My life as a book

THIS STORY IS ABOUT A GIRL WHO DISCOVERS THE TRUTH ABOUT BEING IN LOVE. SHE EXPERIENCES A LOT OF WEIRD STUFF THAT SHE WILL NEVER FORGET.

24 august 2022. March and her perents finally started watching the Star Wars series. The first movie looks too sad for the girl who is only 11. The second one catches her eye, because the second character Anakin is now older and much more cute. The actors have changed and now Anakin is played by Hayden Christensen who was very good looking at the age of 18. In the second movie Anakin and Padmé( his childhood crush) started getting a little closer physically. Now she was getting sweaty. She couldn’t wait to see the third movie when Anakin was now so hot. Hayden was then 23. She was never felt something like that before. The movie ends with the tragic lost of the young and hot, best friend of Obi Wan, Anakin. He turned into Dark Vader. It wasn’t his fault it was Palpatine’s. Anyway. She fell in love. She couldn’t do anything. She was thinking about him all the time. School started, unfortunately. She began to be obsessed with Hayden. Her galerie was full with photos of him. Because she has a mom, she started doing extra schoolwork at romanian (she’s from Romania). Her teacher, Mrs. Suchter, had the brilliant idea to put her with two boys. They were both older than her. Andrew was at CNRV a very popular school in her city. He was very smart and shy. She saw him as a very good friend. The other boy, Mattew, was shy in a different way. He was shy only when she was around. Of course he was stupid. And clumsy. Mattew and March went to the same school, but they never saw each other in the past. Their classrooms were next to each other so every break the would see each other. The first time they met he would stare at her all the time. She was beautiful. She had light brown curly chest lenght hair, tan skin and ocean blue eyes. She had a sarcastic humor. That made her very funny. Him, he had brown hair and kinda dark blue eyes. He was very skinny, skinnier than her. But he was strong he could do as many pull ups as u would like. She didn’t even look at him. She was to busy to think about Hayden. They managed so meet a few times at school but she wasn’t very interested in that boy. A week later they had extra school again. This time it was different. She had seen him for the first time. And she couldn’t believe her eyes. She saw a better guy than Hayden. Could’ve that been true? She never knew. From that moment, Hayden never crossed her mind again. Her dad forced her to watch The Avengers. She began to love those movies, but also a character. Captain America’s best friend, Bucky. He was hot. Very hot. She immediately fell in love with him. Then she discovered the actor, who surprisingly was romanian. But he was with 30 years older than her. She was now 12 years old and Mattew was 13. Somehow she found out that they were the same zodiac, Scorpio. They were both mysterious and never shared a secret. Her attraction towards him began to rise. But him, he was to shy. He couldn’t even talk to her without stuttering. And her? Her legs were shaking every time she saw him. She couldn’t do anything either. She just froze, and looked at him. The talking between the two of them wasn’t much. They talked just at extra school. But then, Mrs. Schuster got sick and they stopped doing extra school and stopped talking. They talked, but very rare. She was still in love with that actor. His name was Sebastian Stan. But then, she saw another guy. A Formula 1 driver, Max Verstappen, he was the fastest driver in that year. He didn’t look that good, but he had that sarcastic humor that she also had. Her love for Max didn’t last for long. She got back to Sebastian. The time flies. She was then in spring. The last day of school. The happiest day to a child. Was also the happiest day for her. She arrived at school at the same time as Mattew. She saw him and tried to act natural by running to the school gate. He had to cross the street in front of her moms car. Her mom heard about him but never met him. Somehow he thought that her mom knew him and he shoved his head in his chest. At the and of the pedestrian crossing he smiled. When this happened she was already entering the school so she had no idea that her theories of him liking her were true. During The Summer Holiday she had seen him 2 or 3 times. She didn’t expect that. School started again. She was not as “active” as before, he became more distant. Now they barely see eachother on the hallway. She taught that this was the story of her life.

BUT, it’s not done yet.

In that time, March had a best friend, May

May has a older brother, Sebi. Yay!! ANOTHER BOY, this is what March thought, but it wasn’t true. Sebi was different. Unlike the other boys, he focused on his life not on others think about him. He wasn’t normal. When he was little he got sick and stuff. Now he is fine and very intelligent. March always admired that he was studying a lot and had big marks. She always was a little bit nervous around him, but she ignored it. Until she grew up. She felt an attraction towards him. She could never understand WHY. We have to admit that he was good looking. His hair has an intense black. He was tall, skinny but muscular. I mean, he went to the gym. She couldn’t figure out the color of his eyes because of his, kinda big, intense black glasses. He was always smiling. He had bright white teeth. He was just perfect. But she avoided his eyes all the time. She didn’t want to be caught looking at him and besides, if she looked at him while he was looking at her, then what will May say? They would continue to stare at each other and then May would see them and she would be like ,, OMG, March likes Sebi’’. And nobody wants that, do they? One day, March was with May and May says,, U know, I think Sebi likes u”. At that moment March froze. And 10 seconds later March says ,, U are insulting me!!”. Of course she didn’t mean that. In her heart she hoped that it was true. She didn’t want to belive it but her heart screamed louder than her brain. This is where it started to get serious. From this moment, March spent every day thinking about him. U remember Mattew? She forgot about him. COMPLETELY! He never crossed her mind again. Sebi was the only one who made her blush, who gave her butterflies, who made her cry every single night. Mattew has just another student from the same school that she went to. Now her bed is soaking wet, her pillow is gross and her PJs are…. let’s not talk about that. She suffered a lot because of Mattew, that’s why she let him go. But she didn’t expect to be worse with Sebi. The truth is… she fought so hard not to fall in love with Sebi that it just happened. Every night she imagined Sebi laying there next to her. Of course it wasn’t real, but she fell asleep smiling every time. She dreamed him one time. In the dream they were together. They were happy. May and March were taking one day and they started to think how would it be if the went on vacation together. It would’ve been nice, of course. March was hoping their parents will discuss that, because Sebi and the beach… I think u can see were I’m going. She has imagined so many scenarios that made her blush, that gave her butterflies. And so many scenarios that made her burst into tears. She imagined that Sebi was there and that he loved her as much as she loves him. But it was just an imagination. Going back to reality. In the late spring, March was invited to May’s birthday party!!!! A bunch of May’s classmates were there, mostly girls. When March arrived at May’s house it was raining. She entered the house and saw the girls. She said hi. And then Sebi appeared. He was like: ,, March!!” Then he hugged her. Her jacket was wet but he still hugged her. After like 2 minutes he said: ,, U are wet!” And she said: ,, Yeah, it’s raining outside”. That’s not the only time Sebi hugged her. A few weeks later it was May’s and Sebi’s grandmother’s birthday. I don’t know why but she was invited. She arrived kinda early. No sign of Sebi. He was actually building a table, weird, I know. Nothing happened. March spoke with May about school and stuff. Then the cake was served. It was actually on the table that Sebi built. They ate cake spoke some more, and the hole time Sebi looked at March. When March finally left Sebi hugged her. How sweet!! Even more weeks later it was Sebi’s birthday. He was turning 16!!!!!! He grew up way to fast. Anyway. She was invited, of course. When she arrived there weren’t ant boys, just relatives. She taught: ,, Maybe they just haven’t arrived yet?” She saw him. He was dressed casually. She gave him the envelope with a card and some money. They hugged each other, this time it was kinda long, and I forgot to say that she was shaking, a lot. Then he hugged her parents. March went to May. May’s friend arrived with her brother Radu( he is 17 so no problems here ) and her parents. May’s cousins arrived ( he is literally antisocial so no problems here either). Some time passed. Still no other boys. She was surprised. They ate dinner and then cake. Still no more new boys. At this point she was shocked. They sang Happy Birthday. She went out with May. More time passed. Now she needed to go. She didn’t want to. As a goodbye sign Sebi hugged her. It was a nice hug. He was taller and he was warm. More time passed and it was time for March to celebrate her birthday. She was finally turning 13!!!! She invited May so Sebi could come. Sebi walked in and said Happy Birthday to her and then hugged her. It was a long hug. She just melted in his arms. Then Mat hugged her and she came to her senses. They ate noodles. Her dad’s recipe. Sebi was dressed nice. He had a white t-shirt and a light gray cardigan. He also had dark grey jeans, not skinny jeans but not baggy jeans. And he wore a silver watch. He was dressed elegant but also in street fashion. March spent the evening with May. She tried so much not to go downstairs take Sebi aside and kiss the hell out of him. She was happy, her favorite people were there. On that day she remembered every time Sebi and her hugged. There was one time that she and her class did Secret Santa. And Sebi and some of his classmates from her school walked in. She was in pure shock. She exclaimed: ,, SEBI?!?”. She literally ran to him and he wanted to shake hands but she hugged him tight. She was so happy. That was the happiest day of her life. And every time he saw her from that moment he hugged her. And another time Sebi was returning from school and saw March. He said hi and hugged her and said bye and left. Every time Sebi hugged her, one hole that Mattew dug in her heart was covered. But March isn’t happy. She hates herself, her life. Her life is a mess, the plan didn’t go as planed. The plan turned into a big and awful surprise. In the past she joked about having depression and anxiety, but it turns out that she has anxiety and some symptoms of depression. She doesn’t want to socialize or make new friends or go up to the bar tender and ask for a napkin. She is afraid that every one is looking at her and speaking about her. And the symptoms of depression have been there for about 9 months. Her parents are ,,different’’ than others. She isn’t aloud to have social media and that fact kills her at night. Her mom agreed to let her have instant only ih her father was logged in with her account to ,,SUPERVISE’’ her. Her parents don’t understand what she is going through, but they think they do. And right now she has bad acne and her mom tells her that she has a perfect face and her dad tells her that she shouldn’t use makeup because after 2 weeks she will look like a mummy.

U probably wonder how I know this girl’s story. I know it because I’m her. I spent every 5 spare minutes of my time before I go bed to write this hoping that someone would understand me. And I didn’t finish writing it. There still is the part where I fall in love with a girl and that my mom says I’m mentally sick and that I need to go back to reality. So here is where Mara dies and March rises.

Now u’re probably saying that I made this story up, but it’s true. This has been my past year, and the next 2 months.