MY GOOD LITTLE sub
About a year ago, something inside of me began to wake up.
It was an honest, burning desire and pleasure. I realised that I ... love ... owning people. I savour the moments when I get to watch my partner fall deep into her bliss at my hand, surrendering to my control over the moment.
And now.
I want to expand this. I want to play with this. I want to explore this within myself, with others, with ideas; I even want to break the fourth wall and explore it with you, my dear reader.
That’s right. I want to own you.
I want you to ache for me, drool for me, drip for me, pine for me. If you do this, with the full honesty of your heart, you will be dearly rewarded. I assure you, my rewards are ... lovely.
Now, how do we do this?
First, a little honesty is needed. I have a question for you.
Do you feel something right now as you read this?
A stir beginning to slur the insides of you. Maybe a small fire burning at a low heat, just waiting to be fanned. If it’s not there, no worries—don’t try to force anything.
But if you do feel something, I sincerely hope you don’t ignore it.
I invite you to be curious.
This is a real opportunity.
Take it.
Entertain the idea that maybe, just maybe, you want to be owned by me.
Does that scare you? Society has a way of attaching labels and meaning to submission. I say we break the mould. I think it’s beautiful and should be treated as something beautiful.
I’ll simply fan your flames until the fire leaks out of you in great, sizzling drips, until you beg for me, until you beg for the moment of dominance to take you. How wonderful to be in a state of such arousal and surrender that you beg.
I don’t even need to be there. Dominance, like submission, doesn’t need a body. It can be created. It can be conjured before us and submitted to. This is exactly what we’ll be doing here.
In this book, this living diary of my sexual exploration, I’m going to create scenes, moments, exercises, some based on real experiences, some based on real fantasies—all of which carry delightfully real arousal.
Here, arousal is something to be celebrated.
If you’re good, I will celebrate you.
I don’t care what body parts you have or what your sexual preference is.
Sometimes I’ll talk to you as a woman, sometimes as a man, sometimes from the space between. We will be exploring the roles of Dominant and submissive—Feather and flower. Sometimes I’ll tell you a story about flower, and sometimes, I’ll talk directly to you, my flower.
Do you understand?
The feelings you feel as you read, whatever they may be, are real, they’re happening. Don’t ignore them.
Did that excite you when I called you “my flower?”
Acknowledge it. Let yourself have it. Those feelings are the honesty of the moment—the fire that ignites from your submission. Your submission is beautiful, your submission is sacred, your submission is powerful. So, be a good little sub for me and answer my question.
Do you understand?
Say, “Yes, sir.”
Out loud.
Whisper it if you need to, but I will have that sound leave your lips for me.
Do you understand?
Good.
Now, I need you to admit something to yourself. It will make you powerful. Through this power, this self—acknowledgement, we’re going to open a portal together.
I need you to admit to yourself that you’re still reading because you want to. You ... want to. Is that right? You want to be here. Something in your stomach is tickling you forward. If so, don’t deny it.
Own it.
Be proud of it.
Enjoy it.
This is your power, my sweet reader, my dear little sub. Your submission is power—take it. You’re learning something about yourself—how beautiful.
To kick us off, I have an exercise for you. I’m going to ask you to do some things for me, flower—two things.
No need to be nervous—I’m only ever going to ask you to follow your desire, that tickle, that fire. If you feel the heat shrink, take a moment, maybe skip that particular part. But if you want what’s in front of you, take it.
You’ll enjoy it.
Before I ask these two things of you, I want you to confirm your understanding. Say “Yes, sir”. Out loud again, flower.
You may whisper it yet again if you need to but don’t deny the part of you that wants to speak your respect. To me, the idea of me, whatever force or person I represent for you—your Feather.
I will, however, need you to say it before you keep reading.
Once you do, we’re going to have so much fun.
Did you say it? If so, and it’s what you wanted, you’ve made me so happy. I sincerely congratulate you on accepting and calling in something you want.
Time for my first request.
Right now, wherever you are, I want you to take a deep breath for me, sweet reader. I want you to breathe for me, deep into your belly. Fill your beautiful body with air; feel the light stretch of your skin as you expand.
Hold it.
After a second or two, let it out.
I’m so proud of you.
Did you like that?
Does your body feel good?
You don’t have to say anything, you can just nod quietly to yourself if you like. I want you to take as many deep breaths as you like today. As you go about your routine, as you keep reading this book—as you keep reading this experience—as you keep going.
I want that for you.
I want your body to sing, flower.
Now for my second request.
Oh! Feeling a little more eager this time I see. I like that.
For the second thing, we’ll do a little more, something to help awaken the submissive spirit even further. I’m going to have you read a little bit more, and then . . . I’m going to have you put this book down and walk away.
While you’re away, I want you to play with this book in your mind. The fact that the rest of this chapter is waiting and ready for you can exist as a juicy bit of information, just for you, to feel and savour in your body. Savour the small, smouldering fire it lights in your stomach as you think about it, about me, waiting for you. Then, whenever you’re feeling ready, I want you to come back.
You can stay away for the length of a breath, a minute, an hour, a day, however long you like.
Get yourself nice and excited and then come back.
Do you understand?
Good.
Welcome back.
How do you feel?
Do you feel ready?
Good. Let’s continue.
I want you to picture me now, flower, whatever it is you think I look like—standing over you. I am a bit tall, so chances are I will be above you.
Look up at me. Show me your beautiful eyes.
From this place in your mind, this place of you that looks up, acknowledge how obedient you’ve been for me, for this force that has asked these things of you. Acknowledge the choice you’ve made to obey. Acknowledge that you’ve done something you wanted to do.
It’s okay if you smile, or laugh, or shed a small, cheeky grin, but keep your eyes on me, look right up at me.
I want you to say something for me, flower.
Say, “I’ve been obedient and I like it.”
Say it loud enough so you can hear yourself, flower.
I’m going to ask you a question now.
. . . Are you my good little sub?
I’m so happy to hear it.
I’ll talk to you soon, my little sub.
Enjoy your day as much as possible.
