Chapter 1 The usual
Its a foggy morning . The birds are no longer singing and the deep,tall forest surrounding the solitary little house is more quiet than ever. From above you could think the small, old house that now belonges to mrs. Marbelle was none existing. Due to the mist . The mist had settled as one thick layer over the dark forest . It would be near impossible knowing what existed under the absorbing smoke for someone on a plane .
Mrs. Marbelle is actually just 16 years old . Her real name is Eliana Diane Marbelle. She’s a short, slightly pale girl with dark blonde hair long enough to cover all down to her lower back.Her big green colored eyes was a main reason to her natural beauty. She herself did not appreciate her eyes the way other people usually did. She saw herself in a totally different way . In her eyes she was a fat,ugly,scar coverd, unloveble girl that only caused trouble and bad decisions in others life . She belived the voices in her head over the compliments she got told.
This moring was no exception for Elianas self hatred. Though she have started to feel numb. She was so used to all these overwhelming feelings that with time everything she have ever felt started to fade. This resulted in memory loss but she couldn’t have cared less about her passed.
Today her close friend Brayden had an important game. She just had to be there for him. 2 minutes awake and had already convinced herself that her pleasant would make everyone else uncomfortable and unsettled . Even if they didn’t pay attention to her she would still be a vibe killer .She had so much guilt that the bare thought of it made her sick. Elianas deep thinking got interrupted by the disgusting urge to throw up. She jumped out of bed leaning forward with one hand on the stomach and one covering her mouth. She ran towards the bathroom in complete disbelief of what was happening. She fell and reached the sink . She sat on the bathroom floor not able to physically cry . Looking over her scar covered thighs thinking to herself what the fuck was wrong with her. She reached her arm out grabbing the sharp collection of blades placed on the sink next to her toothbrush. This is just routine in her eyes. Starting her day with trying to feel . This was her only way to feel. Aliana placed a mirror infront of her . She took out one of the blades holding it thight between her two fingertips. Slowly placing the sharp metal blade on her right thigh and intentionally looking up at the mirror . In a slow movment pressing the blade into her leg ,feeling every millimeter of the skin opening up . She finally let out a scream. It was lucky she didn’t have neighbors. She kept going on and on repeating it all in a desperate last way to get her emotions through. It worked . She felt .What a mess on the bathroom floor. The bleeding just continued but it didn’t matter . She was sinning . She thought she deserved it. She took her “punishment “.
