Need love

Its my senior year and i have gotten nothing achieved… first kiss, first boyfriend and i never had sex before. Crazy right? Not to me unfortunately i’m a boring loner no one wants to hangout with.

My day started very mundane, got ready and headed to school. Nothing out of the ordinary, its been like this the past four years of my life. The only thing special about it is him, the light of my glory, the bane if my existence in this god forsaken world we call earth.

The middle of October, its my favorite season really. You get to see the season change the weather getting colder, the leaves changing. Its the perfect season for love. Hopefully i’ll have him pretty soon.

I finally step into the school building feeling cold as ever. So are my hands, as if there are on fire, i shoulve brought my gloves. “Wheres my phone” i said. Feeling very worried, checking around in my pockets “here” issac said handing my phone to me. Looking at him blushing from excitement and embarrassment. “Thanks” was all i could muster, quickly walking away so I wouldn’t have to deal with the embarrassment any longer.

“He touched me!” i said quietly to myself. Even though it was by accident, it was still something. Issac is the typical “popular” kid. Everyone wants to be around him twenty four seven, he has more friends than i had in my entire lifetime. Well he is very smart and outgoing. No wonder why girls horn dog all over him, i even do it myself for Christ sakes.

I made it though the war zone of kids trying to get to there classes. “Finally” i said quietly, putting my book bag down and sitting on my seat. The bell is ringing loud as ever, Mr. Henry is trying to settle down the class. “ Alright class” he said pausing and looking at everyone. Feeling as if he’s ashamed of us. “Today we are moving seats!” He said. “Ugh” the class said it in unison. “Why? We’re in senior year, we arent in middle school anymore!” I said to myself. I couldn’t help but look over and see issac, looking as handsome as ever.

His dark brown hair with his chocolate brown eyes. Laughing with his group of friends. Hoping i could get a seat buy him. “Alright, everyone stand up, and head to the front of the room!” Mr. Henry said. I walk over by his desk, standing alone like i always do. “Marie, sit in the front row on the right.” Mr. Henry said. “Ok” i said very softly, feeling very embarrassed, i go to head down to my seat. Why does he have to call me first? That was so embarrassing. I felt as if my anxiety took ahold of me… I swear Mr. Henry hates me.

“Issac, sit next to marie for me won’t you bud” Mr. Henry said smiling at him. Issac smiled for a mirco second at Mr. Henry. “Why?” He said “because i asked you to, now do as i say and go sit down!” Mr. Henry said looking annoyed. “Fine” issac said rolling his eyes into oblivion. “I wanna sit with my friends” he said quietly under his breath walking over to his seat. “Ugh, i can’t do anything in this stupid school”. He said aggressively under his breath, looking over at me.

I gave him a quick smile, looking the other way. I didnt want him to think i was a creep for staring at him. “This is going to be a long day” i said under my breath, rolling my eyes aggressively. Looking over at him again. I couldn’t help myself, when im in the presence of him, my heart feels like its on ten cans of cheap energy drinks from the gas station. Besides my beautiful issac, i cannot comprehend math one bit.

Finally once the class was over, i was headed to my locker when i found this green book on the ground. There was a name written on it. “It’s issacs!” I said to myself quietly. He must’ve dropped it on his way to the gym. Some boys got out if the classroom early for the wrestling try outs. Feeling a bit creepy and stunned i found his notebook, i headed to my locker to put my books away. I kept his notebook in my bag for safekeeping. Im going to hand it to him tomorrow, in first period, thats the only time i get to really see him besides the hallway.

The last period of the day is gym, it sucks. i also feel lucky i don’t have to stink up the hallways early like other kids, but it does mean i have to change my clothes in the locker room… I’m a bigger girl I weigh ten times the size as other girls in my gym class.