Chapter 1
Authors note
Hello everybody! This is Victoria. This is just a bit of a heads up, this book has already been written before! This is just a completely rewritten version of my original friends with benefits. I figured after five years, I would rewrite it! The story will stay completely the same! Just rewritten. The ending will be the same as well. So if you’ve already read the original friends with benefits, please understand that you were absolutely welcome to read this, but this is a rewritten version of it.
Friends with benefits.
Many people don’t want to do it.
Many people don’t understand what it is.
If you, Google it, Google will tell you one thing.
Friends with benefits ; a friend with whom has sex with without a romantic relationship or commitment.
But friends with benefits can mean a lot of things!
Most people believe that it is sex. Though, that’s not entirely the truth. People can have multiple different types of friends with benefits. It doesn’t have to be just sex.
You could consider it simply just making out with somebody, you could go to first base, second, a lot of it just depends on what you’re comfortable with. Or your age.
It also depends on who you’re dealing with, maybe you’re super close with somebody, or maybe the exact opposite? Maybe you don’t feel comfortable enough with them in the beginning to actually sleep with them? There’s a lot that goes into it!
It’s much more complicated than a lot of people wanna actually make it out to be.
Most people that you tend to have friends with benefits with, are good people at least to you, or you don’t know them enough to find out negative character traits about them.
Because I will tell you this right now, there are so many judgmental people in this world. Way too many for my liking. The ones that think they’re all that, the selfish, entitled, pricks! I hate them! Don’t you?
Most of the time, the truth is that they are just sad people, shitty ass lives, and they truly believe that they have to make everybody else feel bad.
Just bullies, that’s the truth.
When I was 16, I asked my best friend at the time, my now Ex best friend, Izzy Lawson, something.
But, by this time, I was already in a friend with benefits. But right now, that’s a story for another time. A much more complicated, and long story. But I will get to it.
At the time, since Izzy and I were best friends, I asked her what she thought of a person who was in a friends with benefits relationship.
I really cared about her answer, as she was my best friend. I put a lot of thought into the question, making sure that she completely understood it.
But before I tell you her answer, let me tell you a little little bit about Izzy. I’m telling you my opinion towards her, being completely biased. Again, she’s a fucking bitch.
Izzy is one of those up bitches, who thinks daddy’s going to buy her everything. And she thinks that because the truth is, he does! He doesn’t give a damn about his daughter, he thinks that if he buys her off, she’ll leave him alone.
She won’t beg for attention, she won’t be around him, and that’s what happens! She doesn’t bother him, only when she wants money. And to shut her up, he does it!
But, what she doesn’t know is that her daddy is a bastard, who likes to screw his secretary. Her whole family is a lie! Though, I knew that much more before she was my ex best friend. I just didn’t have the heart to tell her.
You would think for being my best friend, that she would be giving me a sweet and kind answer, regardless of what she thought. But instead, she had to make the most snarky comment to my question.
That’s what bitches do, be bitches…
“Anyone who starts a friends with benefits it’s just a lonely whore. I mean why else would they do that? Do they think they’re not good enough for an actual relationship? I mean who just let some random person fuck them? Who Let their best friend fuck them? That is just some lonely ass shit! Just some whore. That’s all. And a person who gets themselves involved with a friend with benefits, just need somebody to love them. But clearly they’re unlovable if they need to go and do that.”
I was completely stunned by her comment. Because what the hell does she know? She still a virgin, so she doesn’t know shit.
I’m not judging her for that, I mean, I’m quite surprised though. For as much as a snarky little bitch as she is, do you think she would’ve lost her virginity at 10.
But at the time, I wasn’t completely surprised by her comment, nor did I think too much on it.
Because I could say the exact same thing, but only it being a few years later.
I used to think the exact same thing! I truly did. Until my 14th birthday party. Two years prior to me asking this question.
Let’s get this straight, right now, I did not lose my virginity at 14! I promise. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, I just wasn’t ready.
As I stated earlier, friends with benefits can mean multiple things. Sex doesn’t have to be the main thing that you do. Especially if you’re not comfortable with it. A.k.a., me.
And that’s what it was, just the things that I was comfortable with. Such as… Making out.
Six years ago
“ Come on you sissy! It’s just a dare! Do it Aria.” Izzy berated me.
I looked at her, I was embarrassed by all of this. I wasn’t really sure what to do, even though Izzy kept yelling at me to do it.
I always felt like she was dragging me around, having me do things that I definitely didn’t want to do.
I looked at Logan, my best friend, the guy that I’m supposed to be kissing, begging him to stop this.
“ it’s just five seconds, get over it. I don’t think he’s going to mind, he’s a 14-year-old boy. All they think about is girls. Just get it done with. Stop being such a baby.” Izzy continued.
I looked at Logan once again, only taking my eyes off of him for one second to listen to Izzy, and then back to him. I was still begging him to not do this. But it was clear that he was focusing on something else.
“ Are you OK with this? Seriously, we don’t have to do this if you don’t want to?” I asked Logan. I was hoping deep inside that he would say no.
The thing was, I wasn’t just Logan’s best friend, Logan also had a girlfriend!
Minnie, Logan’s girlfriend was such a sweet person. I loved her! She was so nice, and honestly, she was a really good friend of mine. I knew if she found out without context, she would definitely be upset. Minnie and Logan had been together for quite a while now. I definitely didn’t want to ruin the relationship.
Especially for some dumb ass dare.
“It’s fine Aria. Stop worrying about it. Just come over, and we can quickly get it done with.” Logan finally said.
Dammit! I wish he wouldn’t have done that.
“ It’s just a dare. Nothing more.” he added.
Though, he was right. It was just a dare. And I know deep down, he was absolutely going to tell Minnie. He wasn’t going to not tell her about this.
It was just a kiss, nothing more.
I took a deep breath, and let it out. Trying to calm myself down. I couldn’t stop thinking about Minnie.
She was supposed to come to the party, but last minute she canceled. I personally invited her, but she had to go visit her sick grandmother in Texas. I know both me and Logan wanted her here, but at the moment, she clearly couldn’t.
As you can tell, I’m a very selfless person. I know that’s stupid to say about yourself, but the last thing I wanted to do was sit there and hurt her.
Finally, I decided to give in, and just get the day over with. I knew Izzy was definitely not going to let me hear the last of it, I had to do what she wanted. Of course…
We were all sitting down in Izzy’s basement, there were couches, and Logan, Michael, Meredith, and Izzy, we’re all sitting across from me. I was sitting on another couch, with a few other friends of mine.
I got up from the couch that I was on, and walked over towards Logan.
Luckily, this was not my first kiss. So I wasn’t worried about screwing it up. I wasn’t worried about that whatsoever. I was more worried about something else.
I was more worried about the fact that this could deeply affect our friendship. Which I didn’t want. Logan and I had been best friends since we were five, completely inseparable!
We met when we were just five years old, at a playground, I had just moved here. And after that, just 30 minutes of hanging out with one another, we never had one fight. We were best friends, we always did everything together.
“ Will you hurry up? We don’t have much time for this. Just get this over with!” Izzy said, getting extremely impatient.
I almost wanted to be yelled at her to shut up, but I couldn’t. Instead, I just walked over closer to Logan, and sat down next to him. There was a little bit of space between Logan and Meredith.
Now that I was finally next to Logan, I could tell that something was up with him. He definitely seemed a little tense, maybe he wasn’t wanting this to happen now? Who knew?
“ Hurry up!” Izzy said once more.
“ Izzy! Shut up! What is wrong with you? She’s clearly doing it. You continuing to tell her is not going to help anything.” Meredith snapped.
Out of everybody in the group, Meredith was the only person who was likely to stand up to Izzy. Surprisingly, this shot Izzy down.
I was done waiting, I asked Logan once more if this was OK, and he nodded.
I moved more closer to him, and he quickly put me onto his lap. I looked in his eyes just for a few seconds, before, eventually, leaning down, to make sure that our lips press together. He wrapped his arms around my waist, and pulled me as close as possible.
I think we were both deeply surprised by how this was going.
Minimum five second kiss that Izzy had been wanting, so bad, quickly turned into a full make up session. I don’t even remember how we started French kissing. It made no sense to me! But it felt so easy, it felt good. It felt so natural!
“ lovebirds! You’re done.” I heard Izzy say. I pulled away from Logan, and looked at him. Deep down, I was very conflicted on how I felt.
“ thankfully, Minnie wasn’t here to see that, she probably wouldn’t be very happy.” Michael said.
He was right, how could I sit there and do that?
I quickly got off of Logan, and headed back to my seat.
“ Logan, good for you! I didn’t think you would have that in you. You definitely seem to enjoy that quite a bit,” Meredith joked.
Logan rolled his eyes, and told Meredith to keep her mouth shut. As much as I knew, Logan was actually going to sit there and tell Minnie about the situation, he definitely wasn’t going to give a whole in-depth about this.
Everybody also raised their hand, to keep quiet about this.
Now, it was somebody else’s turn.
Meredith.
“ truth or dare?” Izzy asked Meredith.
“ dare”
“ I dare you to tell Minnie, when she comes back into town, that Logan made out with Aria” Izzy let out.
“ Meredith don’t, don’t be like that.” I begged.
“ shut up, I don’t give a damn if it’s your birthday or not. You don’t get to sit there and make up the decisions. A day is a dare so get over it.” Izzy said, snapping at me.
“ it’s my birthday, you’re right. I get what I want. Meredith, you are not allowed to tell Minnie. Logan’s going to tell her no matter what, but don’t sit there and tell her something that’s only going to upset her. She’s going through enough.”
Surprisingly, Meredith actually agreed with me. She decided that she wasn’t actually going to go through with Izzy‘s horrible dare.
Meredith told me since it’s my birthday, I’ll get what I want. But I also know Meredith is more my friend than Izzy’s. Nobody truly likes Izzy, nobody! They only put up with her because she’s rich, and has a lot of power.
I’ve known Izzy for quite a few years, and she’s changed quite a bit. We are all scared to tell the truth, she would ruin us!
I also know it would definitely hurt my relationship with my parents, my father works very hard at Izzy’s father’s company. My father would be severely disappointed in me, and most likely lose, lose his job.
Izzy is a little brat, and I wouldn’t put a pastor for making it a point to see that my father loses his job.
That’s actually how I found out that Izzy’s father was having an affair, Izzy’s father actually has an illegitimate son. Though, he doesn’t know about him. I do…
We play another few rounds, and eventually, I get sick and tired of this. Logan and I ended up, heading back to my house, and we hang out for a little while.
I was happy to be out of Izzy’s house. I always felt so suffocated by her. I was also happy to be alone with Logan now, even though I felt a little embarrassed and confused about what happened at the house.
“ I’m sorry about Izzy. I wish I wouldn’t have kissed you if I knew she was planning to do that. She’s a bitch! She always has some sort of bullshit planned behind everything.” I told Logan.
Both Logan and I headed downstairs, and sat on the couch.
“Don’t worry about it. I know she’s a bitch. There’s nothing I can do about it. You know how much she hates Minnie anyways.” Logan stated.
It was the truth, Izzy hates Logan‘s girlfriend. But that’s because one of two things, Izzy actually has feelings for Logan, which I know. Along with Minnie is one of the very few people that actually stands up to Izzy.
“ Though, I think we need to talk about something. The kiss.” I said quickly. It was very clear that he didn’t want to talk about it.
I wondered why, though.
“ I guess we do, I didn’t think you would want to sit there and actually talk about it.” Logan replied. “ but if I’m being completely honest, and since you’re my best friend, I’ll tell you, I really enjoyed it. And I think you felt it too. And I know that’s fucked up, because I have a girlfriend, but it’s the truth.”
“ Logan, your girlfriend, adore you. She’s so sweet, and you and her have been together for quite a while. Why does it matter if you liked it? Why does it matter if I did? It’s not like we can go past it. We’re best friends as well.”
“ I understand that. I do. And you’re right, I’m very happy with my girlfriend. And I don’t wanna let that go. But at the same time, I kind of want to keep doing it with you. How about we just mess around for a bit? If you really don’t wanna do it, I promise you I won’t make you.” Logan said.
He looked at me for a few more seconds, before leaning in once more. Pressing his lips to mine.
This kiss was so much more different than the first one. The first one was so delicate, and sweet. This time it was rougher, significantly more intense. It was like he was trying to prove a point. A point that he showed me how it would be.
He pulled away for a few seconds, looking into my eyes.
“ if you don’t want this, tell me now.”
I looked deep into his eyes, trying to read what he wanted. And eventually, I found the truth.
I put my hand against his cheek, and pulled him down once more.
I know I didn’t want him to be a cheater, and I knew this was going to get complicated. But how could I say no?
