Excerpt
Preface
Carolyn’s Condo
2 Grove Isle Drive, #B409
Coconut Grove
Miami, FL
March, 2004
Carolyn thought back on her old life now as she gazed across the mostly empty beach through the window of her favorite balcony of her condo. Where she was now and the oddly winding route she had taken to get there was curious and incredible to her to say the least. From her restrictive and dreadfully overbearing childhood she still had a hard time when her mind wandered to believe what she had now and how she lived was actually real. After many years of wondering about sex and never daring to test the waters, so to speak, based on how she had been brought up, Carolyn had been thoroughly enjoying flitting from one lover to another, wanting to experience everything she could after a lifetime of just sitting on the sidelines and wondering what it was all about.
She had not really entered into her sexual awakening until after she was out of college, even though from her incredible sexuality and allure, she had certainly had more than her share of opportunities to shed her virginity. It was not until she was out on her own and in the first step of her career that she completely shed the protective shell that her parents had given her. And it had been, she saw now, a huge overreaction to being shielded from sex for so long, but damn, it sure had been fun. In her awakening, she had seduced and let herself be seduced by lots of men as she played the field learning all she could about what she had been denying herself for so long. But it was not until she met Amanda that everything had changed for her.
In a slightly drunken stupor one night, she had met and been seduced by the stunning and enigmatic Amanda Jergens who had introduced her to sex with another woman. She and Amanda entered into a relationship that was at times extraordinarily sensual and left Carolyn completely wrung out sexually to anger and frustration when things went badly and then parted their ways. But it had not taken and they were it seemed destined to be together despite the bumps in the road. However, that was now all over and behind her as Carolyn had abandoned what she was sure was going to be a sole attraction to women.
But then Richard Adams came into her life and though that relationship had taken way more years to evolve and manifest, Carolyn knew he was just the person she had been waiting her whole life for. She stepped through the balcony door and moved outside as she was waiting for Rich to return from a business trip as the sun was just breaking over the horizon and illuminating her bare skin as her thin, lacy negligee blew in a breeze that had suddenly sprung up, exposing her full breasts. Her nipples stiffened in the cool wind as it came off the water and her hand moved below as she inserted two fingers and began to masturbate, her mind conjuring up images of Rich taking her first gently and slowly and then in a more animalistic and urgent style that they both loved.
Her vagina quickly grew wet and she felt rivulets of her wetness ran down her legs and she began to moan in the quiet and dim light of dawn. Before she knew it, she came with a suddenness that caught her off-guard sending tremors through her body. She dropped to her knees and then lay back, spreading her legs wide as she grasped her favorite dildo from a nearby table to give herself a few more orgasms before she had to shower and get on with the day. Once she was sure she could not stand any more…a feat within itself lately…Carolyn dropped the dildo to the floor beside her and lay panting and exhausted.
She supposed that there was still part of her that fantasized about Amanda when she masturbated like this, but even so, there was something about the feeling of Rich’s muscular body on top of her or under her or behind her as he entered her, that was like nothing she had even experienced.
Before Amanda or Rich, Carolyn had had grand plans just stay free and unfettered once she began to see what sex was all about….no commitments, no traditional family ties…nothing but pure and guilt-free, no-strings-attached sex with whoever might catch her fancy at the moment. But beginning with Amanda, Carolyn soon came to realize that her endless strings of meaningless sex were leaving her feeling empty and unsatisfied after the sex was over. She had once thought that she and Amanda would create a monogamous life together that she was beginning to crave, but Amanda’s hesitancy to commit to that plus some other events that Carolyn would never have imagined in her life that came along got in the way of that plan.
And during the greatest gap in their relationship following a major blow-up between them, she had met Richard Adams. At the time, she had hooked up with Rich just as a knee jerk reaction to the break up with Amanda when she had just needed sex to dull the pain in her heart. But the man was like something out of any woman’s fantasy. Not only was he the most incredible male lover she had ever had, but the most decent and kind human being she had ever come across. Their long friendship had endured over time, even when she and Amanda had briefly reunited. And now she was anxiously awaiting his return.
She and Rich had carefully entered into a relationship that was based on much more substance and mutual respect and love than she had ever imagined possible and since he had moved in with her, her life…her new life…seemed to finally be everything that she had always wanted, but just never knew…
Chapter 1
Carolyn’s Childhood Home
Lebbing, TN
August, 1996
Carolyn was packing up the few hand-me-downs in terms of furniture and other household items that her folks had donated to her as she prepared to set off from the small town of Lebbing and begin her first job out of college. She had not ventured very far beyond the limits of Lebbing when growing up and then the campus of Southeastern Tennessee College (STC) after leaving home and though she was excited about what lay ahead for her in Memphis it was also a bit unnerving and intimidating to be going to a big city that had been portrayed to her as all that was wrong with the modern world. She had been raised in a strict religious background and STC was based on a lot of the things that Carolyn had had drilled into her since she was a child.
In fact, the only reason that her parents even allowed her to leave home for college was because of just how seriously STC seemed to promote a strict fundamentalist interpretation of the bible. Carolyn had gone along with everything that she had been raised with, even STC, but all around her she was exposed to a much more liberal way of living than what she had been held to at home. There was alcohol and even some drugs all over campus, despite the administration’s adamant stance that these things were strictly forbidden. Neither appealed to Carolyn, though. However, what did begin to raise her curiosity as she entered her junior year was all the attention she was suddenly beginning to receive from the boys on campus as her body began to develop into one that no amount of loose or layered clothing options would conceal.
Carolyn was the prototypical late bloomer and her once trim but boyish figure blossomed in what felt to her like an overnight phenomenon. Her breasts seemed to have been waiting for some signal, it seemed, to come to life and Carolyn stood at her mirror in her room one day hardly able to recognize the body she had grown into. She blushed almost daily as the looks from the boys in her classes and that she passed as she made her way around the campus left no misunderstanding as to how they saw her. Being the object of sexual desire was a new experience for Carolyn and though she eventually came to appreciate the attention, she never returned the flirtatious stares or smiled their way when they began to make passes at her.
It was not that she was not flattered, but more that she had been so sheltered and hidden away growing up that she just had no idea of how to go about it all…Carolyn was petrified that she would just not know what to do with a boy when the time came when one of them might want to go further than just kissing. In fact, several dates that she finally given in and gone on had ended disastrously when the boys had made it clear they wanted much more. Even getting felt up when she was involved in an amorous embrace made her feel guilty and ashamed and word soon spread around the small campus not to bother with the striking blonde because she was either just a tease or frigid and would not put out.
So as Carolyn put the last suitcase in the old beater sedan that her father had given her upon graduation, she was feeling as if living in Memphis was going to be too much for her to handle. Surely a city that size, with all that it had to offer young professionals like herself, would be filled with a sexual energy she had no idea how to deal with. And even as striking as everyone kept telling her she was, Carolyn was sure she would just fade into the background being outpaced and overwhelmed with what she assumed would be a myriad of women way more enticing, alluring, and experienced in the ways of sex than she was. But still…her curiosity about sex stayed in the front of her brain as she wondered what it would be like…
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Carolyn’s Place
456 Maple Drive
Apartment #56
Memphis, TN
Carolyn looked around at her first place of her own and was filled with a sense of real independence for the first time in her life, even though the apartment was just a simple 1-room studio. She had considered hunting for a roommate to help share with her expenses, but each time she had met with a potential roommate it had just not felt right and she bit the bullet and decided to go solo. Her job was very much an entry-level affair and as such she had to be very careful with her budget. However, having grown up with parents who were, putting as nicely as she could, very frugal and thrifty, she knew what it was like to get by on a meager income.
The job itself was very routine and monotonous with few challenges to her sharp intellect, but she threw herself into it fully making sure that her boss and even his boss saw how dedicated and focused she was in the hopes of getting an opportunity to move up into a position that would be more intellectually challenging and provide her in increase income. Her co-workers were friendly and they all supported one another constantly in an atmosphere that Carolyn had not been expecting. Prior to arriving in Memphis and beginning the job, her head had been filled with how cutthroat and callous life was going to be in the big city, especially in the workplace.
And just as it had been as she had been finishing up her degree at STC, she could not ignore the attention she was receiving from her male counterparts. None of them had as of yet made any direct overtures toward her, but Carolyn had a feeling that it was only a matter of time based on her experiences back in college. But for the time being, she ignored their lingering eyes bordering on leering at times to keep on track to get ahead. But she did develop a close relationship with Sarah Kline who had been with the company for a few years and was the unofficial supervisor in her group. Sarah quickly saw what Carolyn had in mind for moving up the ladder and stepped in to offer her advice and assistance as a kind of mentor. In the process, they soon became good friends both in and out of the office. Sarah had once been in Carolyn’s shoes herself and wanted to help her friend over some of the rough patches she had been forced to navigate on her own years before.
Sarah Kline’s Apartment
98 Ambrose Lane
Memphis, TN
“I really appreciate all your help, Sarah,” Carolyn said as they were having a glass of wine after work one day at Sarah’s place.
“No problem, Carolyn…as good an environment as we have in the office I am sure I do not need to tell you that it is still very much a male-dominated situation.”
Carolyn nodded.
“Also…I have heard through the grapevine that your long hours and dedication to your job have not gone unnoticed by the powers that be here.”
“Really? I had no idea…”
“I cannot say for sure, but my intuition tells me that you may be on their radar for some sort of promotion very soon…”
Carolyn was speechless.
“You have been shooting for this, yes?”
“Of course, Sarah…”
“Now…please take this in the spirit intended. From what I can gather, this move up may come down to you and a few other employees, all male. So my advice to you is to use your femininity and sex appeal to your advantage.”
“Isn’t that kind of inappropriate and unethical?”
“Maybe…maybe…but with women like us who have to fight an uphill battle against a very unfair playing field, why not use everything in your arsenal?”
“Such as?”
“Nothing too overt, really. But maybe begin to make some little changes in your office attire to catch the eyes of our bosses. Just subtle changes to take advantage of your incredible natural attractiveness.”
Carolyn blushed still having trouble coming to terms with her appearance when complimented, even though in her heart she knew she was incredibly sexy and desirable under the run-of-the-mill clothes she normally wore.
“Just show a little more cleavage…maybe a little more leg…like that…”
“You ever try this, Sarah?”
Sarah chuckled.
“If I had your body and face, sure….but as a wise man once said, everyone needs to know their limitations.”
Carolyn winced not liking her friend comparing herself to her and putting herself down.
“I find you very attractive, Sarah…don’t sell yourself so short.”
“Thanks, Carolyn, but let’s be realistic here. If I was attracted to women sexually, I would have made a move on you long ago. I am guessing you have sensed this vibe from the guys in the office? It is just nothing I am capable of…”
“I have, but I have been trying to stay focused on my job for now so I can make my financial situation a bit more comfortable.”
“Good decision. But from what I sense, now is the time to take some action so we can move you up in the organization.”
“What about you?”
“For the time being, I am good. But I see a real chance here to get a woman of substance…you…into a higher position to make it easier for all of the women who might come after you to follow in your path. Sound reasonable?”
Carolyn nodded again.
“Sounds great, Sarah, but it is not like I can go out and buy a bunch of new…pardon the crude expression…fuck me outfits right now.”
Sarah laughed.
“I love that expression actually…mind if I use it in the future?”
“Not at all…”
“As to upgrading your office attire, I think I may have some things in my closet that I would be happy to donate to the cause…”
Chapter 2
Carolyn’s Office
15 Manchester Plaza
Memphis, TN
March, 1998
True to Sarah’s predictions based on intuition, Carolyn was lifted from her once lowly entry-level position and into a function that surpassed anything that she had once dreamed of when she was in college. Carolyn knew she had not been plucked out over her competitors due to her sheer work ethic or the extra effort that she had always put in since she had been hired…she was not that naïve. Certainly that had factored in, but taking advantage of the revealing, yet still professional attire that Sarah had lent her to put their plan into action had figured in as well. Carolyn had never been one to actively show off her “assets”, as Sarah liked to refer to them. It had just not felt right after her strict religious upbringing back in Lebbing. But the more comfortable she got in Sarah’s clothes, the less and less she let all those old tapes in her head from her parents about “looking like a harlot” enter her mind.
In fact, once the clothes began to feel like second nature to her, Carolyn was finding her mentality about how she looked and how others viewed her completely differently. It was not a sudden shift by any means, but over the few months when she had been showing up at work leaving absolutely no doubt in anyone’s mind just how sexually desirable she was, she felt her whole being transform. Instead of trying to avoid the lingering leers of her male coworkers as she once had, Carolyn began to walk with a strut that made them stare even harder. She had no idea where this had come from…certainly, it was nothing she had learned growing up…but she was coming to love and desire the ogling. As weird as it seemed, it was almost like the clothes had transformed how she behaved, and wanted people to see her now.
And as to her recent promotion? Well…she saw how the bosses who had offered her the new position were looking at her as she crossed her legs letting her skirt rise up high on her thighs…how they could not keep their eyes off of her clearly visible cleavage instead of looking her in the eyes. Even in her first interview for the new gig, Carolyn knew she had it…she felt a little bad for the others being considered for the promotion knowing this…but not that bad. And as she sat in her new office now seeing no end to her future in the company, Carolyn smiled. She had moved from her old, somewhat ratty studio apartment to a new place that rivaled the luxurious space that Sarah lived in and that Carolyn had coveted in her heart.
She had taken Sarah out to the fanciest restaurant that she knew of in Memphis as a show of her gratitude, as well as returning the clothes that had pushed her up and over the edge professionally and replacing them with things of her own which were just as provocative and enticing to the male eye…and female ones too who might swing that way, she guessed. Plus, her personal life had begun to mirror her professional one once the change in her ways of flaunting her sexuality began to take over. All those old fears and hesitations she had grown up with and then lingered with her as a college student when she had pushed away the sexual advances of the boys she had dated just vanished.
Carolyn was smart enough not to mix her professional life and her personal life, other than her close friendship with Sarah of course, but for the first time ever she was frequenting bars and other night spots in Memphis and mingling with men who saw her for the enticing sexual being she was. Carolyn no longer fought off a hand on her breasts or elsewhere when in the throes of passion with a man she had picked up in town. And despite her lack of sexual experience, Carolyn soon got caught up to speed and berated herself for having denied herself sex for so long. The first time was a bit awkward and even a tad painful as her virginity was erased, but all subsequent encounters were nothing short of a pleasure she had never imagined possible.
She did not limit herself to one man, though, as she came into her sexual awareness of herself, wanting to taste it all from all comers to make up for the time she had wasted trying to be the “good little girl” her parents had wanted her to be forever. Carolyn figured that once she got all of this out of her system that she could then begin to think about picking out one…or maybe two…special guys to possibly settle down with one day.
The Zebra Lounge
2114 Trimble Place
Memphis, TN
But then, one night after she had had a little too much to drink at one of her favorite jazz clubs, The Zebra Lounge, Carolyn had been seduced, and then gone home with a willowy blonde, Amanda Jergens. She had never seriously considered sex with a woman before…nothing more than a passing curiosity or just for kicks Carolyn had mused…but Amanda had a perfect body and eyes that seemed to draw Carolyn to her like a magnetic force field.
After a few deep kisses from Amanda, which Carolyn did not ward off in any way, and Amanda slipped the tip of her tongue into the rim of Carolyn’s ear, it was all over.
“Want to come back to my place?” Amanda whispered as Carolyn’s heart pounded fiercely.
“I…uh…” Carolyn stammered.
“Never been with a woman before, huh?”
“I…well…no…”
“But you have fantasized about it unless my intuition is way off, right?”
“I suppose I have, Amanda…how can you tell?”
“If the idea did not sit well with you, I doubt we would have just kissed so passionately without you offering up any resistance or being offended somehow.”
“You do have a way with that tongue of yours…”
“You have no idea, Carolyn…so what do you say? I promise I will not bite…at least not at first.”
Carolyn quivered at the proposition wondering what she might be getting herself into, but in the end, Amanda’s sex appeal and how she was making Carolyn feel more turned on and horny than she had with any of her recent male partners overrode any hesitancy she might have had.
“Sure…you live far away?”
“You that anxious for me now?”
Carolyn took Amanda’s hand and in the dim light of the club pushed it under the bottom of her dress and toward her crotch. She was not wearing any underwear that night, as had become her habit in case there was a need for quick access and she saw Amanda smile slyly as her hand felt Carolyn’s extreme wetness.
“That answer your question, Amanda?”
Amanda massaged her gently, letting her fingertips slip inside Carolyn just a bit and make some subtle contact with her clitoris. Carolyn gasped quietly as the music blared just across the bar from them and she clung to Amanda and nibbled at her ear lobe.
“It would seem so…let’s get out of here before we embarrass each other in public…”
Carolyn watched as Amanda surreptitiously licked her fingers before kissing her deeply one more time, the taste of Carolyn spread between them. Carolyn had never been so aroused and horny in her life….
Chapter 3
Amanda Jergen’s House
211 Redmond Avenue
Memphis, TN
Carolyn woke up the next morning in a tangle of sheets finding herself intertwined with Amanda as the sun was peeking through the blinds in a window just to her right and making her squint in the glare. She closed her eyes as the sun disappeared behind a bank of heavy clouds and a distant rumble of thunder echoed. She closed her eyes and lay her head back down as she tried to recall what exactly had gone on the night before. At first, her memory, clouded by too little sleep and too much to drink, caused her to panic slightly as nothing around her looked familiar. Then the splay of long blonde hair and the smell of Amanda that filled her nostrils brought it all back.
She had gone back home with Amanda, the woman whose body and tantalizing attraction she had not been able to resist…she had just had her first lesbian experience. Carilyn supposed she should have felt a bit more unnerved and unsettled than she did considering that she did not know too much about Amanda other than the unforgettable night of sex that they had just had which was now slowly coming back to her and making her smile. There was an assortment of sex toys scattered about the bed and on the floor on her side and the musky odor of Amanda that was all around her was making her want more…though from all appearances, Amanda was out of it and Carolyn did not want to wake her just yet.
Her body was still sticky and even a bit slimy and her muscles were sore as she took inventory of her body. Carolyn smacked her dry lips together realizing she could really use a glass of water as she looked up to see if she could extract herself from the tangle of limbs and sheets. But without waking Amanda, it seemed impossible. Carolyn laid her head back again and thought back to what she had done with Amanda the previous night and her nipples hardened in response to the recollection while her crotch again grew wet despite being somewhat dehydrated. She had never felt so totally exhausted yet completely satisfied after a night of sex then she did at the moment. As Carolyn reviewed all that she could, it seemed to her that they had begun as soon as they had rushed through the front door of Amanda’s little bungalow and then not stopped until the wee hours of the morning.
Just as she had said to Amanda in the bar, Carolyn recalled that the woman did indeed have a talented tongue, but that had just been an appetizer. Carolyn was not an expert in using sex toys, but from what she could see scattered about, it appeared that Amanda had an impressive collection and that they must have tried them all out at some point. She had no idea what Amanda’s opinion or impressions of her had been in the process, but the fact that she was still fast asleep seemed to bode well that she had satisfied her as well. The longer she lay there and thought about the night, the more recollections came back to her and Carolyn smiled as she finally remembered each and every moment….each new position…each new location…each new toy…and each orgasm that in retrospect had been far beyond anything she had ever experienced with anyone else…man or woman.
Carolyn smiled again as she recalled her body racked with tremors and shudders of pleasure as Amanda had worked her over from head to toe. And if her memories served her, she was glad that Amanda had a single-family home in a very secluded part of town…certainly her screams of passion upon reaching each climax with Amanda would have pierced the walls of the average apartment complex and caused neighbors to complain. And as Carolyn sighed recalling their night together she finally noticed Amanda’s swollen nipples with slight abrasions on them as well as some scratches on her shoulders and back that looked suspiciously like those left behind by fingernails…likely maybe her fingernails.
“Boy, we must have really had a wild night…” Carolyn thought to herself.
The thunder outside grew louder and was coming in a much more frequent pattern than when Carolyn had first noticed the darkening skies earlier and a light rain began to pepper the window pane in the bedroom as a sudden and violent spider web of lightning tore across the sky closer than Carolyn was prepared for and a new blast of thunder shook the house rousing Amanda from her slumber.
“What the hell was that?” Amanda croaked in a voice still full of sleep.
“Early morning storm,” Carolyn replied. “ I guess early morning anyway…I have no idea what time it is…”
“Too early to be getting up regardless of what the clock says,” Amanda said as she pulled Carolyn closer and kissed her lightly on the neck. “You been awake long?”
“Just a few minutes I think…did not want to wake you…”
“Thanks…you have fun last night?”
“From what I recall now, I would describe it as life-shattering sex, Amanda…still trying to clear my head from all we had to drink I guess…”
“Glad it was good for you…can I ask you something?”
“Sure…”
“Back at The Zebra Lounge, you said you had never been with a woman before…is that true?”
“Yep…why?”
“Well…I have been with my share of women, Carolyn, and last night was like nothing I have ever experienced. If this was your first time, then you are a natural…”
“Thanks…for me, it was a way deeper connection than with any of the men I have ever slept with. It felt completely comfortable and like this was meant for me…”
“Deeper?”
“Yeah…like…I don’t know…even though we barely know each other, the emotional and physical connection just clicked perfectly. Not sure I can say that has ever happened to me before.”
“Well….whatever the case, I know last night was a night I will never forget. For a first-timer, I was sure it might take some patience on my part as you eased into a new situation….an adjustment after just being with men…you know?”
Carolyn nodded and kissed her with passion as they lay together and listened to the storm.
“I think maybe women just have this innate sense of what we all want…other than that I have no explanation.”
“Sounds reasonable…”
“How are you doing this morning…or whatever?”
“Pretty wiped out….you?”
“Same…from the marks on your back and shoulders and your raw nipples I guess I must have gotten a bit carried away…”
“From what I recall, I would say wildcat was what you were like,” Amanda replied as she laughed.
“Sorry about that…I just find you very arousing…to say the least…”
“Don’t apologize….I really like how you were…too tired to have another go at it?”
“Right now?”
“No better time, right?”
“I suppose not….”
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