Ebony
Before we start, I just want to let you know why I am the way I am.
for as long as I can remember I was a big girl.
not huge, just big boned.
my grandparents liked to feed me.
my grandmother would bake cakes and pies and bring them over every Sunday before church.
at the age of Ten I was wearing clothes that would fit Fourteen-year-olds.
then when I reached Fourteen, I was in clothes for Eighteen-year-olds.
my best friend Helen was my rock throughout high school.
I wasn't popular but she was.
I didn't get asked out by boys, but she did.
I was ok with that.
when we were Sixteen, things changed for me.
not in a good way.
I was the butt of a cruel joke and I'm going to explain how it happened.
"I'm so excited for this party Eb, things will change things for us."
Helen has been excited since Lidia Stevens had asked her to come to her sweet sixteen.
I was invited by extension.
the small party was being held in Lidia's basement.
her parents were away, and her older brother didn't care what she did.
"Me too. does this skirt look ok on me."
Helen looked me up and down.
"That skirt is fantastic. you have great legs Eb."
I didn't agree but Helen never lied to me.
"Come on, we don't want to be late."
I threw in a jacket, and we walked the Two blocks to Lidia's house.
music pumped out of speakers as we made our way inside.
there were Nine boys and Eight girls.
"You made it. grab a drink. the boys want to play spin the bottle."
Helen clapped but I, shrunk into myself.
Tommy Sanders was here.
he was popular, good looking.
then there was Nial Reed, Lucas Groves and Liam Masters.
all friends.
the others I wasn't familiar with.
the girls were a mix of popular and mid popular.
Jesse Lovers, Holly Mander, Janice Cathrine and of course Lidia Hollows.
the two other girls were Lidias cousins.
"Who wants to go first?"
Lidia grabbed the bottle and made it spin.
it landed in Nial.
"I dare you to kiss Ebony."
I almost choked on my coke.
"What. no way. I'm not kissing the fat girl."
I wanted the floor to swallow me up.
Helen jumped to her feet.
"What did you just say pencil dick. apologize right now."
Lidia got to her feet.
"Chill. Helen is right. Nial apologize. that was rude."
Nial looked towards Tommy who nodded.
"Fuck. I'm sorry. that was mean, but I'm not kissing you."
I didn't say anything.
the game moved on with almost everyone kissing someone.
all accept me.
I just wanted to go home.
"I'm sorry about Nial. he's a dick."
Tommy had sat next to me and I, didn't even realize it.
"Oh, it's fine really. I don't blame him for what he said."
I was ignored for the rest of the night.
Two weeks later Tommy asked me out.
Helen swooned when I told her my strange encounter.
I said no to him, and she couldn't understand why.
he asked me out every day for a month until I said yes.
he took me to the movies, and we had a great time.
he held my hand on the way home and kissed my cheek on my front porch.
on our next date I let him kiss me on the mouth.
no tongue, just on the lips.
for Six months we went out and had fun.
It felt so good to be wanted.
to be desired.
he would come to my house to study with me.
we would watch movies and chill.
we would laugh and cuddle.
I still remember the first night he fingered me on my bed.
it was awkward and scary.
he was patient and kind.
he gave me my first orgasm.
I even gave him a hand job.
on my Seventeenth birthday we had been out to a restaurant to celebrate.
my parents were with us.
they liked him as much as me.
when we got home and my parents went to bed, Tommy asked to stay.
we would have to be quiet as to not get caught.
it was exciting.
we ended up in bed and with me in my pajamas.
we were soon getting hot and heavy.
Tommy removed my pajama bottoms and lifted my top off over my head.
he was laying between my legs.
"Are you sure about this Eb."
I nodded. I was ready.
I loved him.
"Can I take a picture first, just for me. to remember this moment."
I nodded because I trusted him.
I was in my Bra and nothing else as he sat up and grabbed his phone.
I didn't like my body, but he seemed to love it.
"Your something special Eb. show the world what you got."
he snapped the picture as I smiled.
he then rolled on a condom and pressed forward between my legs.
it was uncomfortable and only lasted a few minutes.
"I'm sorry, I tried to last as long as possible."
he kissed me sweetly and climbed out of bed.
"Your leaving"
he nodded as he dressed.
"Yeah, I'm done. we got school tomorrow and I'm tired."
he sounded off.
"Did I do something wrong."
he shakes his head no.
"You were perfect Eb. I'll see you tomorrow."
he didn't kiss me goodbye.
he didn't hug me.
he just left and I felt my heart begin to break.
he must have hated my body once he was inside me.
I'm gross.
a disgusting fat, mess.
the next day when I turned up at school, I wasn't prepared for what awaited me.
there were a dozen pictures hanging up along the lockers.
all of me naked.
my body on show.
I was frozen to the spot.
tommy walked over with Nial, Lucas and Liam.
the tears had already begun to fall.
"Oh, look Tommy. you made your girlfriend cry."
Nial looked at me while Liam laughed.
"she's not my girlfriend, she's disgusting, you should have seen her fat cunt swallow my dick."
he shivered for effect.
the entire corridor was laughing.
where was Helen when I needed her?
"What did I do to deserve this. why are you being so cruel"?
Tommy shrugged.
"Because you disrespected my man Nial here."
so, this was payback for what happened at the party.
"Your right though Nial. she is a pig. smells like one too. I lost my dick inside her when I took her V card. nearly puked all over her when she sucked me in."
it was all a lie.
everything.
all those months.
meeting my family.
all wasted.
"Now run along piggy. nobody wants you here."
to my right stood Lidia and her friends.
all laughing and whispering.
I've never felt so humiliated in my life.
a life that was over.
I will never recover from this.
I turned and ran.
I ran all the way home.
I ran to my room and into my bathroom.
I wanted to die.
I wanted it all to stop.
when I smashed the mirror in anger, I didn't feel it.
when I grabbed the glass in my hand, I didn't feel it.
when I sliced mt wrists, I didn't feel it.
when my body fell to the floor, I didn't feel it.
So that is the reason I am the way I am.
