"Heartbroken hiccups"

"I can not leave him "she  murmur while she was asleep. Her whole body was soaked with sweat. As soon as she was awake from the dream, she got scared and started crying.

"I know I'm not perfect but believe me when I said I love you I mean it. Whenever you are hurt or sad, I cry and you said,"you are no longer a child". It's not that, whether I am a child or not, it's because my heartaches when I see you in pain. I can't control my emotions and starts crying.

You think I didn't love you? Whatever my mood is , just your text or snap makes me smile. When I feel sad, staring at your picture makes me calm. My gallery is half full of your pictures. When you just said that you are with me. This sound  makes me stronger than ever.

You think I can hurt you? In the past when you left me, I can't sleep for a month, I had the first panic attack when you told me that you would get married in the next two years. Whenever I was with you, I wished that I had the power to stop time. I always want to fulfill your life with happiness. I always look for you when I feel sad, happy or empty because my moods are temporary but you are permanent. I ask you in every prayer like worship.

I don't know why I was so attracted to you. I don't know how to explain my feelings. Yes, it's true that when I see someone else with you I get jealous and hurt when you ignore me. I gave you my everything love affection soul, so why can't you love my back? Why my love is not enough? I know all your flaws and still want to catch you. You are the one who constantly crosses my mind throughout the day. You're the one I'm afraid to lose. Please don't leave me, please always stay by my side. I want to keep you in my life ."

She murmured with hiccups.

Meeم A'yن