Constellation

136 Days, it’s been 136 days since we’ve talked… I’ve always had a thing for writing. I say it better on paper than I do in person. What I meant to say that night was that ‘I love you’. But it didn't feel like you thought the same.

My phone buzzed-

“Hey Mads, we still hanging out?”- Ri

“Uhm I think so lemme ask Conner tho.”

“Conner? “

Can I go to the 4th of July party with Ri?”

“Conner?”

“Hello?”

I put my phone down, I don’t know why I even bother to ask him sometimes. Ri kept blowing up my phone every 2 minutes to ask for a update. He can just always be so- oh. Never mind. He texted back.

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because other guys”

“I can go with you and Ri?”

“I don't want to.”

I put my phone down I was going to go anyway, I promised Ri I would. I face-timed her later that night deciding if we should twin or not. It wouldn’t matter, we both knew some drunk guy would spill their drink on us anyways.

Conner came over at the time I was supposed to leave, well- the time I told him i would have left if he let me. We were watching a movie and his phone dinged. Taylor? Who’s that- nevermind, hes not dumb enough to cheat on me and leave his phone not on DND (do not disturb). I couldn’t help but snoop a little… his phone IS on DND. Then how- how did he get that message? I put his password in as fast as my fingers could type, Emergency contact list. No no, he wound’t he loves me. I rolled my eyes and pushed it aside. I set the phone down and looked to see where Conner went. He was watching me the whole time. He looked pissed.

“Why the fuck do you have my phone?”

“I dont know why do you have another girls name in your contacts?”

“Oh please… youre acting like you dont have any other guys in your contact list.”

“I dont! You made me block them!”

He rolled his eyes, stanched his phone from my hand and slammed the door leaving me alone on the couch with tears in my eyes. He’s just looking out for me… right?

Whatever I didnt give a single shit. I was going either way. But i felt like ass, was he cheating on me? I called Ri and she came to my house after hearing me cry on face time.

She slammed the door and ran to me, I was still huddled up in the couch crying. She sat next to me and layed her head down on my back.

“Why do you like him anyways? He looks like fucking wreck it Ralph.”

I tried so hard not to laugh-… well also because I couldn’t laugh cause every 3 seconds i was coughing.

“I don’t know..”

“Then break up with him..! You literally have guys worshiping the ground you step on but you won’t date them?! But no, fucking 6 ft Bowser over here trying to keep you in place.”

I laughed a little.. Ri heard me laugh and she smiled

“I know. But I love Conner..”

Ri rolled her eyes and wiped off my mascara.

“I didn’t come here for you to cry, I came here so that we can get dressed and get drunk at that party. Now let’s get ready ok?”

I mumbled and nodded my head. We took forever to get dressed and finally went to the party. Ri and I quickly got lost in the crowd and I went to go buy some random things to try and forget what happened to Conner and I.

“Hey uh. I thought you where really beautiful and I was wondering if I could get your number..”

I turned around and saw a guy.. about 6’1, brown hair- it was messy.. not fluffy. But a good messy, he had green eyes and my face was red. Wait- my face was red.. I had been paused for a long time just staring at him with my face red!?

“Oh I- uhm.. I have a boyfriend.. but I- I can give you my number anyways.”

He frowned, and put my number in his phone.

“My name is Hunter Reed..”

“Madison Lanon.”

He turned around after an awkward silence and went to go watch the fireworks. Mads blushed and turned around.. she wanted to go look for Ri.. but- oh.. Conner. He was here..?! W-with Taylor.. Conner saw her and flipped out..

“Oh shit.”

He mumbled underneath his breath, He had left Taylor and ran after Maddie.

“Mads.. I swear-! She’s a friend okay..? She was drunk and needed help…”

Ri found Maddison first luckily.

“What the hell is wrong with you Conner..!?”

“Oh please Ri.. like you can talk! Remember what we did a month ago?”

My heart dropped.

“Ri.. what is he talking about?!”

I turned around to face Ri, she had tears in her eyes.

“Ri. What is he talking about!”

“Yeah Ri, remember when you had to get an abortion?”

My heart broke.. she fucked him?!

“You’re not fucking included in this conversation Conner!”

I snapped at him. He was pissing me off, Taylor spotted me and quickly turned around.

I ran up to her and dragged her by her pony tail. I smashed that bitches face on the brick wall. She looked like Lindsay Lohan after the drugs, I was doing this girl a favor. She fell to the ground crying and I ran back over to Ri.

“Answer me!! What is he talking about?!”

“H-he drugged me.. I got pregnant. I didn’t want you to know so I aborted it.”

She had tears in her eyes and I got livid. Ri always wanted to be a mom and he ruined it for her. He ruined everything for everyone. I pushed him to the ground and started punching him. I wasn’t strong enough to do any actual damage, just some little bruises. A crowd was starting to form and everyone was watching me. Some people were trying to cheer me on, some where checking on Taylor, some where trying to pull me apart from Conner. I gave up and stormed off.

“What the fuck maddie?! You cant just walk off you bitch-!”

“Shut the fuck up”

Tears where already streaming down my face but seeing conner run after me made me want to die.

I went home and cried myself to sleep. Wait sleep.? No I didn’t cry myself to sleep. I stayed up for 4 nights crying. I couldn’t get out of my bed. Ri constantly came to my house to check on me, I never answered.

My phone buzzed.

It was Hunter

“Hey are you okay? I heard what happened. I didn’t see it because I left early.”

I was still crying when he was texting me, constantly having to while off little drops of tears off my screen.

“Mhm.”

Every girl know this trick in the book. I wasnt really okay just wanted him to shut up.

“Im coming over, give me your address.”

So I did. And that night I cried in his arms, how could anyone do this to anyone!

“Mads… you cant stay mad forever.. just answer Ri..”

I ignored him, he had no room to speak, but to be fair I cant really get mad at him, I had mascara stains on his sweatshirt.

“Maddie please just answer me.”

My phone was still going off Ri wouldnt stop texting me. I blocked Conner but not Ri. It didnt feel… good.