First time in prison
I tried to change, I tried to make admends with the people that I used to love and care for but as you can tell my life went down the drain because of my childish mistakes and ignorance. I destroyed my own home, my own family and even ended up hurting my ex girlfriend who cared about me more than I'll like to admit.
I was sixteen went I first stole my first car. A young college student was on his first lesson with his father about driving. I was with some friends drunk off of our asses and decided to make some bad choices that day. We pulled the car over to a corner. I grabbed the dad out of his car and pushed him to the side of the road, cars were off and on driving. My friend Dark was the leader back then, he grabbed the poor scary young college student and started beating the crap out of him. I was amazed and amused, I was also drunk and wanted part of the action.
I started beating the dad while he was pleading us to stop beating his cute little son but dark didn't listen instead he grabbed the father and threw him into the middle of the high way. We all laughted and giggle for the most part, soon we got bored and decided to drive their car. We got pulled over and because I was the one driving I was the one who got arrested while dark and the others left me there, that day I learn that nobody is really there for you not even your own friends. I was to naive to understand that because unlike other kids I graved attention.
I went to court , the judge gave me two years in juvie by the time I hit eightteen I was out. Juvie was reckless to put it simply. Teenagers like me where there for many things, usually some of them would fight but would end up being put away some place else. I did get into fights because they tried stealing my food , or try to do something while I slept. Keep in mind these teenagers don't care about anybody's life or matter fact not even their's. I went home after the first day I got out of juvie , my mother forgave me and told me I should just fix myself now that I didn't have no record.
I was stupid and silly enough to think that I would have a normal life after juvie. I thought I'll be able to have time to fix everything I have done wrong.
Not even a year in and I was back in jail but this time it was because I had killed Dark, the one guy I respected and cared about when I was a teenager. Dark came into my room and started chocking me in a head lock , I twisted my whole body , trying to pull my weight even though he was on top of me. I didn't know why he wanted to kill me but I remember him saying " You were just to weak" dark pushed a little tighter were I could barely breath and some how I got up with all my might, mind you he still had me in a headlock and I grabbed the knight that was on the side of my table , pushed Dark all the way to the wall making him fall because of how he hit his head hard against the wall and there when he tried getting up again to grab me and finished the job he was here to do , I stabbed him in the stomach twice and let him fall off my hands.
I called the cops and my mother cried , telling me how she thought I had changed. My mother was so upset at me , that she didn't even let me reason with her, and tell her my side of the story. The cops got there, they saw dark's body and saw how he was in my room and I was with my bloody clothes. They immediately arrested me and told me my rights, that same night I didn't sleep a wink. Cops tried to investigate what had happened and I told them honestly what I had done and what he tried to do. I was just trying to defend myself against someone that came into my own room , through a window and tried killing me. At the end none of them believed me and I went to jail.
My first night in prison , every inmate was looking at me , eyeing me up and down.
" Hey cutie , you're going to be mine soon!"
I could hear other inmates imitate the sounds of sex , saying how they were going to do me rough and dirty.
I laughted at my pity situation, I needed protection but from who.
I was alone in my cell and that night I received a small letter saying " I hope that ass is as tight as I think it is because I will use you and then kill you" that small letter made me afraid and I wasn't going to pull up with it.
My first night in prision , I slept with FEAR.
