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Dear Diary,
Today in art class we got new assigned seats, Mrs. J put me in the back so I decided it was the perfect time to update my notebooks. Pulling out each notebook slowly, looking around to make sure nobody would see. I then took my thick black sharpie, and crossed my last name, Thorpe, leaving just Bella. Then in my glittery silver sharpie I wrote Henderson. God even his last name is hot. Mrs. Alexander Henderson, it has a ring to it. We made eye contact today, he flashed his beautiful, emerald green eyes at me, and gave me a small smile, using only half of his mouth, thus unleashing the cutest dimples one could. Sammy called me delusional and desperate but i just call her negative. When I wasn't thinking about Alex, I was most likely browsing StubHub for Taylor Swift tickets. Okay i must confess I was shopping for Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince matching outfits. There may be a possibility i was hoping Alex would come with me. Oh! I forgot to tell you, Moms inviting them over for dinner, again. My mom and his have been friends since they were 2, and so Alex and I were raised together. We used to talk every night, and we never got bored of each other, even when we ran out of things to say. Alex and I don't have many conversations anymore, well really, we don't have any conversations at all. especially since the summer after freshman year. I've never forgiven my self for what happened, and I don't think I ever will. I still remember how he looked at me the conversation before our last. He always looked at me with such respect, he never had a bad thing to say about anyone, well maybe except for a few people. He used to go through girls pretty often, a new girlfriend every 3 months or so, but now he's with that stuck up girl, Ivy. They've been together for about a year now and they are serious. But I mean who can blame her, his fluffy blonde hair that just covers his eyebrows, those deep, big, green eyes, his pale skin with his rosy cheeks, and a jawline sharp enough to cut butter. I could go on but I think you got it. I've been in love with Alex since the moment I knew what love was. Even after the incident, I never stopped loving him.
