Final good bye
To my old friend who stabbed me in the back, I am writing to you in my final moments. Instead of asking to hear my side of the story you ignored me and spread rumors saying that I was a bad friend. When I finally got you to talk to me you said it wasn't me but both of us and when I asked for you to give me a single reason I was a bad friend or if I did anything wrong you couldn't come up with anything, the only thing you could say was that it was many little things. I can still remember after everything that happened you couldn't even look me in the eye. AS A MATTER OF FACT, NONE OF YOU COULD. I cried for weeks alone. When you hurt me it felt like I lost half of myself. I was there for you when your boyfriend left you, I was there for you when your own best friend was spreading rumors about you, I was there for you any time you needed me, and yet when I was on the phone with you talking about how we would hang out for your birthday and I got the news my grandfather collapsed you didn't say anything the one time you heard me at my weak point and you don't say or do anything.
That should have been enough to tell me you would not stand by my side but I was blinded by trust but I guess it wasn't. We had been through so much and yet I still wish you would call even if it was just so you could tell me everything I did wrong. I miss you when I know that I shouldn’t. I know I should be over what happened but I can't 5 years of you being next to me or just talking to me every day. I miss it all. Just sitting on your bed not talking, being near you. I miss the sleepovers. I miss your laugh. I miss your taunts. I miss you in every way. I miss the moments we spent together. Throwing water balloons at each other. Going night swimming. Walking around the school. Listing to music together. Talking about anime, webtoons, and mangas. Drawing together. Sitting down at the dinner table eating your aunt's cooking. Playing with your cat. Playing your keyboard. Cleaning your brother's room together, I cherished all of it in my heart but why couldn't you I have been ridiculed to the point of having to leave school. Even then I tried to move on without you, trying to forget everything but I count you had given me everything you made me who I was. You gave me my love for anime, Manga, drawing, and writing so I thank you for that much. And so if you are still reading this and have not already thrown this away I must tell you, I have already killed myself the moment I sent this letter out. I hope you regret turning on me I had been nice thus far but not anymore. If there is an afterlife I will stick around just to make you feel what I had gone through and how I felt. Having said all of this I'll see you soon.
A good chapter