Chapter 1
My soul seeks what I can never have
"SHELLA! Did you have to make a ruckus in the town again?', the mom shouted.
"But Mom....! All I asked was for the soldier to salute me, you know how much I like that'
"Seriously, girl, we're nothing but commoners, why would a soldier salute for the likes of you, who do you think you are?'
"Sorry.' (runs towards her room and slams the door forcefully)
"Hmmm.. my book has arrived?' (picks up her new book from the desk)
"If I remember correctly, this was the book in which you can customize the name of the female lead but I didn't have to do that since, in the original piece, the female lead's name was the same as mine... If only I could be a part of-'
"SHELLA' (her mom calls her out in a loud voice)
"Dinner is ready''
(After a while... all the family members are having dinner, Shella seems rather sad)
"What's up with you now?', asks her father
"I- I need... nothing'
"You're such a drama, you're always asking for whatever comes to your mind, such a thankless child!"
(Shella gets up and smashes the table, taking her dinner to her room)
"UNBELIEVABLE!' says her Dad
(Shella crying in her bedroom under the blanket with her arms and legs tucked in)
"I know...! I know that I can't hold my worldly desires but still, I am trying, all I want is only one person..., everyone says that I- that I take everything way too-'
(Shella falls asleep while murmuring to herself. In the morning she wakes up but finds no one at home. After having breakfast, she decides to read ''that' book. After staring at the book cover for a while, she finally starts to read it. The book's name was Blind Happiness. On the first page, she saw
"I had been waiting for you, my lady. You never knew
that I was incomplete without you. To be with you I
can wait for an eternity, Shella. When I gaze at the
stars, the distance feels exactly like how far we are
from each other. But my honey, believe me, just like
your name, I'm blind to your love. I crave for your
gaze, my name being called by you....' )
"HUH!? I- where am-'
(Shella faints)
"Sir, the lady has woke up'
"Right.'
(Shella opens her eyes and goes in shock)
"Wh-what!? Wh-ere am I?'
"Have you lost your memory, Shella? You're in the Mansion... Tsk. Foolish girl'
"I don't know what's going on but... I was reading the book', Shella talks to herself
"Anyway, I can't waste my time on you, you do remember our deal, right? We are pretend lovers and soon are gonna get married'
"Uh- Yeah yes of course! You're oh so right, why would I marry you- Never mind, I know', Shella plays along with the situation
"Now that's a good girl, who'd even like to marry a scum like you, just doing for the political reason, you should be thankful towards me'
"Huh! Who do you think you are?'
"I am Esher Lee, successor of the Lee Hawk clan and a well-known-'
"Sir, the guests have arrived' says the maid.
"Right, See you later, my dog'
(He leaves the room in such an elegant way turning away his cloak making Shella blush and drive mad at the same time)
"HE HAD THE NERVE TO CALL ME HIS DOG!? What is even happening, I don't know, what am I even doing here, I thought to get to the other world, I was supposed to be hit by a truck- well guess my one dream has already come true but is he going to be my lover or something? I don't think so, he's so rude. The next thing I have to do is find- WAIT, he did mention that we were going to get married, BUT I CAN'T GET THIS CHANCE SLIP FROM MY HANDS AND GET MARRIED TO THAT VOLCANO!'
"Lady, it's time to get ready, you have dinner with Sir, tonight'
(Shella when hears this, thinks up a crazy idea since she wants to make good out of this miracle, just like all the isekai romance novels she had read from her past life)
*Isekai: when the main character gets sent to another world
(At the dining table, everything was so luxurious and novel to Shella, someone who was considered a lowly scum by her husband-to-be)
(Dead Silence)
"So... Are we gonna stay like this?' , Asks Shella to herself
"My BABY doesn't seem to enjoy her meal, is SHE being shy?Shall I feed her myself?', says Esher smirking
"How lovely! To be fed by your husband-to-be, but I suggest we maintain our distance since we aren't married yet', says Shella with a big fake smile on her face and hands spread on her cheeks.
(Shella felt a chill throughout her body, she felt so cringed)
"You're right, my plum'
(Shella gives him a strange look and then starts eating)
"Does the Lady want to be escorted by Esher Lee, the mos-'
"Your lady refuses' says Shella with a mocking smile.
"So my lady can talk back now?'
(He grabs her arms tightly and leans her toward the wall angrily
but guess what Shella slapped him back the best known-WHAT? but my boy ain't so low that he'd give a woman a reaction in return as he had realized his mistake so he returns elegantly)
"I think I've made a huge mistake- but well he deserved'
(Shella goes to sleep)
"How cute, is this my first-?'
"Kiss?'
"No Murat, are you nuts, guess I was murmuring too loud'
"Need coffee??'
"I want one more'
"But I can't give you a kiss'
"YOU BASTARD, WHAT THE- ARE YOU CRAZY WHY WOULD I ASK YOU OF A KISS, I'm LEAVING'
