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Cousin: hey sister ? Her cousin called her while laying on his bed , "hmms" she hummed back to him while asking what is it , while cuddling her pink bunny closer to her chest , so... can i ask you something , yes she replied back , you love jungkook right , she smilied a little while humming , yes i do , you know i once had a dream that you and him getting married when i was a kid i didnt know about jija *jungkook* at that time i was so little , she got curious and lifted her head in curosity , what do you mean by that buddy ? Did you perhaps had dejĂĄ vu dream ? He replied i dont know but it felt amazing , she replied back thats sounds similar even my sister said she had dream about me once that i was talking with an asian guy and my parents snatching mobile while she helping me to be in contact with him . I wish that you and him will meet oneday i wish you both were real while smiling to himself , she replied back as what if.... and started thinking harder and her fear was eating her mind ... she finally took the sip of chocolate milk and the courage to speak .. can i tell you something? She asked him , what i might going to say might make you feel like im some kind of obessed and toxic fan of him who trying to hurt him i was afraid i might harm him , i love them truly but i was afraid i i.. might end up hurting him *tears started to form in her eyes* he looked at her confused what are you trying to say? Im his actul twinflame *pov: she was in her twinflame state at that time now they both are twinray's you can only be twinrays when your inner ego will be dead* she started explaining him what does it mean , and while crying i was afriad i might become one of those toxic fan who hurts him , like one of those sesangs who harm him while getting obessed , he was the first man who i loved in my life , i was afarid of falling in love , i always wanted to be alone but one day i saw him at first i acted like i dislike him while calling the other members as brothers , i never looked at other man in my life i i just hated the way i was falling for him i was afraid i was scared , i was feeling guilty what if i might hurt him , sniff , she started crying harder . The little boy beside her tried to calm her down so she can breath . When i finally did when i looked at my state i felt bad like why do i have to born this weak ... why i have to suffer from heart disease.... like i felt guilty i felt myself like sickling i was afraid i might give my disease to him , yk.... many wants to marry him ik if i tell him i might look like one of those but idk idk ... why .. but ... im i was insecure of my health ! Many says im healthy now and fine but when ever i look at the scar on my body i feel guilty for him ... ... and they want to marry him cuz he is an idol , rich , and good looking , but never see the scars he had , ik they give sympathy but he he lost his childhood to when ever i think of im unable to give to him make him feel it that thing makes my chest hurt , i feel bad , cuz if i cry alot i might die , if i stress alot i might die , this feels like hell , i was emotionally dead when i was kid an corpse i was just an dead corpse thanks to him that he . ... he... made me feel emotions . And she kept going on . The little cousin of her started crying harder he was shocked , was unable to speak out the words, she just calmed herself down and started smiling a little while ignoring the fact that her body is aching , so does her heart and head hurting .She repled back its not easy reaching him alot of girls wants to marry him but what will you do what you get hated alot what will you do when someone tries to harm him . If i tell them im his twinflame they will say an normal person and celebrity can never be together but... isnt he an human like us? Just cause he is rich and popular he cannot love an normal person ? Why is it have to he like that ? She questioned . To be continued ..... cuz my energy is drained and my rib bones hurts.
