Through the Tunnel

Growing up, there were many things that influenced my childhood in a bad way, which more or less led to me struggling to get through life. I admit, my unsupervised access to the internet probably didn’t help too much either- in fact, I think it only made certain parts worse; however, it did lead to me figuring out that I was in fact struggling with depression (and other mental health problems) from a young age. I always wanted to figure out why I was going through these things, and get help for it. However, there were many reasons that blocked that path off from me at that age, and eventually I had to learn to deal with everything I was going through. I had to make sure I would survive every day, and often I’d get very overwhelmed by everything. Not being really able to ask for help, I turned to making jokes about these things, trying to make light of my situation as a coping mechanism, and it worked (for the most part). Though as the years went on and on, and I grew older, more and more serious things started piling up and wearing me down, and the methods of dealing with everything stopped being as effective, leading me to having some of the worst years of my life right as I reached the age of 18. In some way, this book is a way for me to learn how to deal with the problems of everyday life, in a healthy and open way, not being ashamed of the things I feel and for once, cutting myself some slack; for I am merely a human being, and it is normal to make mistakes or not know how to handle certain situations. If anything, I hope that by writing this book, I can help others understand that whatever they’re going through is only temporary, and that it will eventually go away. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, and I hope we can travel through the tunnel together <3.

That said, here is a list of trigger warnings, so that you peeps can have a sense of what’s up:

-talks of depression, anxiety, panic attacks

-talk of suicide

-talk of death

-talk of weight problems/disordered eating

Though of course, I will make sure to always write before every chapter what triggers appear. Since I am posting this story as I am writing it, I don’t exactly know everything I want to add yet, and therefore the list may change, which is why I will be writing the triggers before every chapter that contains them.

And a little reminder:

You’re never alone. No matter what you may think, there is definitely someone out there you can talk to. Whether it be an online friend, a sibling, or maybe even anonymously with someone, you are never alone in your struggle. So don’t ever dare give up, or think you’re alone, because you are not. You are loved and cherished, even if you think otherwise.