I thought you loved me…
I thought I saw it in the way you looked at me.
The way you said my name, the way you said I make you feel - the way you made me feel...
Planning for the future with you seemed so easy because in you I saw a future.
But...
That all seemed to fade away, and as quickly as it came the illusions faded away and the facades dropped. It all happened so fast, I tried to hold on but it all just seemed to slip past my fingers like sand in an hourglass . For the first time that was when I began to see clearly; to see you, not the person I told myself I was seeing, no, the real you.
The signs were there and I chose to ignore them.
Although in a way this new found clarity was good for me, God did it hurt to see the version of you I chose not to acknowledge. The side I thought I could change or more so bury. The real you.
And while I move on with this ache in my chest and the bitter sweet memories of a love that never was, I have to move on. To a future I had chose not to acknowledge, a future I had deemed unforeseeable... One without you.
I thought you loved me.
