Chapter 1
Just another day in paradise:
I woke up today and watched the news and all I saw was negative news. I went to my computer and went onto the net and basically all I saw was bad news. Everything that had a touch of something positive and uplifting was false pleasure like Hollywood, sports, movies, stupid fucking talk shows, basically the bullshit that is out there set to give you the feeling of hope, of something better on the horizon, when the truth is anything but. But we don’t like truth as a society, it burns and itches and we need our bullshit to make it all better and hide us from the fact that our lives are just pure desperation waiting for a grave. In death is where we’ll find our ultimate satisfaction, an eternal sleep not even disturbed by dreams……..
But it can’t be all that bad, I hear you say, and of course you’re right, beauty is in the eye of the beholder I have heard, and so is truth I wager, what do you think?
In fact I’ll go one step further, I venture to say that all we need to stay happy or find some temporary rest from reason and logic is a change of perception. Like a change of scenery, the dark clouds we see outside our window trap us in a cocoon, resigning us to our fate as to what is coming but once the sun parts the clouds the change of scenery is like the second coming and we are once again reborn into endearment. So the daily struggle between truth and fantasy continues, it is never ending and soon we find that the truth is also a fantasy set to what we WANT. Yes, I think I’m finally getting to the real truth here, not the everyday fake truth which we calmly accept because it’s easier that way. Ultimately it’s about what we want, no let me rephrase that, what I want, that is the truth. Those who have not found what they want ultimately follow another’s desire. So it comes down to this question: What do I want? And there are so many easy answers which almost everyone adheres to with the illusion that they did something original when the truth is anything but. Go to school, get the same job as everyone else, get married, breed, get into debt, retire, and die. This is all from a western perspective of course, in third world countries they get by with the little they have, kids die of starvation, they’re surrounded by conflicts but they do have something in common with the west, they also die, so it’s all good I guess.
But ultimately the cloud of reason, logic and common sense looms large over the smoky haze of what we want to see and ultimately it wins as it always does. Fantasy also wins, we see it every day. You have to choose between the blue pill and the red pill, they are both real, but one is more real than the other.
