24/09/23
Sta“Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!”
Psalms 42:11
Lord today I feel sad and lonely, I feel discouraged and wronged. I have isolated myself in my room praying and hoping to feel your presence and voice. If you spoke to me my ears might’ve been blocked from the tears I have shed but I leave my heart open. Strengthen my faith and love. Allow me to open up my heart and may it overflow with your peace and grace.
Don’t hide your face from me… I feel like I’m drowning, drowning in my own doubt, heartache and pain. But I praise you lord, for I know you are working in my favour, you see the things I don’t. Like Nathaniel you have heard me in my darkest hour, you pressed your face to my tear stained cheeks. You have brought me out of darkness before and I know you will do it again.
Who is the companion you have chosen for me lord? Who is this man you have prepared and forged with water and spirit? My heart has closed on itself to heal, help me leave it open to you lord. Dwell within me as you did your disciples… Give me living water as you did the Samaritan so that I may not thirst. Catch me and sort me as you instructed Simon Peter, look at me in favour as you did John. Wrote your words in my soul and spirit as you instructed Matthew. Bless me and cleanse me as you did Mary.
I am weak and fragile… when I love I give my all now help me give that to you, stay by my side. Lay with me, talk with me, hear my story, listen to my heart, show me you love me… remind me that I am under your grace and love 💔
I am trying not to turn to the enemy’s whispers lord.. I am trying my best, I’m truly trying. I still love him but help me let go so that I may receive what you have prepared.
Praise you Adonai, Praise you Jesus, Praise you, You are amazing, You are empathetic, you are all gracious and mighty.
You love me too Lord 💔 heal me
