In Pursuit Of Her

(Introduction)

4th July 2010

Tomorrow is my 13th birthday. Dream as if you will live for eternity but live as if today is your last day. With this conviction, I began my road to teenage or say a juvenile life.

A new day and a new start is imminent. A fresh start to a new chapter of my life. The cycle of teenage begins as I part ways with childhood. The memories of childhood will often remind me of my blissful days.

What’s more exciting and stirring of my forthcoming juvenile life is that I will soon no longer be sitting on my mother’s lap or hang in my father’s arm. That is grow up as a man. Though it’s just a start point of a track field, I need to plan on how I will end up at the finish line of this long journey. And, the race is adulthood. It’s time to escape from my parent’s shadows and stand on my own feet. However, the front road will give me a bumpy ride. I feel I have given quite a trouble to my dear parents. I’m sharing half of the responsibility and lessen the hefty supervision from now on. At least that’s what I think.

As a teenager, many new things are going to come up. New friends and new classes which sure is getting me pumped up. I will be searching for the peers with whom I can indulge and fool around easily. If I were to speak from a grown up’s perspective, teenage is a path or a phase where everyone’s future depends and so on. But as for me, I just think that it won’t be too hard to go further from now on.

My excitement knows no boundary since teenage is all about romance. The first thing my uncle said after he saw me last night was, “Grow up as a man and get some girls follow you.” Speaking of girls, my nervous appearance and a hesitated and shaken voice pulls me down whenever I see girls. I have yet to say about my teen romance but I’m highly optimistic about it. If there’s an angel waiting for me, then of course I can’t help it.

Another wish is yet to be fulfilled. I want to play games much more than ever before. Newer versions and new games that will make me go crazy. Yeah, I love games. To be honest, I’m a super geek. On weekends, my geek allies gather in my room to rejoice themselves. Since, I am owning a PlayStation, they treat me as a god. Jumping, dancing, shouting and all the mad stuffs begins as we land upon the almighty “Heaven” which is certainly my room.

And when there’s no monkeys to jump around with, all I do is look out of the window and see the lovely view of the town. I’m a deep nature lover and every time I’m alone during nights, I look out of the window and observe the starry heavens and the earth below it. The darkness and the smell of wind is so lovely that each time I look outside, I get lost somewhere. Somewhere deep in my thoughts. I pass hours looking outside and it just feels like I’ve been watching it for 5 minutes. I often chat with the moon when I’m lonely during nights. Sometimes I think, how would the world seem after I watch the same moon again when I grow up? The place, me and my circumstances will have changed when I will be in my 31 and not 13. Will I still be a happy carefree guy like I am now? Sometimes I think, I should probably start writing a book to collect all these thoughts. These thoughts are my recent and I get a strong feeling that a thrilling adventure of my youth is about to begin soon.

Talk about my dream or future, I haven’t found any until now. I will keep that aside for the time being and enjoy my youthfulness. Hopefully, I will find my purpose one day.

It’s a sunny day and while I’m having these crazy thoughts, my friends are playing outside with a big smile on their faces. They sit right next to our neighborhood so they often come here to play with me. We are mostly accompanied by football and other games such as Hide and Seek.

Tonight, we all are joining a Fireworks show. Probably mom is planning to do some barbecue and I can’t resist but wait. And moreover, my excitement is soaring up till the clock ticks 12. When it ticks 12, I will be 13. My day before birthday never felt so exhilarating.

Another cause is because I’m expecting big gifts from our relatives. We are a small family of just 4 people including my mother, father, a younger sister and me. However, we have a huge tangled relationship with my mother and father’s relatives. My sister is just 9 years old and she is loved and cared by everyone in the family. I look after her in my parent’s absence. She is a cute little sister who comes running after me pulling and screaming, “Brother! Buy me a chocolate” unaware of the fact that her brother is very poor. If I don’t buy, I will have to see her in a fit of the sulks. But I somehow manage to keep her happy through the small piggy bank that I own. Since she’s my only sibling, I adore her so much. Her name is Gracy and she is my dearest. During holidays when I don’t have friends to play around with, I often romp with my little sister. My father being an international businessman keeps on travelling due to his works. So, he will not be with us but our mother looks after us and is very loving and caring. This is my happy family that I’m so in love with.

This was the day before I turned 13. What awaits me after I turn 13?