Twin's Shadow

Anita Pov

Beep! beep! the alarm clock went off buzzing waking me from my peaceful sleep into another day of torment.

"Shut the fuck up." I said while I slammed my hand into the alarm kicking it off to the floor.

"Ugggh!" I groaned while trying to sit up on my bed, suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my head causing me to moan out loud, the headache was terrible. "I shouldn't have drank last night." I thought to myself.

Well, it's not my fault I couldn't resist the urge to drink, last night was a mess for me wait!, Who I'm I kidding my whole life has been a total mess from the start and I guess I turned out to alcohol for support.

Standing up from my bed, I made a lazy stretch and a very unladylike groan came out from my mouth, I made my way towards the bathroom staggering like a mentally deranged old lady, I turned on the sink and splashed some water on my face repeatedly then I turned it off and look at myself in the mirror standing across the sink.

"I look terrible!" I grimaced disgustingly.

Honestly I was scared of the way I look myself, I mean who wouldn't be? My frizzy looking hair and my pale white skin made me look like a zombie plus my battered red eyes didn't helped matters at all!!

"If only I looked like HER". I thought begrudgingly then I felt the sudden wave of disappointment as realization dawn on me, no matter what I do I could never end up like her.

I waved that thought away as I made my way towards the shower and did my business.

I dressed up into my black hoodie and my black sweat pants, I've always liked dressing in darker colors.

I put in some eye drops and patted some concealers under my eyes to conceal my dark eye circles. To be honest I've never really given a damn about giving attention to my looks from the start, i mean, not like anyone's gonna notice me anyway.

No matter what I could not be effortlessly beautiful as HER.

Picking up my back pack from the floor, I take out for downstairs dragging my feet carelessly on the floor while stepping down the staircase.

A sweet smell of pancakes with fried eggs filled my nostrils as I headed to the dinning table.

My mum has always been a good cook and breakfast in my family has always been delicious. That was the only thing I enjoyed in the morning rather than the sickening feeling I always get every morning about going to that hell hole called school.

"Good morning dad." I mumbled out as I got seated.

"Good morning dear." Daddy replied with a smile. "how was your night? Did you enjoy the party last night?" He asked curiously.

I froze on my chair as I recalled the unpleasant previous night.

"It was.... good, I guess!" I lied feeling uncomfortable.

"Morning sweetie." My mum chirped out of the kitchen as she starts to sets down the dishes on the dinning table.

"Morning mum." I replied while looking down on my meal trying to convince myself inwardly reasons why I shouldn't be moody at all but the voice I heard next made it all worst.

"Hey Anita!" She said as she pulled a chair across the table and sat in front of me smiling brightly.

"Hey Abigail." I replied lamely.

Yeah! As you all may know. She's the one I've been referring to, my twin sister Abigail.

I sneaked a peek at her beautifully dolled up face as she hums to one song absentmindedly tapping her perfectly manicured fingers on the table as a beautiful smile spread across her lips. The lip gloss she wore adding a shimmer to her lips as she smiled.

"Abigail, you must be in a good mood today." Daddy smirked at her.

"Yeah dad, as always!" She said shining her pearl white teeth at him.

"I must have seen you enjoyed yourself last night huh?" He said at her jokingly while cocking an eyebrow at her.

"Yes dad" Abigail laughed.

The sound of her laughter sounded so divine! I could never have made a pleasant laugh like that without sounding like a dying stray cat!! The thought appeared on my mind like a quick flash as I wavered it away.

"Yesterday's party was lit!" She exclaimed excitedly.

"Glad it was!" Dad said. "I'm happy my beautiful twin daughters had the best birthday party of their lives." He added and I nearly scoffed.

Best birthday party my foot! At least it was for Abigail not me....

"Anita, did you leave the party in a hurry last night?" Abigail questioned cutting me off guard.

"Huh? What do you mean?" I asked with a nervous laugh as my parents gave me questioning glances. "I was at the party all through." I added making sure not to show how panicked I felt on the inside.

"Really?" Abigail asked eyebrows raised at me.

I nodded at her.

"But..." She continued. "I thought I saw you at the beginning of the party but couldn't find you later on. It's like you disappeared....."

"I was at the damn party!" I interrupted rather too rudely.

I was starting to get irritated by her questions.

"Maybe if you weren't so busy with your popular friends and the cool kids at the party, you wouldn't have forgotten you had a twin sister you shared the birthday party with!" I retorted harshly.

I could feel the the anger and jealousy I've kept in me beginning to boil up.

"Anita I...." Abigail stuttered as she looked at me eyes wide open in awe probably thinking about what to say next. "That... isn't what you think it is" she said.

I scoffed out loud.

"Sure it isn't!" I said sarcastically.

"Hey listen!" Mum finally spoke up. "You guys need to stop this right now!" She said sternly. "You two had a birthday party last night,this is not how to behave the following morning! Plus you're 18 and both adult so start behaving like one, no bickering at the table!!"she added

There was a brief silence at the room.

"Dig into your food now before it gets cold." mum ordered as everyone of us obeyed as we started eating.

While eating, I couldn't help but wandered my thoughts about what happened last night in my mind.

Well Abigail decided to throw our 18th birthday party at our school's auditorium last night in courtesy of our parent's sponsorship and the party was huge because well, my parents are pretty loaded.

I was skeptical about going to my own birthday party because that would be the first ever all night party I would ever attend with the other fellow students and familiar faces in attendance.

It was just like any other teenage party with loud music, alcohol, horny teenagers. A party full of regrets! Well the only difference was that it was a birthday party and it was thrown at the school's auditorium.

Unlike this birthday party. I and Abigail's other birthday party where quite secluded. It was like a little family gathering with just family and friends but Abigail the party queen decided to take our birthday party to the next level according to her by throwing it at night and with friends.

But of course our parents agreed to that without question! Heck they didn't even cared to seek my own opinion about it!! They just went on to let Abigail have her way like she always does as always.

Abigail always has the upper hand both at home and in school, she was like a goddess and everyone kissed the floor she walks in.

My own parents has always agreed to do whatever she wants they both adore her. Don't get me wrong,they adore me too but I just feel they adore her more.

Abigail has always been the star of the show. She shines wherever she goes and never leaves unnoticed therefore she earns admiration from people.

In school she's has always been the miss popular. She obviously was the hottest girl in school by many. Head cheerleader of the school's basketball team, she's the type who gets boys weak to their knees and every boy in school are dying to date her and did I care to mention she's dating the hottest boy in school, Derek Scott the team's quarterback.

She has it all, the looks, the popularity, the influence, the friends, even the BOY.

Unlike me the school's social abomination that no one's wants to be seen with, the school nerd who has never had anything thing lesser than an A.

I've always been the weirdo who always finds it difficult to mingle around. A girl who rather be alone all her lunch period than being coupled up with cliques of friends, a complete opposite of my twin sister.

I know y'all might be wondering, are we identical twins? Well truth is, we are. Just that I'm the lesser attractive version of my twin sis.

We both have the same face but different physical traits and personalities.

For example I have wild frizzy brown hair which makes it really hard to de tangle which has always left it in a complete mess, pale white skin which causes my face to be all red splashed with an unwanted numerous amount of dark freckles plus the unattractive bumps of acnes ain't making matter better lol.

While as for my twin sis. She got blessed with jet black curly hair, a perfectly creamy skin without a single spot on her glass skin face and don't get me started with her curves she possessed at the right places! She could easily be mistaken for a Victoria secret model.

Abigail has never been afraid to show off her body to the world. She has always been confident in her own skin while I struggled with body dismorpia.

I lack the confidence she possessed and it has always added to my inferiority complex. I've always been compared to her on numerous occasions and people always wondered how we ended up being twin sisters with the same face but with different personalities and a wide gap of social status.

People have always ignored my presence whenever she's around and it made me grew resentful towards my own sister and I've always made quite an effort to avoid her in public in order to avoid that feeling of inferiority and been rejected and throwing a birthday party with schoolmates and friends made me grew and anxious and depressed.

I could remember sitting by the lonely corner in the room practically being ignored by everyone one. I was invisible, sitting there I watched how people passed me by without sparing a glance at me to interact with my twin sister as she beams with joy as she chats away and partied hard. Then I spent all my night at the isolated night getting drunk.

"I'm done eating." I announced as I stood up from the dinning table. "I'm off to school now." I swinged my backpack on my shoulders heading for the door.

"Wait!" Abigail called out to me.

I halt as I turned and look questioning at her.

"Jessica would soon be here so I was wondering if you would take a ride with us to school." She said as she stood up.

Well this isn't the first time Abigail has made an offer to ride to school with her friends but I've always known better than to ride to school with those sets of rude bitches she calls friends.

"Thanks for the offer Abigail but I think I'd be comfortable taking the bus instead" I said with a fake smile giving her the usual response as I made way for school.