February
Tomorrow is my birthday although im not excited at all, i don't want to grow old.
Plus even though it's my birthday tomorrow i still have to go to school which is awful because school absolutely sucks. My sister's birthday was yesterday.
Anyway I didn't eat breakfast or lunch today. I rarely ever do. Im hoping i will lose some weight. I weigh one twenty on a bad day but on a good day i weigh one seventeen or one eighteen which is weird but what ever.
My family calls me skinny but i just don't feel skinny enough. I have actually taken to thinking about wanting to just puke all my food up just so i don't have a lot of weight. If my mother and father found out they would never forgive me. Plus they would probably send me to a mental hospital thinking that i have something seriously wrong with me. But that's not true. I am completely fine. Everybody has problems that they are working through I think i should go to sleep but i don't want to.
The sooner you go to sleep the sooner morning comes. Btw i hate my name so I will call myself bella, okay?
Till next time, Bella.
Btw i am turning 14 tomorrow.
