The darkness in me

A sunny Sunday morning with all his glorious colors but like always I'm alone, no friends, family well let's just say they don't understand me much, I didn't ask for what I am I was born this way and for alot of people I'm just a freak, a monster, yeah I know a lot of name calling but I'm used to it now

It's my birthday today and once again I'm alone, but I prefer it that way, I am off to the dinner palace to meet up with one person that is more then just my friend his like you know agh, my love off my life OK, he helped me through very tough times.

No star shines brighter than him, yes his also different but hides it very well, hahaha! For me it's not so easy...

I got to the dinner palace and there he was with a cupcake in the hand and a candle to make a wish, isn't it cute, well hello there beautiful, thought you are no longer coming got worried you know!!! Before I forget this is me Lucille bad ass I know! And my boyfriend Lucias . I hugged him so tight and said;you are one awesome boyfriend you know that.

Well my girlfriend just made me the happiest guy in the world, but I have to get back to work! , o and by the way there is a position open if you are interested, spoke to my mom and she said it's fine but no funny business OK!. Wow I finally got a job to move out of that shit hole I'm staying in, when can I start? How about tomorrow morning today is a special day see you later beautiful!

As I walk of to God knows where I kept getting this weird feeling that I'm been watched awkward as it is I turn around and there was nothing, maybe just a animal or something. Home is about a mile away so I will reach it by night fall when everyone is fast asleep, they won't miss me anyway. To get back to my so called life in the woods I love the woods and one day I want my own house here among the nature and my freedom of all bad stuff...,THING'S that will make your skin crawl ,things so unthinkable ,you will think this only happens in a story ,but to be honest cruelty lives in everyone,some just worst then others,why you think? ,wait i hear something! I am being followed for some reason, why? What could be the reason for following me, the air is filled with fear and agony, what is going on here, I don't understand! As I went around the corner of my home I could feel the the presence of some one here but he or she won't let me see them, I wonder how this person got in my community undetected unless we have to do with a new arrival and specimen we yet not know co existed with us among my people without my knowledge, this is not right, I need to

Get to the bottom of this, I knew it was some kind of freak that is stalking me for some or other reason. Why? I don't know, how he got here? That is quite interesting to me, anyway as I went inside my house mother and father dearest are waiting for me and then I see the policeman sitting next to them. Mom? what is going on here? Well, well look who decided to come home making me the fucking fool around here, every body calling me a bad mother because I can't look after my own child, no support from no one, always wondered when will be the day that a police officer is gonna knock on my door and tell me you are dead, maybe you are better of alone after all you are a fucking freak, I ran up to my room and closed the door I just couldn't take the tormenting anymore, it got to much, so I decided to transform and fly away from this place they call home and find a place where I really belong, as I started to transform, I here a knock on my windows halfway in transformation I went to the windows, incase you are wondering I'm used to this now and it doesn't hurt anymore, but let's get back to the windows part. As I look through the window I see Lucias with his bike waiting for me to come, I finished transformation and took flight and landed on his shoulder he just knew what I wanted, he took me in his hands and said:"fly my little raven I will follow!" and so I did, you see his mother accepted him for who he was but the humans not so much and that is why his mother let him go and yes you guessed right I never started working at the dinner palace, my mother made sure everyone knew I was a monster and a freak so they all started to treat me bad, if I walk in the road they will just, let's say push me call me names like evil bitch, and say go somewhere, where others can't see your ugly bird face slut. Why? Why do I have to be the bad one and the only problem is I am different, I won't hurt anyone but not to them according to my "mother" I will peck out the little ones eyes if they are naughty and don't listen to there parents, don't you think that is just awfull, I will never do that, why are people so scared of something they no nothing about try to understand at least fuck I am still a person after all. But like I said I'm leaving this place for good I am done with them I hate my parents so much but that is a story for another day now I just need to get away from here so I can be safe I am done fighting to survive. I am a adult now and they have no say over me anymore. I took flight and the wind beneath my wings makes me feel free like I am the only one in the sky a can look down on all that I am leaving behind and know with a clean heart that they did this to me and not the other way around. I know I will be seeing them again hopefully they would have changed but I doubt that they will, I am free now, free from slander, free from abuse, and most of all I am free to be me. No more pretending or be someone I am not, I want to be a raven who knows what will happen to me in the future but I don't care, I will start a new life with Luicias and we will be happy for eternity, just the 2 of us. As my wings got tired of flying for so long Lucias showed me I must come down. I transformed back to human got dressed and got on the motorcycle with him, I hold him so tightly like it's gonna be my last time with him, but it's not he will be with me for ever we, were mates and nothing could separate us even if they wanted to. This is my new life now and I am not turning my back on it I got a second chance in life and I am taken it with both hands. Things will change for the better now you'll see I will grow in to the woman I was meant to be all this time, wit Lucias by my side and always cheering me on to become someone better than what my parents made me out to be, I know I can do this maybe one day have a home with kids running around normal or not I don't mind, they will not go through the same things I did I will lo e them for what they are and won't push them away, Lucias always said he wants children but not now, now we have to find a home first. Sometimes it's not so easy but we will get through it I know we just have to stay strong and courageous and show everyone that no matter what happens if you want to be abetter person it can happen with the love of your mate and those who accepts you for you and for your family they no lo get to call me there family I will start my one one day and they will not be part of it, that's it, so let us find a place to sleep for tonight......