INSPIRATION BEHIND POEM
I am a survivor of Domestic Violence. I was abused by a spouse for 3 years. In those 3 years I endured physical, mental, emotional, social, financial, and sexual abuse.
A few days ago, he was arrested for Domestic Battering due to a Warrant of Arrest I filed against him in 2019... I was relieved. I thought this was FINALLY my chance to get justice. I thought that he was finally going to be held accountable for his actions.
However, this morning I received some information that absolutely broke me. It sent me over that invisible line that shouldn’t be crossed. The Judge decided to tell him that if he is charged with another domestic crime within the next year, he would be charged with this case and the new case. However, if he does not obtain another domestic charge within 1 year, this case will be dismissed...
I cried...I was devastated. He got to walk out of that courtroom, smiling, knowing that he got away with it. He gets to go continue living his happy go lucky life without any accountability for the absolute hell he put me through... He gets to walk around feeling like a winner.
Meanwhile, I have to spend the rest of my life with all of the shit he did to me etched into my brain. Despite how amazing my current spouse is, he has to deal with the backlash from what was done to me by someone else... In what world is THAT fair?
I feel like the Justice System abandoned me. Today, the system failed me; and in my eyes, ALL survivors/victims. I am humiliated that this is the system that expects people to turn to for help, guidance, justice, and protection. How does the system expect us to turn to them when they continuously FAIL us.
Anger consumed me. I took that anger and allowed it to flow out onto the paper. That anger was turned into this poem.
My fight is FAR from over... I'm going to do everything in my power to force the Justice System to finally hear victims.
We, the survivors and victims, have voices. We need to quit asking to be heard. We need to take a stand and DEMAND our voices be heard. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
If you have gone through or are currently going through domestic abuse; YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I SEE YOU. I HEAR YOU. I STAND WITH YOU. You can and WILL make it out. Don't give up.
XoXo~Lost-N-Neverland
