Why Some Angels Falls

When I was a boy, my smile glistened with glee and happiness. It shimmered like diamonds in the sunlight yet, over time even the brightest of lights run out of a reason to shine and the fuel to keep going. Even the sun will one day dim. I was happy... was. Being born as an angel, an Archangel at that, and growing up with my siblings was a peaceful experience. Sure, we all had our differences and father knew that, but we all made it work and we were an unstoppable team. We were able to maintain and keep all of Father’s creations under control whilst he was away creating new things and being well... God. People always wonder what it’s like for me to be the son of God and have him as our Father and I say this... “We are all the sons and daughters of God”. Of course, that’s the easiest way out of conversations but the reality is, he’s never home. He never eats with his youthful angels only on special occasions and always uses the excuse that ′He’s working’.Of course, I know he is but considering he’s the ultimate being and omnipotent, omnipresence and omnibenevolent could he not spare another minute longer with his archangel sons and daughters? Just for one more minute...

Once us Archangels reach the age of 12-15 years old, we started to receive more responsibilities and duties off Father. My brother Raphael was once sent to resolve a conflict between the ice giants and the Norse Aesir Gods who had stolen one of their sons, I believe his name was Loki. Raphael was only 12 at the time and he is more interested in academics and healing than being physical or in conflicts... so let’s just say it didn’t go well for him for his first mission given by Father.

My first mission was when I reached 9 years of age. Like I said before, Archangels start to receive more responsibilities and duties such as missions when they reach the ages 12-15 however, I was different. They say that I was made to perfection by God, that I could and will possess his greatness to be his exact copy. At first it built my ego up rottenly, I willingly helped and volunteered to help others and those who were weaker than me even if they didn’t need it because I thought that was God’s way and I was going to be his next in line if that time ever did come. However, I couldn’t have been further from the truth. It was true that I was indeed stronger and faster than my other brothers and sisters and I did gracefully develop a handsome face made to perfection like clay would be from the hands of an artist with a dream, but it was this ego that led me to believe that I could do more much sooner than I anticipated.

My first mission was when I reached 9 years of age. I was sent to the realm of humans who lived in violence and sin and was to be shown ‘the right way’, whatever that meant. Once I laid my eyes on the first humans, I could find I was terrified... terrified of what they became...

I was told before heading to this mission by Raphael that apparently these beings ‘humans’ look like us but without the wings and is one of Father’s most favourite creations therefore he put them in this place called “The Garden of Eden”. He then made them immortal beings so he wouldn’t lose them, there was a condition, however. Never eat the forbidden fruit of knowledge, even my brother was so intrigued by this. His little academic loving mind and knowledge seeking dream was glimmered with excitement and joy, he was a scholar through and through and he could hardly contain it. He told me the main names were ‘Adam’ and ‘Eve’ as they were the very first ‘Parents of the humans’.

So, I told him I’d sneak him a piece of the fruit as a joke, and he panicked and made me promise him not to do that or Father will be mad. Honestly, that boy has never wanted to go outside of bounds and limits himself, yet he wants to obtain all of knowledge. Weird is it not? I went on my way and found the humans yet to my surprise they did not strike me as something Father would ‘favourite’ in my opinion.

There was a woman who seemed to be dead and a man. The man was having intercourse with her but there was more to it. Before, Raphael told me that these beings were immortal but from what I saw, she was barely on the scale to be considered ‘living’. Her body was tangled up with her own hair like in a bondage pattern and a snake was slowly eating her from the inside out whilst her body twitches in response to the grotesque fate she has fallen upon. The man had eyes wide open with stars and galaxies reflecting in them, but it was almost like the stars and galaxies were kept inside his eyes like crystal balls of creation that someone of a higher being and existence could obtain... similar to my father. His hair was long and blonde, shimmering with streaks of gold and was nested with twigs and leaves as if he was just sleeping in a bush. His body was slim yet toned and was made to proportion. He was naked as was the woman, yet she was dressed in her own blood and guts, so she was covered.

As this man, whom I presume to be Adam, was committing this grotesque sin towards the woman he had this smirk that stretched for miles in the land of insanity, and there was no stopping it from reaching the shore of ‘too far gone’ either. He was enjoying it and laughing all throughout, I wanted to look away and just go home but I couldn’t... I was in shock, and I was frozen, scared even. For the first time I was scared and my ego in this scene meant nothing but hearsay and too much confidence.

The woman whom I presume to be Eve had the same eyes but dimmer as her stars and galaxies looked like they were slowly getting swallowed by a black hole, she was nearly nothing but empty space void. I noticed one thing that made this whole scene make sense... the forbidden fruit...

Raphael told me that our father allowed these beings to be immortal and live in eternal peace if they didn’t touch the forbidden fruit which apparently obtained eternal knowledge and was ever learning if consumed. So, with that I can’t really blame these beings for being tempted to try the fruit but is this what eternal knowledge does to people??

“Oi winged boy; do you want a piece?” Adam asks me maniacally.

My skin hardens on instinct, and I’m covered in goosebumps. His voice alone sounds crazy, and I can’t help to think what he will do next if this is his starting point. I shake my head ‘no’ nervously and see he started to eat her body and this ′piece′ he was referring to was a part of her. I felt sick. The worst part is, he hasn’t moved nor changed facial expression and is just staring at me as he eats. He has the biggest smirking grin on his face that makes it look animalistic. His eyes still widened and shot with blood and galaxies to which they still glimmer and shine. It’s the most beautiful insane piece of art I have ever laid eyes upon... but the stare was starting to pierce my soul and mind. I was slowly getting convinced that if I moved, even a centimetre, he would instantly be in front of me and doing awful things to me too.

“What is your nameeeee winged boy?“.

“L-Lucifer”.

I stuttered?!!?!?! I have never stuttered in my life but then again this is the first time that someone has made me feel so threatened to the point I felt like I could do nothing against them no matter how strong or fast I am... are we sure these beings weren’t made in the image of God?

“Luuuucy why don’t you eat something? You look a little hungry”.

The way he speaks sounds like a fork being dragged along a plate.

“W-What did the forbidden fruit do to you!?“.

It clearly affected them in some way that wasn’t said previously about this so called forbidden fruit... but the problem was how he reacted to that question. His smirk slowly shrunk up until his mouth was closed and baring no teeth, but a gloom mouth that has sunken into despair. His eyes aren’t those of a crazy mad man with stars in them but of a man that just got asked the one question he didn’t want to answer and his brain did a good job of blocking it for him... until now.

“You wanna know what fruit does to you.... Ohhhhh I’ll tell you what the forbidden fruit does to you Lucyyyy but first let me ask you oneeeee tinsie winsieee question”.

My heart stops, beating in tension for what hes about to ask me...

“Do you actually think the forbidden fruit was real?“.

The silence was deafening, quite frankly something that had sent my core soul to damn near frozen. That question was so bizarre, even though I just heard it Raphael who was obsessed with learning everything that was created by Father. So, I trusted his word more than anything. He wouldn’t just go off on a rumour or be that excited for a tale, and it wasn’t just him who knew about the forbidden fruit, we even asked Father why it was made forbidden, but he never answered, maybe this is why.

“Let’s say for a split second that the forbidden fruit isn’t real, why would God make it forbidden?“.

“Ahhhhh the million-point question has finally arrived hahahaha”.

“Luccyyy... the forbidden fruit was made as metaphor and lesson for all sin, its just plain old fruit just like any other hahahahaha”.

That’s crazy!! How does it explain what’s happened here, unless father made a mistake in his process of creating these beings, But, that’s very unlikely he takes his time and intricately creates them with the same amount of attention and care for all beings.

“Then why would everyone think it has eternal knowledge?“.

“HAHAHA because Lucyyyy that is what we call temptation, the fact that we don’t know for sure if the forbidden fruit really does all those things is purely based on whether we give in to temptation or not. So, up until now no one that exist knows the true contents of the fruit. It is a metaphor of whether you’d give in to temptation to do something morally wrong and gain something you selfishly desire, whether you’d commit sin knowing fully well your peace would be destroyed”.

“Is that why Eve is in that state? How does eating fruit that just ends up being ordinary and plain fruit end up in this situation and cause you to do this?!“.

“Hmm?“.

His face contorts and wonders why I asked that like I’m the crazy one.

“OH this? Oh, Lucy I never said the fruit made me do this HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS JUST BECAUSE I HAVE FREE WILL AND NOW DRENCHED IN SIN SO WHY NOT?!“.

T-This man just said, ′because why not’? There’s no reason to his madness other than because he can so he will!? What type of madness and insanity did Father make here!?

“So, you tell Daddy God that his son Adam is having his fun in his playroom and if he needs something he can come down here himself”.

His face changes again to a more sinister and serious expression as if the mention of God brings back bad memories and he wants to settle them himself. He doesn’t even look scared making threats like that. Who is this guy...

“FATHER THIS NEEDS TO STOP NOW!!“.

More voices? I didn’t know there were more of these beings, and did they just say Father?? This man has kids? This is all so chaotic for me, I don’t know where to start. I know the mission stated that the humans were now living in sin and violence, but this is taking it far beyond that and making the word ‘sin’ and ‘violence’ much more than their meaning.

“OH, BOYSSSS YOU’VE CAME JUST IN TIME FOR DINNER DIG INNNNNN!!“.

As Adam shouts out maniacally to his children he digs into Eve and pulls out more of her flesh and guts.

“EUAHHHHHHHHAGHGHGHAGH!!!!“.

Dear lord.... Give me strength for this is a test of all wills... the woman is alive still even though the snake and mad man have been digging into her like it’s an all you can eat... she’s screeching in pain and suffering... I think I just might not be cut out for this.

“FATHER STOP YOU’RE HURTING HERRRRR AGHHHHH”.

One of the kids lunges towards Adam with murderous intent as they have now the same crazy eyes as Adam’s but for a different reason.

“WAIT STOP DON’T!!“.

I try to stop them, but my body still isn’t responding to me well after what’s going on. Now this kid is going to kill his father for what he’s done. I can’t take it anymore I want to go home.

Thud!... thud... thud... squelch... squelch...

The other son sprang into action and hit his brother in the head with a rock repeatedly even when he was already on the floor not responding...

“CAIN YOU’RE SUCH A GOOD BOY YOU REALLY DO TAKE AFTER YOUR FATHER HAHAHAHAHA”.

“SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP”.

His name is Cain huh? Interesting.

“ITS ALL GODS FAULT, HE DIDN’T APPRECIATE MY OFFERINGS AND SACRIFICES LIKE HE DID WITH ABEL AND NOW HE WILL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO APPRECIATE THEM!!!“.

T-They’re all crazy...

The scene of two brothers killing each other and the father raping and desecrating his woman’s corpse whilst eating her flesh, I am ready throw up, go home and pretend that these things aren’t real as I know Father would never let such beings exist. Not under his watch surely?

It makes me question life and the existence of good and evil. Now I understand the importance of us Archangels who maintain that balance and ensure things like these monstrosities don’t happen again.

“Now the real question is what do we do with you?“.

No... they’re both looking at me, and Adam is pointing at me with that stupid sinister, maniacal grin. I need to leave.

“I’m going back to the kingdom and reporting this to Father, both of you will be severely punished for these si- “.

Before I could even finish my sentence, Adam has somewhat teleported in front of me staring into my eyes with insanity being his main eye colour. He is fast... too fast...

“Oh, but what if you don’t return? Doesn’t that mean your daddy God will have to come save you?“.

His face keeps changing and shifting on shuffle. He is waiting for the dreaded confirmation...

“YES, HE WILL SO BACK OFF”.

I tried pushing him but its barely even feeling like I’m making the connection... no that’s not the problem... I am pushing him, it’s just not strong enough to affect him but how can a creature be stronger than an archangel? None of this is making sense and I don’t know what to do... Father help me...

“Here’s what I think we should do lucy, why don’t you stick around and play with us lower beings and we’ll just wait until your daddy comes to pick you up... FROM THIS FANTASTICAL GARDEN OF EDEN DAYCAREEEEEE!!!“.

As he finishes his sentence, he grabs me and pulls me closer to the centre of this crazy madness. It’s like a whirlpool of insanity and pain as both him and Cain start to torture me...

They make it very clear that they must not kill me even if they could as they want to keep me alive so they can use me as bait for my father but surely, he’s watching all this right? He’ll come save me, right??

Six months have passed... not a day or night has gone by where I have sensed or seen Father come to save me... Adam and Cain are taking turns torturing me, skinning me, punching me, raping me, stabbing me in all places imaginable. This is truly what my father has created, and this is how he treats me? Leaves me to die and suffer for HIS creation’s faults and wrongs?? No, I won’t accept it!! He’ll come... soon...

“AGHHHHH WHY HASN’T HE COME YET?! THIS STUPID WINGED CHILD IS NO FUN ANYMORE!”

I’m... done... I close my eyes and hope that my soul passes to another realm where I no longer am going through this eternal and never-ending suffering. I’m done with hoping, praying and believing that he’ll come and save me... IM DONE WITH IT ALL!!! I just want this nightmare and punishment to end. What did I do to him to deserve something like this!? Did I not do everything he asked of me and more!?

He left me. The one being that exists to have eternal love for all his children left me. I’m done being his puppet and pin cushion.

“LUCIFERRRRRRRRRR!!!!”

Huh? Who’s that? I open my eyes and see the brightest light shine through the ceiling of sky that had started to cake in grey and melancholic colours to match the atmosphere and mood. Both Adam and Cain are blinded by the light and can’t make a move. Their sin and blood stained skin tries to dim the light but even their blood shed isn’t enough to dim this bright spark of sun. There is only one being capable of light like this and that’s an archangel... and no ordinary Archangel... It’s Michael!! My eldest brother and first Archangel to be born from Father. I never thought I’d see him be the one to save me.

“LUCIFERRRR ARE YOU OKAY?!?!? WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU???“.

Michael seems angry and frustrated like a big brother intervening bullying on his little brother at school. His face is scrunched up like he’s wanting to say and do so many things but he’s holding back... for the sake of me? Most likely not.

“Brother, I have news from Father this is what he wants to do with them”.

Even brothers Gabriel and Raphael are here. Gabriel starts whispering to Michael about what Father told him... so he knows of the situation I’m in. Raphael comes to me straight away healing me and relieving me of pain. He specialises in healing, and it definitely has come in handy although, I began to feel numb of their acts towards me after just a few weeks here...

My brothers are slightly older than me and therefore are pretty organised and able to handle this situation.

“Tsch so daddy sends more of his little weak winged chi-“.

Before Adam could finish speaking he was pulled towards Michael by an unknown force and held by the throat... Brother Michael could have snapped his neck there and then.

“I take it you are Adam, yes? You will be facing judgement and will be on trial for your sins. Don’t worry about that, and as for Eve we will have to find a replacement or else you won’t be able to continue the human race, not that I am in favour of you doing so.“.

“Typical beings from heaven they never act on their own and can never do wrong hahahaha UGH- “.

Brother Michael punches Adam hard enough to hear crunches which I presume to be ribs breaking.

“Oh, don’t worry Adam, I hear you made Eve from one of your ribs, so I left you one unbroken to complete that again”.

“Oh, how k-kin- “.

Adam starts coughing up blood and I can see on his face for the first time he’s feeling pain and fear. Brother Michael is scary and clearly not calm about this... I’m kinda glad.

Some angels take Cain and Adam out of Garden of Eden, sending them on their way and locking the gates with guards of angels wielding flaming swords. Cain didn’t speak or move that entire time and just did as he was told especially after seeing his dad be handled like he was just some mere insect; it gave him insight to just how strong the older archangels are... not weak like me.

“Alright Lucifer let’s take you hom- “.

I slap his hand as it extends to me as I was furious it took them this long to save me and this long to even care about me.

“I’ll go home myself thank you”.

“Lucifer, I know how you feel right now- “.

“NO, YOU DON’T, DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH!? I WAS RAPED, STABBED, SKINNED, BEATEN, KEPT AWAKE, VIOLATED TO MY VERY CORE AND YOU TOOK SIX MONTHS TO EVEN WONDER WHERE I HAVE BEEN?! I AM DONE WITH THIS FAMILY AND I AM DONE WITH HIM!“.

The silence that came after was louder than the rant I just had, I felt a little bad because im sure Michael has been doing as much as he could and was probably busy on his missions to even know of my disappearing and I just took it out on him. But who am I to take it out on? My Father? I never see him, and it would be pointless anyways to even try and reason with him. So, I just had no choice but to let it out on the closest one to me... I’m sorry Michael.

Instead of waiting for him to respond which I could tell would take days as I could see his shock and surprise of me acting like this. I decided to walk away and just go home. At least that’s what I wanted to do before my leg gets grabbed by something... or someone.

I look down and to my horrors I see Eve, she was meant to be dead and judging by the sound of her forced breathing and lungs that sound like they have given up I find it impressive that she is even alive...

“Y-You... shall... carry... my... v- “.

She pulls me down to the ground and whispers into my ear... my soul freezes, my body tightens up in attempts to rescue me from this but it’s too late... she has passed it onto me.

“Eughh”.

Michael impales her lifeless but living corpse with his sword finally putting her out of her misery.

“What did she say to you Lucifer? Did she hurt you?“.

“Not at all brother she said nothing”.

What she told me has now given me a new goal. A mission I will carry out on my own accord not because I was told to do so by Father... not by that man ever again.