the monster i have become.
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the monster i have become.

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Story Notes

the meaning of the cover is supposed to be a lamb (or human... ;)) tied up, giving into it's fate! this poem is about the opposite, so i thought i would convey that!

Summary

it's what you wanted? is it not?

Status
Complete
Chapters
1
Rating
n/a
Age Rating
16+

the beast you have painted me to be, with your dirty hands, my body like a clean canvas. don't put your filth on me.

there’s a monster in my soul

it’s getting hard to control

because sometimes, at my worst.

this thing happens

my lungs are filled with fire

and it's claws are out

and my tears are hot

and the monsters teeth

break skin like a blade

and now you’re bleeding

this rage in my heart

it’s getting hard to stop

i think it runs in the family, this monster

it jumps from person to person

and now it’s curled up in my chest cavity

it’s made a home in my ribs

it’s torn open my body

and devoured what’s truely it’s to take

your hands weren’t supposed to go there

the monster doesn’t like people who touch me

you touched me

the monster reared it’s head

and now you’re on the ground, shaking

i’m shaking too

i’m sorry

and-

wait

no

no

no

y’know what?

i’m not sorry

fuck you. and fuck that.

i am the monster.

when you see the fire in my chest crackle

you run

like the coward you have always been

i will tear into your body

and rip you to shreds

like the monster you always say i am

i will eat your heart out

in front of you

and your tears will fall, just like mine

hot and liquid.

i have become the monster.

you shouldn’t have put your fucking hands on me.

Let Mirage (they/them) know what you thought about this chapter!

Chapter Notes

yo quick heads up this may imply sexual assault/murder of an abuser! i didn't want to put it in the tags, because it's meant to mean something different to each reader. it can also imply taking back the power, such as land back for native americans, blm protests, trans fights for equality, etc. once again, this had a lot of emotion behind it and no set meaning. it can mean anything. BUT, there is one thing i want to say. you fucking straight white cis hetero men sitting up in your middle class mansions don't deserve this poem. you've taken enough. oppressed people deserve to be angry. i am not this clean, nice person. i refuse to be nice to my murderer, to my abuser. i will not be treated as dirty, or be held to higher standards then white cis men. i will not. this is not for them. fuck off.

Cami
Cami

I related to that so much

3 years
1
123lunar-moon456
123lunar-moon456

this is awsome

3 years
1

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