her anti depressants and explained you can only take one of these per day she nodded and took the medication home with her and got a glass of water and went in her bathroom and poured all the tablets into her mouth at once a few hours later nothing had happened ti her she wasn’t feeling happy she was actually feeling worse then before ‘Why hasn't it worked yet?! Why isn't it working!’ thought Amy panicking as she paced around the bathroom and then sat on the floor hugging herself she wanted to cry but couldn't as she didn't want to show weakness in front of anyone. Amy thought ‘I could kill myself right now. Why can't I just end it?’ Amy didn’t know that as soon as she had taken those pills she was given an extra dosage which she quickly swallowed. It had made the medicine stronger. Amy waited for it to kick in which it didn't take long. A few minutes passed. Amy panicked and grabbed some tissues. “What have you done? Why haven't they stopped it!? What the fuck is going on! Why aren't you helping me! This is my only chance at happiness! What the hell has happened to me? How the hell am I supposed to live with this? No one else does” Amy yelled loudly at no one in particular.

Amy had never felt so hopeless before in her entire life, she wondered what to do. Should she call the police? Should she find someone to talk to? Should she stay here and wait till she dies? Amy’s questions and doubts grew. She kept asking herself why the hell hadn't this drug taken affect yet! Was the medication strong enough for that? Amy looked at her reflection and noticed that her face had gotten paler than normal and she was trembling like crazy, what the fuck was happening to her? The more she thought about killing herself the more panicked she got.

Amy’s Thoughts

Amy felt so hopeless as tears slid down her face, her whole body was covered in a thick sheen of perspiration. The pain was unbearable she screamed and cried out louder and louder each time. She had to end it. ‘what do I do?? My whole body is burning...why is it burning?!’ thought Amy desperately as she reached to feel for something under her sheets. ‘Where am I!!? Why am I lying on the floor?’ Thought Amy to herself as she looked around confused. She tried to move, but she couldn’t “oh god I cant breathe!! I need to stop this its painful!!!” screamed Amy as she struggled to get up. Her head hit the carpeted floor hard, sending stars across her vision as her body shook uncontrollably. Amy looked at her hands and noticed a strange white substance coming off them which caused her to scream louder “this white stuff must be the pills!! The pills are making me hallucinate!!!! I mustn’t touch them!!” shouted Amy terrified as she pulled up her sleeves and rubbed the substance off on the carpet. Once she was finished she laid back down staring up at the grey ceiling. Her mind went blank she couldn't think straight, she couldn't speak properly. Amy stared blankly at the same patch of grey carpet as she started crying hysterically again, her whole body was shaking violently as she hyperventilated. The pills had kicked in and Amy was unable to think clearly, but she had to get up and go somewhere. So, she forced herself to stand up using whatever strength she had remaining. Her legs wobbled as she attempted to walk but eventually, she stumbled and collapsed. Amy laid there crying hysterically, her voice breaking every other word “Why is this happening? Why am I so weak? I need help…help…help” screamed Amy repeatedly as she continued to crawl forward using whatever strength was left in her body trying to get to some point, anything to escape the pain. As Amy crawled closer, she slowly lifted up her body and used her arms to pull herself up. Her limbs trembled and ached terribly, her heart was racing and she felt weak, exhausted and dizzy. She looked up at the door which was still closed and tried to open it with all of her strength. “Help… Help… HELP… Someone please help me” she muttered repeatedly as she put her full weight on the handle in hopes of opening the door and escaping. “I need help, please come save me” sobbed Amy as she held onto the door knob “Someone please I am dying i don't wanna die” she cried while banging on the door. After about five minutes of crying she collapsed to the floor in exhaustion “please help me… someone...” she whispered softly as she hugged her knees and began rocking herself to sleep. Amy woke up to the sound of her alarm clock going off. She jumped up quickly and turned it off. She threw the covers off of herself and looked at the mirror in shock, she had bruises and cuts all over her skin and blood stains on her clothes. She looked at her face and saw her nose bleeding heavily she felt her head ache she couldn't stand up so she fell back down on to the mattress and cried harder than ever before. She tried to stop but kept crying. Soon enough the tears were running nonstop and the pain in her head became intense. Amy was scared and didn’t know what was happening, she thought ‘ she realised no one would save her she went into the bathroom got a razor and cut herself deep. But she couldn’t see the amount of blood she was losing, she couldn’t feel it and the pain was getting worse and she could feel herself passing out. Amy couldn’t hear the screaming she couldn’t smell the blood. She couldn’t feel anything except for the pain. When she passed out she fell back and hit her head on the edge of the bathtub causing more blood to run down her face and into her hair. Amy didn't notice. She didn't even realise what she had been doing, she didn't care she didn’t feel anything . later that day she decided to kill herself by cutting her wrists and drowning herself in the bath tub. Her mother found her and called for help and when they got to the apartment they found her dead from self harm, she hadn't washed any blood or used a towel. Her mom screamed and cried and blamed her daughter for leaving her. ‘why would you do this to me?! You promised to never do this to me you promised we would be together forever why have you betrayed me?!' cried out her mother as she broke down into tears and went in social media and said this is the effect of bullying But everyone was too

upset to say anything and no one dared to ask her why she did such a rude thing.

the end