How I lost you..

"AH!" I jerked myself up out my bed. I looked around at my wrists, and body. No, blood? No scars? It felt so fuzzy, but so vivid though..the sun brightly beamed on my face, and into my dark brown eyes making it shine brighter..

I peered out the window. Nope. Same old, Vancouver, Canada, as it rose before me. As if my life wasn't even more chaotic I deal with the nightmare everyday since that night. When my best friend was shot, infront of my eyes. As me, Enzo Lopez, is forced to deal with it all.

"Oh my god..Enzo!" I jumped back a little, startled by the sweet sound of Ambers voice, "You okay? You were screaming in your sleep..nightmares again I propose?.."

I frowned at her little appeal nodding, crushed again..my best friend dying in my eyes..I remember it all..

His face, pale and dead inside..looking broken like never before, the blood smeared on his face and it splattering from his head..he died in my arms. Luca..my beloved best friend..the one I almost propsed to..

"Yeah.." my voice silently trailed off as Amber's gaze softened to me..I looked down trying not to cry like a wuss that I already was..

"I miss him, Amber..I really do.." The tears streaked down my face as I put my head into my hands..

Damn it..I'm such a fucking crybaby! I look like a wimp but atleast a hot one~

Hah..

That was a damn lie..I hate myself for that.

"I'm so weak.." I sobbed underneath my breath. I felt her grip slightly tightened as she pulled me in her arms.."Your not weak Enz, your just scared..and teared apart.."

"W-we were- su-supposed to be..y-y'know.." I muttered under my breath. She stopped my whispering and sobs, "shhh..I know..don't blame yourself.."

"B-but Amber..I couldve stopped it! I-if only I just- didn't be such a crazy ass and just trusted him for the pla-"

"You were overwhelmed. I'm sure he understood.."

I never even blamed on myself more! He died from me! I couldve stopped it! We wouldn't have been caught!

I felt so much disdain in myself that I couldn't even believe that I was still even here anymore..! I should've gotten shot. And I was already considering to do things...

I quietly made a sound under my breath trying to assure Amber that I was okay, and I needed to handle myself. I couldn't just cry in her arms like a baby, so she'd fix all my problems. As Lux told me, "You need to man up. You can't let someone handle your pain."

Pshh, so what are therapists?

I slowly sat up and sniffed quietly, I haven't at all been the same since that night. I barley commited to our heist, and steals anymore. I stopped my excerise and gym

"So, I was wondering.." Amber slid her finger down my chest and gave me a devious look, "If you wanted to get back to it again? I mean, you haven't stole or made money In a while~"

I knew she'd ask that! My eyes narrowed, and I glinted, "What?..i- i-" "Don't worry, I have it all figured out. Lux will start traning you again. You need it.."

I knew I did for a fact. I'd let my fighting, and weekly schedules and myself, go. I nodded to her trying to make an effort and mumbled to myself nervously, "Espero, que Lux no me mate.."

"I promise it'll all be okay." She assured me. she placed her hand on my shoulder and gave it a nudge, "Hey, y'know..I'm sure Luca is watching you up high from above, and watches over you."

I teared up and immediately gave her a warm hug and cried into her shoulder.."Thank you amber..!"

"Thank you!"...

A/n- Hope you all like this chapter!