Clear Glass

I didn't want to view it as sad .

I see you trying to hide your pain ,

But you aint fooling anyone , especially me.

You think no one wouldn't notice,but I did .

Or maybe you aren't hiding it but seeking help.

You won't admit it or maybe you have ,

But what would I know I only view from my perspective and not yours .

I saw you crying 

I wanted to help

I know your soul was hurting 

I knew how much you were battling with your own mind 

I knew how much you wanted to hurt yourself

I knew how much you wanted not to hurt yourself

I know how much you want to be saved 

I know how well you hide it ,but you ain't fooling anyone, especially me .

You were alone ,

I had someone,

I left that person to attend to you ,

Knowing I couldn't help you .

So I hugged you and laughed to make U feel better 

And to think atleast I have tired .

Inside I was dying ,

And so were you .

But I couldn't bare to see my friend suffer alone knowing the tip of the iceberg of what he went through.

I couldn't feel the pain you feel ,I didn't want you to jump that fence ,I know you needed someone,I couldnt help but atleast I was there a moment for you 🫂.

I cried more because I couldn't help you ,

Seeing your tears ,

Feeling Ur nose nort ,

I felt bad because I couldn't take your pain away even though I had my own problem but it didn't matter in that moment.

The rain made the scenery better , because you could let go of that burden you were holding back .

You sarced yourself,

It's a sin !!

But I can't blame you ,

Because that's your only escape of your fears .

You have ruined your canvas !!

How dare you ruin your body !!

Such an amazing canvas with scars and wounds .

YOU FOOL!!

You have the brightest smile ,

But the brightest smile holds alot of hidden pain .

But you fooled everyone,but U ain't fooling me.

I now see the reason you are so joyful ,

So extraordinary,

So brave ,

Full of life ,

Very understanding,

Supportive ,

And much more ,

But I know dear ,I know you ,

And you think your fooling everyone but U ain't fooling me .