The Backstory.
it all started with highschool. i know, not ideal, highschool romance, blegh, blah blah blah. i dont care. i just transferred to this school, and i hope i stay here til graduation. i’m tired of switching school after school after school.
it was always something different with these schools though. i would find friends, be scared of leaving, and then tear mysaelf down about something someone did or say to me or about me. until i said something and i was taken from my friends and put in a whole new atmosphere and i hated it.
i wouldn’t say i’m an incredibly social person, so it’s always hard for me with these things. it was literally the very fucking beginning 0f freshman year and i was already having issues with where i was at, so i got transferred... and it’s scary. i dont know anything here. the teachers are all judgmental and they always keep making everything more difficult for me.
i already finish most of my morning classes, and then i walk into fourth period english. and i see this person.., and we start talking. we start talking about how the class is super easy because the teacher doesnt even make us do our work and everything lalala, how if i ever need help i can always ask him.. and i think i might have just fallen in love right there. he was so kind to me, and he was trying to make me feel less anxious.
but i was dating someone....miles away..in california. so i pushed those thoughts away. i decided, we’ll just be friends! so let’s see how this goes. and then i saw him every wednesday. in uniform. rotc uniform. and it was so... mmmm
as time went on, i felt like my feelings just kept getting stronger, annnddd i was single now.. so maybe.. so i took my chance. i asked the most stupidest dumbest-- “do you wanna go makeout? haha.” “yeah sure”....with the most serious facer.. ever. freak out. run away do it? WHAT AM I THINKING!!!??? .... i just laugh it off, “i was just kidding” what. the. FUCK??
am i literally the most stupidest person to exist? i think i am. maybe i am. i don’t know...but we stayed friends! he left the school.. his mom took him out.. so i spent the rest of the school year almost alone without him in my class anymore.
we still talked, we texted each other every now and then, which made me happy.. but i never got to see him. i hated it. i wanted him... i wanted to see him.
and then, at the end of the school year came around.. it was april. and i texted him. i asked him, "will you be my boyfriend?" and he said yes
---- continue to see how our story conitnued and how it is now :)
